Emo Dojo™ Presents: John Emotions
Emo Dojo™ Presents: John Emotions

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Bipolar Style | Intermission | Johnny talks about “Med Shaming” and sensing humor

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Johnny responds to a concerned listener and talks about the concept of “Med Shaming,” and his pithy hashtag #PharmFree ... He also shares his thoughts on accepting situations so that we can find humor in most anything. Lastly, Johnny explains why the brief intermission from the “Newbies Guide to Bipolar” and his failed new-job adventure. Johnny's Twitter handle is @JohnEmotions Send emails to BipolarStyle@gmail.com or join us via Slack at BipolarParty.com ... World Bipolar Day is March 30, 2019. Bipolar Style will podcast LIVE that day - mark your calendar!

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I oands online iy. That's me: what's up Johnny Motionshere, bipolar style? How are you doing? Oh Yeah, really that bad huh, I'm justplaying? It's been a tough couple of weeks today, I'm doing a quickintermission in the newbis guide to by polar disorder, we're doing to twelvepart series we meeting my cohost Jessica and myself. However, I've beenmoving I'll. Tell you more about that in a second, so we're kind of disassembled Gonto disintegrate it atthe moment. So you're going to get one episode quicky from me here, and I alsohave another episode Jessica, doing a Solo episode. The reason for that is, Idon't have to edit the two together half an hour. PODCAST can take aboutthree hours to edit and I just don't have the focus. I think I mightactually have adhd. I used to think no. No. I pay too much attention turns out.That's not really accurate, apparently my inability to keep doing things in myfrustration at concentrating on tdium for very long classic adhd. Who Knew Ididn't know. Maybe I don't have mania at all. Maybe I'm just have adhd anddepression. A little anxiety mixed in I don't know, that's why the call that'swhy I call the show by polar style anyway, so we're doing an intermissionshow, I hope you've enjoyed the you know for six episodes will keepthose up indefinitely after the twelve I'm going to take a break and get backto my other podcasts I produce some of which your mental health related andsome are not. If you want to follow along my twitter handle for all thatstuff is at John Emotions, presimple...

...and I also post p Jessica's twitter handle as well, butshe probably said it in her own episode. The cool thing is, I told her to sendover your episode and I'll put on the intro music and then upload it and let it go. So I'm notreally wanting to listen to our episodes much unless I have to editthem and even then I'm just listening, so we don't screw them up. So there'sno like super outofline things we might have said or things it just don't makesense, and sometimes, when you get to people in a room or on Mikes that havea lot to say and a lot of passion we're very emphatic. We talk over each other,so I have to edit that part out. So Anyway, a lot of times we'll talk forabout a hour I'll, take about three hours to make that into a half an hourshow. But fortunately you know- or I hope itsounds like it's all spontaneous. However, it's not it's actual work, soI don't know what Jessica's podcast is going to be about. I may actuallylisten to it. We always appreciate your feedback on t things we talk about andone of the things I wanted to mention that I did get feedback on. As you mayknow, I think I'm a very highly sensitive person. So if you send mefeedback, I'm going to it's going to consume me, I'm going to listen to it,I'm going to read it and I try not to get reactive, becauseyou know that's not a great way to live I'll. Try to respond so I listene to itand one of the things that stood out the most was a listener. wrote to mereally nice email concerned about the the appearance of MED, shaming. Now Med,shaming, would be like you suck you take mat. I mean this ismy impression of bedshaving is when you run across a person that doesn't take,that does take medication, giving them a hard time for taking their medicine,which I don't think I've done, but if I've ever given that impression, Iapologize to you and say anybody that I may have offended or hurt for sure,because my intent is never to shame...

...people for anything except electedofficials. I'm an Antarchist. I don't think we need rulers kings, gods.Anything like that. That's just me and that kind of also feeds into the myanti capitalist thing. So when it comes to medication, I amall for relieving the suffering, whether it's Canabys or prescription,drugs or whatnot, and in both of those realms, the wee dealer Heis acapitalist, Heis, making money. Clearly, the pharmaceutical companies are makinga bundle of money on antidepressints, and things like that. So I have issueswith capitalism in general, no offense, I'm not like a socialist or a communistor any of that stuff, I'm literally an anarchist. I think people should befree to do what they want and livein within the structures and the laws thatexist, but we don't need like a principal at school, telling us what todo all the time. That's ridiculous, because then it leaves room forinterpretation by that ruler to fuck things up and drive things askew muchlike in America right now. So my idea that Oh, I think it might have come down tothis, I'm like into marketing I'm a marketing, nexpert hi've been doing it.Not Ten housand hours were like thirty or forty thousand hours of experiencemarketing and I love the sound of the Hashtag farm free. You know like farmpharmaceuticals Ph arm free, but even that can have the convotationlike hey, I'm better than you, because I don't have meds. I think I may haveexplained it on other shows, but the reason I don't have meds is becauseoftentimes I'm out of work and out of medical insurance, and I don't havemeds so I'm often without medication, not by choice. It's just. I build upthe choice after the fact you know I kind of like bolster my decision out of some kind of philosophy, butit's not a philosophy. I'm just ostill...

...have money for meds, so Hashtag farmfree is often because I just don't have money for medication, and theinteresting thing is for the past: Almost fifteen years, maybe twe- Idon't know at least fifteen years. I've tried all of the different medicationsfor bipolar disorder and none of them it made me feel any better. So that'sone thing, so I don't really mind not having them, because I have to dealwith my own shit anyway and, like we were talking about some of those onsome of those earlier episodes that the meds just ease the suffering. Well, Ican get used to most of the suffering so long as I don't kill myself coollike I'll get through it, but there's still the underlying programming, thethings that were in my environment, as I came up that made me think the way Ithink that those still have to be reprogrammed. So I'm actually I'm goingto see a new therapist tomorrow. I will let you know how that goes. Wish meluck. The hardest thing actually, though, about the medicine is when yougo from doctor to doctor or, moreover, from Insurance Company to InsuranceCompany, they often don't support the same medication as the one prior to you,there's no common medical file that goes with you from state to state orcountry to country. You just Kat it somehow as a mentally ill personsupposed to gather all these things and keep track of them. I can't do that and since I can't do that and don't dothat, I end up at the mercy of insurancecompanies who switch the MEDS. Now, switching meds means coming off a madliving without medicine for a minute and then getting on a different MED andthe up and down is ridiculous. If you already been labeled as by polar andHen, the insurance companies want to bounce you from MED, to MED, to medTomen, to make to make them Aimi the it's fucked up. I would just as soondeal with my own roller coaster emotions than dealing with the emotionsthat are attributed to the medication.

That's that's sucky. So I hope that kind of explains why I support my own situation with youknow pithy little hash tags like farm free. It's not meant to a fen, andcertainly you know bless you. If youv found some help livea balanced life and you feel good about yourself by Al means, keep taking thatmedicine. Hopefully they don't Jack up the price to where you have to drop itor anything like that, but keep doing what you're doing and maybe consider adding some of the natural kind of things that we'vetalked about getting structured sleep, drinking lots of water get exercise goout in the Sun. I'm definitely not saying those are a cure. I'm justsaying that those are the things that I rely on now that I don't havephormaceuticals make sense, get cool if it doesn't bow mans. You can emailme or you can dm me on twitter whateer. You want, I still don't use facebook,we have a site there and the podcast goes out through there. But if you et, if you message me throughfacebook- and I don't reply in a while- just try twitter or try emailing us bybuller style at gmalcom, and I will responde immediately I' bean likewithin a day, I'm pretty responsive. That way, so anyway, come back to kindof the podcast production thing on March. Thirtieth is world by polar day.Now that doesn't have anything to do with the poll shift. You know magnetic pollshift or anything like that. It obviously has to do with bipolardisorder and it's going to be cool. I think it'skind of sponsored and promoted by the International Bipolar Foundation whichcan be found it IB, P, F, Dot, Org check those guys out. They do lots ofgood work. I don't know what the initial stand for. I don't knowwhat the PE stands for...

International Bipolar Foundation, maybe whatever you know ow,I feel about people hypenating, the word bipolar it'. That's that's not howI do it, but anyway, I'm going to set up ourlivestream a podcast live stream. So on March Thirtieh we will we meet inJessica and myself. We will stream. An episode of the podcast live. Will takeyour comments. You can log in anonymously or with your real face orwhatever, and ask questions troll US whatever you want. You know we'll havesome fun with it, but it all comes down to bringin some cool awareness to the fact that tons of otherwise normalpeople actually suffer daily with e bipolar, like maybe you so pull out your phone or switch overfrom the podcast tap right, quick tag on your calendar and mark world byPolar Day March thirtiet and set in alarm for the twenty. Ninth, so you'llremember to find us in Tunein we'll do lots of the typical promotion andletting people know that hey we're doing a bodguast or whatever, but I'dlike for you to join in, and you know feel that you belong because you dobelong, might not belong with those otheridiots, but you belong with us with US idiots welcome to the idiot Dumpe, I'mjust joking. That was one of the things my last therapist always said was likedon't even joke about the negative talk like because I have selfdeprecatingsense of humor and I tend to say things like that. She said: Nupedon't do that ever so I try to catch myself anyway. Those other people areidiots, not us. So join US world by Polar Day March, Thirtyi Cool, oh so Imentioned I'm moving around a lot. I think Imentioned on the other podcast that I...

...was going to move about three hoursfrom here and start a new job yeah. I tried that the job was not what I was sold on. Ihad some okay. Well, I got down there and the guy who had hired me. He was nolonger there. Bhe number two persons under him. Wellthat person showed up the morning. I was going to start telling me how she had quit the day before and onlycame back that day because the powers that be at the corporate office, youknow effectively begged her to kind of come on and help on board us. Well, that's thing. Two people gone to of thetop people there, like that's odd. Well, then, I starr to realize why, as thiswould have been a sales job and like I said, I'm I'm a marketing expert. Iknow what it takes to generate enough traffic so that sales peopleconsalsiate this place didn't have any marketinggoing on. Apparently they thought I was going to offer my my marketing servicesfor free for a commission sales job and that's not how it works, so I'm thikeell this really fucked up. So here I am, you know three hours, three R, fourhours from home we', not even home, like from my last home base andstreetport. Now, I'm way south deep in Louisiana. You know Akadia with a job that pays half of the minimumwage of California and they want me to now work six hours. I mean six days aweek and like fuck you it's ridiculous, can't do it not six days a week, it'llbreak my brain working too many hours will fuck you up, and you should knowthat you don't have to kill yourself just to earn a living. There are otherways, so I'd go home. Each night stressed out like what the fuck. Whatam I going to do? andfortunately my best friends, Onikaand Patty in streeport they had tried to talk me out of itanyway. Kin Not really, but you know...

...they said well, yeah don't go unlessyou know it's right and in my attitude was like I got to take a chance. Youknow we got to keep moving in life and that to Di and they're like okay good,go ahead. Good Luck, but they welcome me back with open arms and just doing areset. So anyway, just try new things. You know, don't bescared. It was a pain in the ASS. I did pack up and move all my shit threehours away and less than a week later, I'm backand all back and coming backand I kind of felt like I had my tail between my legs, but in hindsight likeno, why stick around a fucked up situation cut your losses as quick asyou can and get back into the groove? You know on the way back since I rarely listento podcast, except on long driving trips, because through that part ofLouisiana there's a lot of places where there's no radio signal, not even aphone signal, so I downloaded some podcast to listen to. Oh, by the way I did experience South Louisiana Mardigra now people when they hear Hi'm in L,Louisiana, they think Oh yeah. I went to Marti Gran New Orleans. Well, everyfucking city in Louisiana has MARTIGRA. So that's one thing and the Marnigra I saw in the littletown of Jennins. I was something else. If you ever see the Anthony Boarddane,I forget his last one of his last episodes of any show he did was a Mardigras in south Louisiana, socheck that out. That was legit. It was exactly like that and I would go backfor that because it's just nuts very Americani, just I don't even know howto explain it. Anthony Boardane has a show about it, go check it out. I don'tknow if it was no reservations or his other one or whatever it was, but good stuff anyway, driving back, I was listeningto the Joe Rogen show, which site honestly, I don't recommend it verymuch as a slippery slope into the...

...altright because of what he what itdoesn't counther when a fucking jackass all right type comes on his show. Hedoesn't confront them. He accepts them and almost embraces them, but oh wait.Fuck that wasn't even the show I was listening to. I was listening to Chapotropout bad Chopo Trap House. These guys Aur self proclaimed socialiststhey make hundred and tenthousanddollars a month on Patreon,so explain that. I'm not sure how much of that to give back to the communityanyway self proclaimed Socialists making a hundred ten grand on Patreon,so on Chapo they had the guy who produces a new netflix series aboutcomedy and dangerous places, and it was pretty neat but because I'd seen theseries already so I knew what they were talking about e kind of tuned out andwas listening for a deeper message and what I discerned was that comedy yoursense of comedy kind of like your sense of taste or your sense of smell. Yoursense of comedy really is based on accepting a situation as it is so, therefore, back in the day we usedto accept a rape not accepted, obviously W. it's always been a badthing, but society in general is more accepting of it. Therefore, in the ES sComedians on stage would tell rape, jokes people would laugh because they accepted that rape was part of it.I bring this up because this guy covered all kinds of crazy war, lordsand terrorist organizations in this mini series and they found humor. So Iwas thinking how do they find humor Ahthey've accepted that so in my accepting failure at this new job,my God, I'm accepting that that shit happens. So I tried to find humor in it.So I don't take it too hard and again. My whole thing is about timetimes the most precious resource we...

...have far above money far above anythingreally so I found accepted the situation and I found some humor in it,and I hope you know when you, especially if you'rfirst diagnosed with bipolar, once you've accepted that diagnosis you'renow allowed to go, find humor. Your sense of humor has expanded. You'veaccepted more things in life, now you're able to sense the humor in thosesituations. Feel me, no, I mean do you feel me n, I'm just planning hey and I didbrush my teeth by the way. Still had the freshest breath and podcasting yeah anyway, I've been talking for way toolong. Now I noticed on the PODCAST statistics. If we go past about twentytwenty five minutes, audience drops off. So I'm right upabout twenty minutes. I hope Youan enjoyed the little intermission here,we're going to get back to the nubius guide, to bipolar disorder on theremaining six seven, eight, nine ten and episode eleven on Bipolar Style and also tune into Jessica's show which jeesus either just before this one orcome and right up one or the other. I hope you enjoye them both and have anawesome rest o your week, don't forget to Change Tho clocks in AmericaSaturday night we're moving the clocks spring forward, get more sunlightduring the day, which is always helpful for depression and enjoy ourselves.Give yourselves a big hug and I'll see soon. Bye, N.

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