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Intros are too long / Should I stay or should I go / Did Gen X get lost

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Intros are too long /

Should I stay or should I go /

Did Gen X get lost 

John ponders incoming job opportunities while wondering if many of his Generation X brothers and sisters lost their way. More at johnemotions.com 

And just like that we're back. I listened to a lot of podcasts lately and some of my favorite podcast have started to drive me crazy because I listened to them. You know, I beene listen to them, I guess is the phrase, but they're Intros or like ten or twenty or even thirty seconds long, and I have to listen to the all that bullshit every time. And some of them artificially will cut like an hour long interview into thirty minutes, so I have to listen half now and then half a week or two from now. I don't understand. If you have the whole interview in the can just play it, otherwise you're just manipulating your audience. Cheez, come on. So that's a that's what we're going to go with, you know, because I'm going to do one of these, like I said, an episode a day throughout August and maybe beyond, who knows? I'm just kind of giving myself a challenge. Anyway, it's Monday, August second and this...

...is a day two of my challenge. So, like I said, I'm just going to drop in the little super friends sound every time we change episodes, because otherwise it's just going to get tedious to because my episodes aren't that long at all. Could you imagine, like having a minute long intro for a ten minute podcast? That would be dumb. So did you dig that band just now? Oh, I don't know what order you're listening to. I think I've said this before, but since I'm going to be making a new episode every day for the month of August, you probably might want to listen to it newest first. If there's a sort mechanism on your ipod or your little playlist whatever, do newest first and you'll just hear today's right, it's today anyway. That song you just heard from yesterday's episode, called security, was by a band called Amil and the sniffers. They're out of Australia. They've been around for about, I don't know, several years, probably more than five years, but not much more, and I think they started when they were really young, so they're still young, like in the early...

S. I think they started as teenagers. Very cool. I love that sound. It kind of reminds me of the buzz cocks meets Blondie, I guess. And for those of you who don't know, back in the s they used to sell this stuff in what we call the head shops, where they sold bombs and pipes, but no cannabis. They also sell this jar of some stuff called rush, and rush basically you unscrew the jar and sniff it and it gives you a head rush. Kind of Corny, but you know, we take what we can get back in the days anyway. Amil, that's stuff in that jar called rush, is amial nitrate. So Amil and the sniffers get it. Amil on the sniffers. That songs called security. It's coming out in a couple of weeks, so keep your eyes out and ears open for that. I listen to a lot of music when I'm driving, so I try to save the good ones. There's a lot of music out there, and not all of its to my liking. When I find things that I think are pretty cool, I will for sure share them with you. Here's a dilemma I've been thinking about a lot lately. It's...

...probably part of the thing that stressed me out and gave me the shingles. So I have my like linkedin profile up there and my resume is a normal resume place whatever indeed, and I get people asking me to see if I could, if they could have my resume, like, will you submit your resume to this job? Basically, so, basically one click away from applying at a new job. So none of these are jobs that are in my current industry, which I don't think I would go do because it's not loyal. But Man, I get so many job potential, job offers, let's call them, that I think I might be missing out on something and I'm wondering if I should just like click the yes button, go, yes, go ahead and submit my resume on file to that job that you've asked me for. What do you think seems reasonable? I mean a lot of people are changing jobs and everything and, like I've said, this job their forecast for what the sales and the pay would be our way off to what the...

...reality is. But that doesn't mean I should suffer, right, and I am loyal. So I'm thinking loyalty should mean don't go work for a similar company in the similar trade, but if I go back to doing something else, like design work, that's not a conflict at all. And I don't know, got to take care of me too. Since then, you know, they don't look out for me. As far as the pay goes, so I have to look out for my own pay. So, anyway, what would you do? You know, I'm most most of people I know are like yeah, fuck, of course, go apply for the job, get a different job, you dumb ass. Anyway, I think a little bit differently. I'm always trying to like stick it out and hang in there a little longer. But anyway, something one I just a job came up today that look kind of up my alley. I'm like yeah, yeah, actually, that one looks kind of cool. How much effort should I put into this or how much thoughts should I even give it? We'll see. And you know, this whole thing is got me thinking also, like what doesn't get me thinking right? But I know a lot of people my age...

...that don't work now and have barely worked most of their lives, like jen x people, and I know a handful that have jobs, but they don't seem to be jobs that they like very much. Me, it wasn't something they talked about doing back in the old days when we were friends as kids. Nobody's doing any of those things and most of the new people I know now don't work at all. Someone what the fuck? I like why am I still working? I've been working since I was like, I don't feel, like, like three years old or something. I used to climb trees and grab mistletoe and bundle it up with red ribbon and go down to the local kmart and sell it at Christmas time, and that's when it started and I literally did the lemonade stand in all this, always trying to get some independence. You don't get some income, but when you've got mental health issues sometimes it gets difficult to stay at a place that sucks, for example.

You don't have the intention. There's just no reason to stick around if something is miserable because, well, it's just the way some some of our minds work, you know. But the people I'm thinking of are generally I would I don't know. They've never mentioned mental health problem. So either they're hiding them or don't want to talk about them, or whatever, however you want to frame that, or they just have never looked into it and maybe that's the source of their their misery. And I say misery because a lot of the people I know that don't work now, that are my age, seem miserable. They focus on the bad. They pretty much just look at the screen, obviously because we're in a pandemic and you can't really do a lot outside, but I really start to worry about them, especially I do have handfuls of friends that are successful and those are the ones. This is really interesting thing about reading this book called want wanting. I guess it's about mimetic...

...desire and mimissas, copying others, and one of the interesting ideas is that when somebody has actually been in your presence, you've broken through. Now you're in the same world. So I think being in Los Angeles and San Francisco, but particularly Los Angeles, when you're around and your meeting and you're talking to and hanging out with famous people who are super successful, in your mind you know that that's a that's attainable, that's a real thing. You've seen it, you've been there, you've you know all the stuff. So in the in the concept of Mameisis now that I know these things are real, somehow I want to copy that. Like I think that's that's a realistic goal, is to do something and be great at it, and I wonder how many of my friends either think about that a lot or just kind of stuff it. Think about it but don't mention it. Or if there's other people that do talk about it and I just don't, you know, I don't...

...hear from them in particular. And there's, I'm talking about you, a couple dozen different people I've known since, you know, great school. So if you're out there and you're one of those potential in that pool of people, I would like to hear from you. Tell me, like where, what happened? Like how did we get off track? I know I got mentally ill and then got off track, but was I off track and that's what led to the mental illness? You know, is it? Is it cause or effect? which way does it go? Is it just see, seems like there's so many generation next people and like I've lived a normal life in normal places, I guess you'd call them middle class suburbs type of places, as a kid and then as I grew up, I explored cities and the Wilderness and other places. But everywhere I go I see these people, I see people like me that just don't seem to have, I don't know,...

...a solid grasp of what they want to do. They got like five different ideas of things they could do and like speak of myself as well, because I don't like I don't have the try, don't trust myself to put it all the you know, all the bet on one of those things, because I just don't have that kind of support system to take that kind of risk, I guess, and maybe they're the same way, but I guess what I'm getting at is it would be need if we all got together and provided each other that kind of support, became our own support system. And I don't even know where to start. I mean, fuck apparently I fuck up all the time, right, or people lead me to believe that, and no matter how much I apologize, I can't get back in the good graces of people I'd like to be with. So I end up missing half my life because I'm like, Oh, well, I missed that person or those people, and in there's other people I missed that well, they're like fire. You know, I appreciate it, but I'm not going to go touch it. I'm to get in it. Not gotta be affected or get...

...burned. Could deal with that from a distance, you know. I could enjoy some things from a distance and other things I wish I had close by. But one thing that would be great would be a social support network of people that all knew each other from back in the day. And do you have that? Do you have that social network? Did you have it organically, did you have to make it as an adult? I'm curious. You know, I'm in my own head. I assume everyone has a similar life to me and then I see people living similar lives to me, which reinforces my thoughts. But there may be people like maybe you. Do you have a support network of people that are truly uplifting? Like, instead of getting support when I got shingles, I got basically I needed like three or four things and they all speak to eliminating the stress that caused the singles in the first place. Right instead, I got like a forgiveness. My Mom forgive...

...me for not taking the shingles vaccination whenever, a year ago, she doesn't know of like been out of money, not having any medical insurance or a way to get to a doctor for a fucking shingles vaccination. But when I got the singles most recently, my mom sent me Neil says she forgives me, she forgives me, and that special. I wonder if she get forgave my sister for dying of cancer too? Who knows? Parents are fucked up, and apparent I'm a parent, so apparently I'm fucked up. I just don't know how. I don't know in which way. Like I know I don't know how to tune for it or make amends. There's no path to redemption for me. So I'm just kind of stuck here in space, talking on a mic in the middle of nowhere. Weird. So let me go contemplate this. Job Requests. Man, always something new to think about. Anyway, I'll go check it out. That's it for today. I'll start scraping together more ideas after I you know, I'm really still racked up with...

...painted everything and I'm a sleeping maybe four hours and night, which just makes me miserable. So if you detect an angry tone in my voices, because I'm not fucking sleeping. That said, you know I got some I'm not sleeping. I got plenty of time to do a podcast each day and stay in practice, but I'll try to get some guests on the weekends come up with a list of topics that make more sense than me just rambling. That said, I hope you enjoyed the rest of your day or night, wherever it is. However, it is wherever you are and I will see you tomorrow, August third, and now back to the wall.

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