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Bipolar Style | Intermission | Johnny talks about “Med Shaming” and sensing humor

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Johnny responds to a concerned listener and talks about the concept of “Med Shaming,” and his pithy hashtag #PharmFree ... He also shares his thoughts on accepting situations so that we can find humor in most anything. Lastly, Johnny explains why the brief intermission from the “Newbies Guide to Bipolar” and his failed new-job adventure. Johnny's Twitter handle is @JohnEmotions Send emails to BipolarStyle@gmail.com or join us via Slack at BipolarParty.com ... World Bipolar Day is March 30, 2019. Bipolar Style will podcast LIVE that day - mark your calendar!

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It's only and now it's online adBible this stylecomy motions with Bible style. That's me. What's up, Johnny? Motions here bipolar style. How are you doing? Oh Yeah, reallythat bad? Huh? I'm just playing. It's been a tough a couple ofweeks. Today I'm doing a quick intermission in the newbies guide to bipolardisorder. We're doing a twelve part series, we meaning my co host Jessica andmyself. However, I've been moving. I'll tell you more about that ina second. So we're kind of disassembled. I'm going to disintegrated atthe moment. So you're going to get one episode, a quickie from mehere, and I also have another episode of Jessica doing a Solo episode.The reason for that is I don't have to edit the two together. Halfan hour podcast can take about three hours to edit and I just don't havethe focus. I think I might actually have adhd. I used to think, no, no, I pay too much attention. Turns out that's notreally accurate. Apparently, my inability to keep doing things and my frustration atconcentrating on tedium for very long classic adhd. Who Knew I didn't know. MaybeI don't have anya at all. Maybe I'm just have adhd and depressionwith a little anxiety mixed in. I don't know. That's why the callthat's why I call the show bipolar style anyway. So we're doing an intermissionshow. I hope you've enjoyed the you know, first six episodes. Willkeep those up indefinitely. After the twelve I'm going to take a break andget back to my other podcasts I produce, some of which are mental health related. In summer not if you want to follow along. My twitter handlefor all that stuff is at John Emotions.

Pretty simple, and I also postsJessica's twitter handle as well, but she probably said it in her ownepisode. The cool thing is I told her to send over your episode andI'll put on the intro music and then upload it and let it go.So I'm not really one to listen to our episodes much unless I have toedit them, and even then I'm just listening so we don't screw them up. So there's no like Super Adeline things we might have said or things itjust don't make sense. And sometimes when you get to people in a roomor on Mike's that have a lot to say and a lot of passion.We're very emphatic. We talk over each other, so I have to editthat part out. So Anyway, a lot of times we'll talk for aboutan hour. I'll take about three hours to make that into a half anhour show. But fortunately, you know, or I hope it sounds like it'sall spontaneous. However, it's not. It's actual work. So I don'tknow what Jessica's podcast is going to be about. I may actually listento it. We always appreciate your feedback on the things we talked about andone of the things I wanted to mention that I did get feedback on.As you may know, I think I'm a very highly sensitive person. Soif you send me feedback, I'm going to it's going to consume me,I'm going to listen to it, I'm going to read it and I trynot to get reactive because you know that's not a great way to live.I'll try to respond. So I listened to it and one of the thingsthat stood out the most was a listener wrote to me really nice email concernedabout the the appearance of Med shaming. Now Med shaming would be like yousuck, you take me. I mean this is my impression of bed shavingis when you run across a person that doesn't take that does take medication,giving them a hard time for taking their medicine, which I don't think I'vedone, but if I've ever given that impression, I apologize to you andsay anybody that I may have offended or...

...hurt for sure, because my intentis never to shame people for anything except elected officials. I'm an anarchist.I don't think we need rulers, kings, gods, anything like that. That'sjust me and that kind of allso feeds into the my anti capitalist thing. So when it comes to medication, I am all for relieving the suffering, whether it's cannabis or prescription drugs or whatnot. And in both of thoserealms that we dealer, he's a capitalist. He's making money. Clearly the pharmaceuticalcompanies are making a bundle of money on antidepressants and things like that.So I have issues with capitalism in general. No offense. I'm not like asocialist or communist or any of that stuff. I'm literally an anarchist.I think people should be free to do what they want and living within thestructures and the laws that exist. But we don't need like a principle atschool telling us what to do all the time. That's ridiculous because then itleaves room for interpretation by that ruler to fuck things up and drive things askew, much like in America right now. So my idea that, oh,I think it might have come down to this. I'm like into marketing.I'm a marketing expert. I've been doing it not tenzero hours, more likethirty or fortyzero hours of experience marketing and I love the sound of the Hashtagfarm free, you know, like farm pharmaceuticals, Ph a arm free.But even that can have the connotation like hey, I'm better than you becauseI don't have meds. I think I may have explained it on other shows, but the reason I don't have meds is because oftentimes I'm out of workand out of medical insurance and I don't have meds. So I'm often withoutmedication, not by choice, it's just I build up the choice after thefact. You know. I kind of like bolster my decision out of somekind of philosophy, but it's not a...

...philosophy. I'm just I just don'thave money for meds. So hashtag farm free is often because I just don'thave money for medication. And the interesting thing is for the past ten,almost fifteen years, maybe twenty, I don't know, at least fifteen years, I've tried all of the different medications for bipolar disorder and none of themhad made me feel any better. So that's one thing. So I don'treally mind not having them because I have to deal with my own shit anyway. And like we were talking about some of those on some of those earlierepisodes, that the MED's just ease the suffering. Well, I can getused to most of the suffering, so long as I don't kill myself.Cool like, I'll get through it. But there's still the underlying programming,the things that were in my environment as I came up that made me thinkthe way I think that those still have to be reprogrammed. So I'm actuallyI'm going to see a new therapist tomorrow. I will let you know how thatgoes. Wish me luck. The hardest thing actually, though, aboutthe medicine is when you go from the door to doctor or, moreover,from Insurance Company to Insurance Company. They often don't support the same medication asthe one prior to you. There's no common medical file that goes with youfrom state to state or country to country. You just cut as somehow, asa mentally ill person, supposed to gather all these things and keep trackof them. I can't do that. And since I can't do that anddon't do that, I end up at the mercy of insurance companies who switchthe MEDS. Now, switching meds means coming off a D living without medicinefor a minute and then getting on a different MED and the up and downis ridiculous if you already been labeled as bipolar and then the insurance companies wantto bounce you from Med to MED, to Med to med to mean tomake them Adad of day. It's fucked up. I would just as soondeal with my own roller coaster emotions than dealing with the emotions that are attributedto the medication. That's that's sucky.

So I hope that kind of explainswhy I support my own situation with, you know, pithy little hashtags likefarm free. It's not meant to offend and certainly you know bless you.If you found some help live a balance life and you feel good about yourself, by all means keep taking that medicine. Hopefully they don't Jack up the priceto where you have to drop paid or anything like that, but keepdoing what you're doing and maybe consider adding some of the natural kind of thingsthat we've talked about. Getting structured sleep, drinking lots of water, get exercise, go out in the Sun. I'm definitely not saying those are acure. I'm just saying that those are the things that I rely on nowthat I don't have pharmaceuticals. Makes Sense, okay, cool, and if itdoesn't, by all means you can email me or you can dm meon twitter, whatever you want. I still don't use facebook. We havea site there and the podcast goes out through there. But if you eat, if you message me through facebook and I don't reply in a while,just try twitter or try emailing US bipolar style at gmailcom and I will respondimmediately. Well, I'll bean like within a day. I'm pretty responsive thatway. So, anyway, back to the kind of the podcast production thing. On March thirty is world bipolar day. Now that doesn't have anything to dowith the poll shift, you know, magnetic pole shift or anything like that. It obviously has to do with bipolar disorder and it's going to becool. I think. It's kind of sponsored and promoted by the International BipolarFoundation, which can be found at IBPF DOT org. Check those guys out. They do lots of good work. I don't know what the initial standfor. I don't know what the P...

...stands for International Bipolar Foundation, maybewhatever. You know I feel about people hyphenating the word bipolar. It's that'sthat's not how I do it, but anyway, I'm going to set upour live stream, a podcast live stream. So on March thirty we will wemeeting Jessica and myself. We will stream an episode of the podcast live. Will take your combats. You can log in anonymously air, with yourreal face or whatever, and ask questions, troll US whatever you want. Youknow, we'll have some fun with it, but it all comes downto bring in some cool awareness to the fact that tons of otherwise normal peopleactually suffer daily with bipolar like maybe you. So pull out your phone or switchover from the PODCAST APP right quick, tag on your calendar and Mark WorldBipolar Day March thirty and set an alarm for the twenty nine so you'llremember to find us in tune in. We'll do lots of the typical promotionand letting people know that, hey, we're doing a podcast or whatever.But I'd like for you to join in and you know, feel that youbelong, because you do well long might not belong with those other idiots,but you belong with us, with US idiots. Welcome to the idiots dumps. I'm just joking. That was one of the things my last therapist alwayssaid. was like, don't even joke about the negative talk like because Ihave selfdeprecating sense of humor and attend to say things like that. She said, noope, don't do that ever. So I'm trying to catch myself.Anyway, those other people are idiots, not us. So join us.World Bipolar Day March thirty. Cool. So I mentioned I'm moving around alot. I think I mentioned on the...

...other podcast that I was going tomove about three hours from herror and start a new job. Yeah, Itried that. The job was not what I was sold on. I hadsome okay. Well, I got down there and the guy who had hiredme. He was no longer there. The number two person under him.Well, that person showed up the morning I was going to start telling mehow she had quit the day before and only came back that day because thepowers that be at the corporate office, you know, effectively begged her tokind of come on and help on board us. Well, that's thing too. People gone to the top people there. I'm like, that's odd. Well, then I started to realize why, as this would have been a salesjob and, like I said, I'm I'm a marketing expert. Iknow what it takes to generate enough traffic so that salespeople can sell shit.This place didn't have any marketing going on. Apparently they thought I was going tooffer my my marketing services for free for a commission sales job, andthat's not how it works. So I'm like, well, this is reallyfucked up. So here I am, you know, three hours, threeor four hours from home, when not even home, like from my lasthome base and shreeveport. Now I'm way south, deep in Louisiana, areyou know, Acadia, with a job that pays half of the minimum wageof California, and they want me to now work six hours, I meansix days a week, and like fuck you, it's ridiculous. Can't doit. Not Six days a week to break my brain. Work in toomany hours will fuck you up and you should know that. And you don'thave to kill yourself just to earn a living. There are other ways.So I'd go home each night stressed out, like what the fuck, what amI going to do? And fortunately my best friends Anica and Patty andstrieveport, they had tried to talk me...

...out of it. Anyway. Kindof, not really, but you know, they say, well, yeah,don't go less. You know it's right, and in my attitude waslike I got to take a chance, you know, we had to keepmoving in life and that the DA. And they're like okay, go ahead, good luck. But they welcome me back with open arms and just doinga reset. So, anyway, just try new things, you know,don't be scared. It was a pain in the ASS. I had topack up and move all my shit three hours away, and less than aweek later I'm back and all back and coming back and I kind of feltlike I had my tail between my legs, but in hindsight I'm like no,why stick around a fucked up situation? Cut Your losses as quick as youcan and get back into the GROOVE, you know, on the way back, since I rarely listen to podcast except on long driving trips, becausethrough that part of Louisiana there's a lot of places where there's no radio signal, not even a phone signal. So I downloaded some podcast to listen to. Oh by the way, I I did experience South Louisiana Mardi Gras.Now people when they hear I'm in Louisiana they think, Oh yeah, Iwent to Mardy grown New Orleans. Well, every fucking city in Louisiana has MardyGras. So that's one thing. And the Marty Gras I saw inthe little town of Jennings was something else. If you ever see the Anthony BordainI forget his last one of his last episodes of any show he didwas a Mardy Gras in south Louisiana, so check that out. That waslegit. It was exactly like that and I would go back for that becauseit's just nuts, very American. I just I don't even know how toexplain it. Anthony Boor Dane has a show about it. Go check itout. I don't know if it was no reservations or his other one orwhatever it was, but good stuff anyway. Driving back I was listening to theJoe Rogan show, which I honestly I don't recommend very much as aslippery slope into the ault right because of...

...what he what he doesn't counter.When a fucking jackass Alt right type comes on his show. He doesn't confrontthem, he accepts them and almost embraces them. But Oh wait, fuckthat. I wasn't in the show I was listening to. I was listeningto Chapo trap out, but Chopo traphouse. These guys are self proclaimed socialist.They make a hundred and tenzero dollars a month on patreon. So explainthat. I'm not sure how much of that they give back to the community. Anyway, self proclaimed socialist making a hundred ten grand on Patreon. Soon Chapo. They had the guy who produces a new netflix series about comedyand dangerous places and it was pretty neat. But because I'd seen the the seriesalready so I knew what they were talking about, kind of tuned outand was listening for a deeper message and what I discerned was that comedy,your sense of comedy, kind of like your sense of taste or your senseof smell, your sense of comedy really is based on accepting a situation asit is. So, therefore, back in the day we used to accepta rape, not accept it. Obviously it was. It's always been abad thing, but society in general is more accepting of it. Therefore,in the S or S S Comedians on stage would tell rape jokes. Peoplewould laugh because they accepted that rape was part of it. I bring thisup because this guy covered all kinds of crazy war lords and terrorist organizations inthis miniseries and they found humor. So I was thinking, how do theyfind humor? AH, they've accepted that. So in my accepting failure at thisnew job, like I'm accepting that that shit happens. So I triedto find humor in it so I don't take it too hard. And again, my whole thing is about time, times the most precious resource we have, far above money, far above anything...

...really. So I found accepted thesituation and I found some humor in it. And I hope you know when youespecially if you're first diagnosed, with bipolar. Once you've accepted that diagnosis, you're now allowed to go find humor. Your sense of humor has expanded.You've accepted more things in life. Now you're able to sense the humorin those situations. Feel me, no, I mean, do you feel menow? I'm just planning. Hey, and I did brush my teeth,by the way. Still have the freshest breath. And podcasting. Yeah, anyway, I've been talking for way too long now. I noticed onthe PODCAST statistics if we go past about twenty, twenty five minutes, audiencedrops off. So I'm right up about twenty minutes. I hope you enjoyedthe little intermission here. We're going to get back to the newbies guide tobipolar disorder on the remaining six, seven, eight, nine, ten and episodeeleven on bipolar style, and also tune into Jessica's show, which,Jesus's either just before this one, or come and write up one of theother I hope you enjoy them both and have an awesome rest of your week. Don't forget to change the clocks in America Saturday night we're moving the clocksspring forward get more sunlight during the day, which is always helpful for depression andenjoy ourselves. Give yourselves a big hug and I'll see soon. Bybody styles on cheese and five following on twitter joys, excuse me. Quality.

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