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Bipolar Style | Intermission | Johnny talks about “Med Shaming” and sensing humor

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Johnny responds to a concerned listener and talks about the concept of “Med Shaming,” and his pithy hashtag #PharmFree ... He also shares his thoughts on accepting situations so that we can find humor in most anything. Lastly, Johnny explains why the brief intermission from the “Newbies Guide to Bipolar” and his failed new-job adventure. Johnny's Twitter handle is @JohnEmotions Send emails to BipolarStyle@gmail.com or join us via Slack at BipolarParty.com ... World Bipolar Day is March 30, 2019. Bipolar Style will podcast LIVE that day - mark your calendar!

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It's only and now it's online ad Bible this stylecomy motions with Bible style. That's me. What's up, Johnny? Motions here bipolar style. How are you doing? Oh Yeah, really that bad? Huh? I'm just playing. It's been a tough a couple of weeks. Today I'm doing a quick intermission in the newbies guide to bipolar disorder. We're doing a twelve part series, we meaning my co host Jessica and myself. However, I've been moving. I'll tell you more about that in a second. So we're kind of disassembled. I'm going to disintegrated at the moment. So you're going to get one episode, a quickie from me here, and I also have another episode of Jessica doing a Solo episode. The reason for that is I don't have to edit the two together. Half an hour podcast can take about three hours to edit and I just don't have the focus. I think I might actually have adhd. I used to think, no, no, I pay too much attention. Turns out that's not really accurate. Apparently, my inability to keep doing things and my frustration at concentrating on tedium for very long classic adhd. Who Knew I didn't know. Maybe I don't have anya at all. Maybe I'm just have adhd and depression with a little anxiety mixed in. I don't know. That's why the call that's why I call the show bipolar style anyway. So we're doing an intermission show. I hope you've enjoyed the you know, first six episodes. Will keep those up indefinitely. After the twelve I'm going to take a break and get back to my other podcasts I produce, some of which are mental health related. In summer not if you want to follow along. My twitter handle for all that stuff is at John Emotions.

Pretty simple, and I also posts Jessica's twitter handle as well, but she probably said it in her own episode. The cool thing is I told her to send over your episode and I'll put on the intro music and then upload it and let it go. So I'm not really one to listen to our episodes much unless I have to edit them, and even then I'm just listening so we don't screw them up. So there's no like Super Adeline things we might have said or things it just don't make sense. And sometimes when you get to people in a room or on Mike's that have a lot to say and a lot of passion. We're very emphatic. We talk over each other, so I have to edit that part out. So Anyway, a lot of times we'll talk for about an hour. I'll take about three hours to make that into a half an hour show. But fortunately, you know, or I hope it sounds like it's all spontaneous. However, it's not. It's actual work. So I don't know what Jessica's podcast is going to be about. I may actually listen to it. We always appreciate your feedback on the things we talked about and one of the things I wanted to mention that I did get feedback on. As you may know, I think I'm a very highly sensitive person. So if you send me feedback, I'm going to it's going to consume me, I'm going to listen to it, I'm going to read it and I try not to get reactive because you know that's not a great way to live. I'll try to respond. So I listened to it and one of the things that stood out the most was a listener wrote to me really nice email concerned about the the appearance of Med shaming. Now Med shaming would be like you suck, you take me. I mean this is my impression of bed shaving is when you run across a person that doesn't take that does take medication, giving them a hard time for taking their medicine, which I don't think I've done, but if I've ever given that impression, I apologize to you and say anybody that I may have offended or...

...hurt for sure, because my intent is never to shame people for anything except elected officials. I'm an anarchist. I don't think we need rulers, kings, gods, anything like that. That's just me and that kind of allso feeds into the my anti capitalist thing. So when it comes to medication, I am all for relieving the suffering, whether it's cannabis or prescription drugs or whatnot. And in both of those realms that we dealer, he's a capitalist. He's making money. Clearly the pharmaceutical companies are making a bundle of money on antidepressants and things like that. So I have issues with capitalism in general. No offense. I'm not like a socialist or communist or any of that stuff. I'm literally an anarchist. I think people should be free to do what they want and living within the structures and the laws that exist. But we don't need like a principle at school telling us what to do all the time. That's ridiculous because then it leaves room for interpretation by that ruler to fuck things up and drive things askew, much like in America right now. So my idea that, oh, I think it might have come down to this. I'm like into marketing. I'm a marketing expert. I've been doing it not tenzero hours, more like thirty or fortyzero hours of experience marketing and I love the sound of the Hashtag farm free, you know, like farm pharmaceuticals, Ph a arm free. But even that can have the connotation like hey, I'm better than you because I don't have meds. I think I may have explained it on other shows, but the reason I don't have meds is because oftentimes I'm out of work and out of medical insurance and I don't have meds. So I'm often without medication, not by choice, it's just I build up the choice after the fact. You know. I kind of like bolster my decision out of some kind of philosophy, but it's not a...

...philosophy. I'm just I just don't have money for meds. So hashtag farm free is often because I just don't have money for medication. And the interesting thing is for the past ten, almost fifteen years, maybe twenty, I don't know, at least fifteen years, I've tried all of the different medications for bipolar disorder and none of them had made me feel any better. So that's one thing. So I don't really mind not having them because I have to deal with my own shit anyway. And like we were talking about some of those on some of those earlier episodes, that the MED's just ease the suffering. Well, I can get used to most of the suffering, so long as I don't kill myself. Cool like, I'll get through it. But there's still the underlying programming, the things that were in my environment as I came up that made me think the way I think that those still have to be reprogrammed. So I'm actually I'm going to see a new therapist tomorrow. I will let you know how that goes. Wish me luck. The hardest thing actually, though, about the medicine is when you go from the door to doctor or, moreover, from Insurance Company to Insurance Company. They often don't support the same medication as the one prior to you. There's no common medical file that goes with you from state to state or country to country. You just cut as somehow, as a mentally ill person, supposed to gather all these things and keep track of them. I can't do that. And since I can't do that and don't do that, I end up at the mercy of insurance companies who switch the MEDS. Now, switching meds means coming off a D living without medicine for a minute and then getting on a different MED and the up and down is ridiculous if you already been labeled as bipolar and then the insurance companies want to bounce you from Med to MED, to Med to med to mean to make them Adad of day. It's fucked up. I would just as soon deal with my own roller coaster emotions than dealing with the emotions that are attributed to the medication. That's that's sucky.

So I hope that kind of explains why I support my own situation with, you know, pithy little hashtags like farm free. It's not meant to offend and certainly you know bless you. If you found some help live a balance life and you feel good about yourself, by all means keep taking that medicine. Hopefully they don't Jack up the price to where you have to drop paid or anything like that, but keep doing what you're doing and maybe consider adding some of the natural kind of things that we've talked about. Getting structured sleep, drinking lots of water, get exercise, go out in the Sun. I'm definitely not saying those are a cure. I'm just saying that those are the things that I rely on now that I don't have pharmaceuticals. Makes Sense, okay, cool, and if it doesn't, by all means you can email me or you can dm me on twitter, whatever you want. I still don't use facebook. We have a site there and the podcast goes out through there. But if you eat, if you message me through facebook and I don't reply in a while, just try twitter or try emailing US bipolar style at gmailcom and I will respond immediately. Well, I'll bean like within a day. I'm pretty responsive that way. So, anyway, back to the kind of the podcast production thing. On March thirty is world bipolar day. Now that doesn't have anything to do with the poll shift, you know, magnetic pole shift or anything like that. It obviously has to do with bipolar disorder and it's going to be cool. I think. It's kind of sponsored and promoted by the International Bipolar Foundation, which can be found at IBPF DOT org. Check those guys out. They do lots of good work. I don't know what the initial stand for. I don't know what the P...

...stands for International Bipolar Foundation, maybe whatever. You know I feel about people hyphenating the word bipolar. It's that's that's not how I do it, but anyway, I'm going to set up our live stream, a podcast live stream. So on March thirty we will we meeting Jessica and myself. We will stream an episode of the podcast live. Will take your combats. You can log in anonymously air, with your real face or whatever, and ask questions, troll US whatever you want. You know, we'll have some fun with it, but it all comes down to bring in some cool awareness to the fact that tons of otherwise normal people actually suffer daily with bipolar like maybe you. So pull out your phone or switch over from the PODCAST APP right quick, tag on your calendar and Mark World Bipolar Day March thirty and set an alarm for the twenty nine so you'll remember to find us in tune in. We'll do lots of the typical promotion and letting people know that, hey, we're doing a podcast or whatever. But I'd like for you to join in and you know, feel that you belong, because you do well long might not belong with those other idiots, but you belong with us, with US idiots. Welcome to the idiots dumps. I'm just joking. That was one of the things my last therapist always said. was like, don't even joke about the negative talk like because I have selfdeprecating sense of humor and attend to say things like that. She said, noope, don't do that ever. So I'm trying to catch myself. Anyway, those other people are idiots, not us. So join us. World Bipolar Day March thirty. Cool. So I mentioned I'm moving around a lot. I think I mentioned on the...

...other podcast that I was going to move about three hours from herror and start a new job. Yeah, I tried that. The job was not what I was sold on. I had some okay. Well, I got down there and the guy who had hired me. He was no longer there. The number two person under him. Well, that person showed up the morning I was going to start telling me how she had quit the day before and only came back that day because the powers that be at the corporate office, you know, effectively begged her to kind of come on and help on board us. Well, that's thing too. People gone to the top people there. I'm like, that's odd. Well, then I started to realize why, as this would have been a sales job and, like I said, I'm I'm a marketing expert. I know what it takes to generate enough traffic so that salespeople can sell shit. This place didn't have any marketing going on. Apparently they thought I was going to offer my my marketing services for free for a commission sales job, and that's not how it works. So I'm like, well, this is really fucked up. So here I am, you know, three hours, three or four hours from home, when not even home, like from my last home base and shreeveport. Now I'm way south, deep in Louisiana, are you know, Acadia, with a job that pays half of the minimum wage of California, and they want me to now work six hours, I mean six days a week, and like fuck you, it's ridiculous. Can't do it. Not Six days a week to break my brain. Work in too many hours will fuck you up and you should know that. And you don't have to kill yourself just to earn a living. There are other ways. So I'd go home each night stressed out, like what the fuck, what am I going to do? And fortunately my best friends Anica and Patty and strieveport, they had tried to talk me...

...out of it. Anyway. Kind of, not really, but you know, they say, well, yeah, don't go less. You know it's right, and in my attitude was like I got to take a chance, you know, we had to keep moving in life and that the DA. And they're like okay, go ahead, good luck. But they welcome me back with open arms and just doing a reset. So, anyway, just try new things, you know, don't be scared. It was a pain in the ASS. I had to pack up and move all my shit three hours away, and less than a week later I'm back and all back and coming back and I kind of felt like I had my tail between my legs, but in hindsight I'm like no, why stick around a fucked up situation? Cut Your losses as quick as you can and get back into the GROOVE, you know, on the way back, since I rarely listen to podcast except on long driving trips, because through that part of Louisiana there's a lot of places where there's no radio signal, not even a phone signal. So I downloaded some podcast to listen to. Oh by the way, I I did experience South Louisiana Mardi Gras. Now people when they hear I'm in Louisiana they think, Oh yeah, I went to Mardy grown New Orleans. Well, every fucking city in Louisiana has Mardy Gras. So that's one thing. And the Marty Gras I saw in the little town of Jennings was something else. If you ever see the Anthony Bordain I forget his last one of his last episodes of any show he did was a Mardy Gras in south Louisiana, so check that out. That was legit. It was exactly like that and I would go back for that because it's just nuts, very American. I just I don't even know how to explain it. Anthony Boor Dane has a show about it. Go check it out. I don't know if it was no reservations or his other one or whatever it was, but good stuff anyway. Driving back I was listening to the Joe Rogan show, which I honestly I don't recommend very much as a slippery slope into the ault right because of...

...what he what he doesn't counter. When a fucking jackass Alt right type comes on his show. He doesn't confront them, he accepts them and almost embraces them. But Oh wait, fuck that. I wasn't in the show I was listening to. I was listening to Chapo trap out, but Chopo traphouse. These guys are self proclaimed socialist. They make a hundred and tenzero dollars a month on patreon. So explain that. I'm not sure how much of that they give back to the community. Anyway, self proclaimed socialist making a hundred ten grand on Patreon. So on Chapo. They had the guy who produces a new netflix series about comedy and dangerous places and it was pretty neat. But because I'd seen the the series already so I knew what they were talking about, kind of tuned out and was listening for a deeper message and what I discerned was that comedy, your sense of comedy, kind of like your sense of taste or your sense of smell, your sense of comedy really is based on accepting a situation as it is. So, therefore, back in the day we used to accept a rape, not accept it. Obviously it was. It's always been a bad thing, but society in general is more accepting of it. Therefore, in the S or S S Comedians on stage would tell rape jokes. People would laugh because they accepted that rape was part of it. I bring this up because this guy covered all kinds of crazy war lords and terrorist organizations in this miniseries and they found humor. So I was thinking, how do they find humor? AH, they've accepted that. So in my accepting failure at this new job, like I'm accepting that that shit happens. So I tried to find humor in it so I don't take it too hard. And again, my whole thing is about time, times the most precious resource we have, far above money, far above anything...

...really. So I found accepted the situation and I found some humor in it. And I hope you know when you especially if you're first diagnosed, with bipolar. Once you've accepted that diagnosis, you're now allowed to go find humor. Your sense of humor has expanded. You've accepted more things in life. Now you're able to sense the humor in those situations. Feel me, no, I mean, do you feel me now? I'm just planning. Hey, and I did brush my teeth, by the way. Still have the freshest breath. And podcasting. Yeah, anyway, I've been talking for way too long now. I noticed on the PODCAST statistics if we go past about twenty, twenty five minutes, audience drops off. So I'm right up about twenty minutes. I hope you enjoyed the little intermission here. We're going to get back to the newbies guide to bipolar disorder on the remaining six, seven, eight, nine, ten and episode eleven on bipolar style, and also tune into Jessica's show, which, Jesus's either just before this one, or come and write up one of the other I hope you enjoy them both and have an awesome rest of your week. Don't forget to change the clocks in America Saturday night we're moving the clocks spring forward get more sunlight during the day, which is always helpful for depression and enjoy ourselves. Give yourselves a big hug and I'll see soon. By body styles on cheese and five following on twitter joys, excuse me. Quality.

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