Emo Dojo™ Presents: John Emotions
Emo Dojo™ Presents: John Emotions

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Intros are too long / Should I stay or should I go / Did Gen X get lost

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Intros are too long /

Should I stay or should I go /

Did Gen X get lost 

John ponders incoming job opportunities while wondering if many of his Generation X brothers and sisters lost their way. More at johnemotions.com 

And just like that, we're back, Ilistened to a lot of podcast lately and some of my favorite podcast havestarted to drive me crazy because I listen to them. You know I binge listento them. I guess is the phrase, but their intros are like ten or twenty oreven thirty seconds long, and I have to listen to all that bullshit every timeand some of them artificially will cut like an hour long interview into thirtyminutes. So I have to listen half now and then half a week or two from now. Idon't understand if you have the whole interview in the can just play it.Otherwise, you're just manipulating your audience. Jeez come on, so that'sa that's. What we'RE gonna GO WITH! You know, because I'm going to do. One ofthese, like I said an episode a day throughout August and may be beyond whoknows I've just kind of given myself a challenge anyway. It's Monday Augustsecond, and this is a day too of my...

...challenge so, like I said, I'm justgoing to drop in the little super friends sound every time we we changeepisodes, because otherwise it's just going to get tedious to, because myepisodes aren't that long at all. Could you imagine like having a minute longintro for a ten minutes podcast? That would be dumb. So did you dig that bandjust now? Oh, I don't know what order you're listening to. I think I've saidthis before, but since I'm going to be making a new episode every day for themonth of August, you probably might want to listen to it newest first, ifthere's a sort mechanism on your, I pot or you little playlist, whatever donewest first and you'll just hear today's right. It's Today, anyway, that Song, you just heard fromyesterday's episode called security, was by a band called Amel and thesniffers they're out of Australia they've been around for about. I don'tknow several years, probably more than five years, but not much more, and I think they started when they werereally young. So they're still young,...

...like in the early twenties, I thinkthey started as teenagers very cool. I love that sound. It kind of reminds meof the buzz cocks meats blondy, I guess, and for those of you who don't knowback in the s they used to sell this stuff in what we call the head shopswhere they sold bongs and pipes, but no cannabis they'd also sell this jar ofsome stuff called rush and rush. Basically, you unscrew the jar andsniff it, and it gives you a head rush kind of Corny, but you know we takewhat we can get back in the days anyway. Amel that stuff, in that jar calledrush, is Amo, nitrate, so amel and the sniffers get it Amalon. The sniffersthat songs called security. It's coming out in a couple of weeks, so keep youreyes out and ears open. For that. I listen to a lot of music when I'mdriving, so I try to save the good ones, there's a lot of new music out thereand not all of its O my liking. When I find things that I think are prettycool, I will for sure share them with you.

Here's a dilemma. I've been thinkingabout him a lot lately. It's probably part of the thing that stressed me outand gave me the shingles. So I have my like linked in profile up there and myresume is a normal resume place whatever. Indeed- and I get people asking me to if I could,if they could have my resume like, will you submit your resume to this job?Basically, so it basically one click away from applying at a new job. Sonone of these are jobs that are in my current industry, which I don't think Iwould go to because it's not loyal but ban. I get so many job potential joboffers. Let's call them that. I think I might be missing out on something andI'm wondering if I should just like click the yes button. Go yes, go aheadand submit my resume on file to that job. That you've asked me for what doyou think seems reasonable? I mean a lot of people are changing jobs andeverything and, like I've, said this job their forecast for what the salesand the pay would be our way off to...

...what the reality is. But that doesn'tmean I should suffer right and I am loyal. So I'm thinking loyalty shouldmean don't go work for a similar company in the similar trade, but if I go back to doing somethingelse like design work, that's not a conflict at all, and I don't know gotto take care of me too. Since then you know they don't look out for me as faras the pay goes, so I have to look out for my own pay. So anyway, what wouldyou do? You know? I'm most of the people I know are like yeah fuck in, ofcourse, go play for in other job, get a different job. You dumb ass anyway, Ithink a little bit differently, I'm always trying to like stick it out andhang in there a little longer, but anyway, sometime one of the just ajob came up today that looked kind of up my alley. I'm like Yeah Yeah,actually that one looks kind of cool how much effort to day put into this orhow much thought should I even give it we'll see, and you know this whole thing has gotme. Thinking also like what I doesn't...

...get me thinking right, but I know a lotof people, my age, that don't work now and have barelyworked most of their lives like Jen people, and I know a handful that have jobs,but they don't seem to be jobs that they like very much. I mean it wasn'tsomething they talked about doing back in the old days when we were friends askids nobody's doing any of those things and most of the New People. I know nowdon't work at all someone what the Fuck Hela like. Why amI still working I've been working since I was like I don't feel like like threeyears old or something I used to climb trees and grab missile toe and bundleit up with red ribbon and go down to the local kmart and sell it atChristmas time? That's when it started. I literally didthe lemonade stand and all this always trying to get some independence. Youknow, get some income, but when you've got mental healthissues, sometimes it gets difficult to...

...stay at a place that sucks. For example,you don't have the intention there's just no reason tostick around if something is miserable, because well, it's just the way somesome of our minds work, you know, but the people I'm thinking of are generally. I would I don't know.They've never mentioned mental health problems so either they're hiding them or don't want to talk about them orwhatever. However, you want to frame that or they just have never lookedinto it and maybe that's the source of their their misery and I say miserybecause a lot of the people. I know that don't work now that are my ageseem miserable. They focus on the bad. They pretty much just look at thescreen, obviously, because we're in a pandemic- and you can't really do a lotoutside, but I really start to worry about them, especially. I do have handfuls offriends that are successful and those are the ones this really interestingthing I M in reading this book called want...

...wanting. I guess it's about mimetic desire and mimesiscopying others, and one of the interesting ideas is that when somebodyhas actually been in your presence, you've broken through now you're in thesame world, so I think, being in Los Angeles and San Francisco, butparticularly Los Angeles when you're around in your meeting andyou're talking to and hanging out with famous people who are super successfulin your mind, you know that that's e, that'sattainable. That's a real thing! You've seen it you've been there you've, youknow all the stuff, so in the in the concept of Mammisi.Now that I know these things are real. Somehow I want to copy that, like, Ithink, that's that's. A realistic goal is to do something and be great at it,and I wonder how many of my friends either think about that a lot or just kind of stuff it think about it,but don't mention it or if there's other people that do talk about it andthey just don't know, I don't hear from...

...them in particular, and there's I'mtalking about you a couple dozen different people have known sense. YouKnow Grade School, so if you're out there and you're oneof those potential in that pool of people, I would like to hear from youtell me like where what happened like how did we get off track? I know I gotmentally ill and then got off track, but was I off track and that's what ledto the mental illness you know is it? Is it cause or effect? which way doesit go? It just seems like there's so many generation x, people and like I've, believed that a normallife and normal places- I guess you'd- call middle class suburbs type of places as a kid andthen, as I grew up, I explored cities and the Wilderness and other places,but everywhere I go. I see these people, I see people like methat just don't seem to have. I don't...

...know a solid grasp of what they want todo. They got like five different ideas of things they could do, and I like speak of myself as well, because I don't like I don't have the TR. I don't trust myself. To put it all the you know all the bet on one ofthose things, because I just don't have that kind of support system to takethat kind of risk. I guess and maybe they're the same way, but Iguess what I'm getting at is. It would be neat if we all got together andprovided each other. That kind of support became our own support systemand I don't even know where to start I mean fuck. Apparently I fuck up all thetime right or people lead me to believe that and no matter how much I apologize,I can't get back in the good graces of people I'd like to be with so I end upmissing half my life because I'm like oh well, I missed that person or thosepeople and there's other people. I missed thatwell, they're, like fire, you know, I appreciate it, but I'm not going to gotouch it. I'm not going to get in it...

...not going to be affected or get burnedcould deal with that from a distance. You know I could enjoy some things froma distance and other things I wish I had close by. But one thing that would be great would bea social support network of people that all knew each other from back in theday. And do you have that? Do you have thatsocial network? Did you have it organically? Did you have to make it asan adult? I'm curious. You know I'm in my ownhead. I assume everyone has a similar life to me and then I see people livingsimilar lives. To me, which reinforces my thought, but there may be peoplelike, maybe you do you have a support network of people that are trulyuplifting like instead of getting support. When I got shingles, I got basically I needed like three orfour things and they all speak to eliminating the stress that caused thesingles in the first place right and instead I got like a forgiveness,my mom, forgive me for not taking the...

...singles vaccination whatever a year ago. She doesn't knowif, like been out of money, not having any medical insurance or a way to getto a doctor for a fucking shingles vaccination, but when I got the singlesmost recently my mom sent me a new says she forgivesme. She forgives me in that special. I wonder if she forgave my sister fordying of cancer too. Who knows? Parents are fucked up andapparently I'm a parent, so apparently I'm fucked up. I just don't know how Idon't know in which way like I I don't know how to tune for it or make amends,there's no path to redemption. For me, so I'm just kind of stuck here in spacetalking on a Mike in the middle of nowhere weird. So let me go contemplatethis job request. Man always something new to think aboutanyway. I'll go check it out. That's IT for today I'll start scraping together,more ideas after I you know, I'm really...

...still racked up with pain andeverything and I've a sleeping, maybe four hours a night which just makes memiserable. So if you detect an angry tone in my voices because I'm notfucking sleeping, that's said you know I got since I'mnot sleep and I got plenty of time to do a podcast each day and stay inpractice, but I'll try to get some guests on the weekends come up with a list of topics that makemore sense than me just rambling, a that said. I hope you enjoy the rest ofyour day or night wherever it is. However, it is wherever you are- and Iwill see you tomorrow, August third and now back to the wall.

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