Emo Dojo™ Presents: John Emotions
Emo Dojo™ Presents: John Emotions

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Happy New Year 2019

ABOUT THIS EPISODE

Recorded December 31, 2018; John Emotions reflects on some of his major challenges and accomplishments of 2018 and previews 2019 with a surprise announcement about the future of Bipolar Style. We also talk about being a good guest and what to do if things get tough. #allinyourhead

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ONLINEWHAT's up how you been and happyfucking New Year, we made it one more year. I know a lot of my friends. Don'tlike to celebrate new years, quote: Unquote the two hit for it too old, forit too lazy for it. Whatever time is just to construct all that whole shit,but you know what it's kind of cool when everybody around the world is kindof doing the same thing. At the same time, in a way, it's kind of cool youcan admit like when you go to a movie in atheater versus watching it on Netflix. That's why people go to movies intheaters, there's a Camaraderia community sitting together and doingthe same thing at the same time. Why do you think people still call radiostations and request that stupid song that they can get anywhere? It'sbecause they want to make sure everybody else is hearing the same song,they're hearing at the same time, they're hearing it. So I think that'sthe NEAT thing about New Year in general is we're all experiencin it andmore than that, acknowledging it at the same time together whether you like toacknowledge it or don't you're still acknowledging it happy fucking New Year join the party at Bipolar Partycom. That said, it has been a really tryingyear. For me, W tweanty eight team was tough. I took on a role as a hoteldirector for a nonprofit that manages housing for the homeless. You know freshly homeless and war, vets and things like that.Really tough. Not For me not with that organization. A lot of the tenantsthought that the owner of the building was slum. Lord, as they say, and Ihaven't found anything personally to to discount that notion. So whatever one of my favorite quotes is fromChurchhill, if you're going through hell, keep going so I kept going, I'm not GOINGNA staythere. If I'm not welcome, you know fuck that kick around somebody else,I'm not going to be the face of their failures. It's not my deal and which isweird because when you have by polar disorder, you tend to apply forinteresting jobs, jobs where you think you could actually help people and then,when they don't work out, because it's a high risk venture to begin withpeople think oh he's bipolar. He got fired because he's BI polar well! MaybeI did, but I also stood up for what was right and I can live with myself. Sothat's important! So over the past year...

I was in the suburbs of the SanFrancisco Bay area, and then I was in the heart of downtown San Francisco,really high crime, grimy poor neighborhood called the Tangeloin, andnow I'm in Louisiana, I'm from California, but I think Louisiana's apretty neat place, so fresh air, cheap, rent, friendly people, Yeah Wide Open Space, Oh and no feceson the sidewalk part, so good, bye, Tangeloyn, hello, shreeport. That's that's! My big news for todaypersonally took a train ride from San Francisco, down to Los Angeles and LosAngeles across Arizona, New Mexico, Texas, all the way up to long view, Texas, hopped out little bus,Tho streeveport, had some good friends of mine, Onica and Patty picked me upand letting me stay there their place. Theyhave awesome place for my studio and given me some breathing room to get onmy feet, wint to start a podcasting company.It's reportant! How about that, because, while I like to say I'm not amental health activist or advocate fucking, a AMA podcasting advocate. So if you want to make your ownpodcasts, especially in this realm, where you like, not sure you want totell anybody, you have a mental disorder, then get ahold of me I'll.Keep your confidence and show you how to make podcast, because you knowthroughout the history of the bipola style, show the whole year longshistory of the show. I've had some cool guests, but getting guest as hard. Whenyou run a show by yourself, it's just fucking hard. You have to do everythingand I'm into like the other stuff too, I'm into graphic design and audioproduction. So I like that part, but gathering guests that was hard and thatkind of kept me focused on like well shit. Now I just have to talk by myselfor fucking. Ten or Fiftyn minutes. That's lame. I don't! I don't likelistening to podcast where people just talk, talk talk whatever, so I'mthinking. Well, if I wouldn't listen to it, who the fuck else is going tolisten to it M, so it turns out you listen to it. SoI love it. I appreciate you and thank you so for two thousand and nineteenI'm going to do way better for the bipolar style show for one I'm going to eliminate all ofthe other side projects. My personal podcast, I'm going to put them on iceand focus on bipolar style. Proper! Don't worry! I won't get bored becauseI'm starting a podcasting company, remember so I'll have actual other kind of clients. thatillhelp produce podcast of all sorts. I have two industries already talking tomaking podcast for them and that'll be...

...that, but if you have a podcast aboutmental health, mental illness, whatever get a hold of me through the showthrough twitter email, whatever and I'll fucking help you do it all. My theory is that I keep doing thisI'll, get really good at it and eventually I'll make money at it. SoI'm not trying to make money with this bipolar style. PODCAST! That's why wedon't have ads and I'm not trying to really make money off of your podcast,because how do you do that? I'm not like a wreccod executive at a recordlabel trying to sign up to LATA STA? No, but I can help you if you're Oan, amental health person for Sare Yo, will get past the stigma and do your fuckingthing tell your story make your project if you've always wanted to make apodcast. I can break it down for you, so it's super easy and we'll get thattaken care of okay cool. So maybe that's a thing for two thousad andnineteen for you I mean not for me. I've already committed it, that's mything for two housand and nineteen helping you make your podcast andhelping small businesses in different industries make podcasts where they payme for that help. So I can just be a full time podcaster that sounds lovely,especially if I can do it from where I am now in the middle of a nice forestup on a hill, a river off into the distance plenty of room to move around.It feels like I'm kind of like in a mental hospital out in the sticks, buteverybody's leaving me alone, and they get the podcast it's it's fucking cool, so my dad was staying at my place for awhile waiting for his room to open up for his apartment or whatever my dad's,a like elderly style guy, not by polar style, elgedly style whento make a podcast for old people called elderly style. Anyway, I got himsituated. He's fine he's up back at Lake Taho. You know regular kinof looks pretty newactually like built in the two husand modern architecture, contemporaryfixings, like Internet and cable and stuff, like that lives with a bunch ofold people like himself, and they can all share their stories with each other,as if they were new stories, which is cool. It's good thing, though he wasdriving me fucking, crazy, taught me a lot about guests and how to be a guest.So it tripped me out that he had no ambition. He lives the life of ahouseplant. He just sits there and staps up the sun coming in the windowand watches MSNBC all day. They might go out and get some food once in awhile, but it comes right back to that spot. ITD Just blew my mind, I'm likeyou fucking move ever then. I realized man, maybe I've being a kind of a Dick,but I kind of was but I kind of wasn't, because that was not the plan he didn'tcome down to like sit in my place and wait for his own apartment to open up.We had a whole different plan so anyway, I have issues with unmet expectationsto begin with, then tid just see a dude sitting in your apartment, like a houseplant with no ambition like what the...

...fuck and then I started thinking. Well,that's my dad. Am I going to turn out like that? Oh boy, oh well, so I'm not going to turn outlike that. I have this insatiabile drive to thrive and overcome so twothousand and eighteen was neight, because I learned about Dr Adler, DrAlfred Adler, who, if you didn't know, was the thirddoctor in the Vienna School of Psychology. Everybody knows about froid.You probably know about young with the J Jung Young. You know you know aboutforoid. You know about young, but did you know about Adler? I think of it like the dude from gunsand roses, the original Drummer Steven addler anyway, there's no relation butthink of it that way: Autfred Adler and his personal psychology. I studied allabout that in two thousand and eighteen and my mind is blown I feel like. Oh,my God, I can almost fix myself with this new found knowledge. So if you want to check out a good bookfrom the library or find it cheap on the Internet, something check out thisbook called the courage to be disliked. It's a conversation between mentor andAminti about individual psychology, as based on Halfrord Adler, told in a kindof storytal story, kind of fashion, easy, read, mind, blowing concepts but yeah. Ifyou're going to read something that that changed, my life in two thousandand eighteen really that and an acid trip yeah. I took someacid not saying much more, but I found someone I took some and during thistrip I realized the recurring thing. was you already have everything youneed? You already have everything you need and I'm like Whoa like anything,it's all on this planet right here. Where I was put, you need more money.There's right over there go get some more money, Fcou need more oxygen ormore shelter or more humid. It's all there. The whole world has everythingwe need in it. So it was a lot more relaxing to me and I chilled out a bitstarted, gatting more focus. Considering I already have everything Ineed. What do I want to do with what I have and it came down to honestlypodcasting I fucking love podcasting. Why? I don't like to hear myself talkabout, I like the idea of storytelling and getting others to share theirstories. So that's that's! In a Nutshall, the past kind of year, theaddler at Larry and psychology, finding my dad a place to be and trying to work out, make a nonprofitSRO hotel much better than it can be to no avail. That was kind of a fail on mypart. But lessons learned, you know you do what you can do. Oh and here's onething that s kind of sucked earlier in the year at bi, polar PARTYCOM, acouple of the guests got on my ass for...

...something I said or did whatever it wasthey're off based with the details, but the fact that one person said andanother person backed them out like you know, I'm not going to kick people outof the group because they criticized me theiere name calling and some kind ofcrass things. But whatever what point being I take criticism to heart? Ittakes a while to suck it up and try to figure out what they really meanbecause often times when you critique somebody or throw out name calling.Obviously that's that's not helpful, because I can't discern what that,what's in that, but when people say you're an egotistical or whatever aveto check my ego if they say you're, an asshole have to figure out what whathave I done to make them think I'm an Asshole, so the long ind short of it. Ijust stopped going to the group for a while Becky from that B. Word. PODCASTdoes a great job at cohosting. The group anyway and she's a good middleground, and I just figured in two thousand and eighteen. I would grow upand not engage every criticism against Meang just step back and let it breathe.I heard a quote from Walt Disney: It's something to the effect of. Sometimes when you get kicked in theteeth it takes a while for you to understand that that was the best thingthat happened to you. So the idea that you know sometimes criticism worethings that seem like they heard at the moment are good for you causes you tothink so yeah I started thinking anyway. It's just part of my campaign of beingless of an asshole. I don't know exactly the specifics. Sometimes peopleget wound up because hey, we all have bipolar disorder and many others, so I just chocked it up. As that, too,I mean it's a group for bypoler. It's called by polar party, there's going tobe fucking people acting out of line and not out of a line. How do you sayit? They'll miss aline with each other like nobody's really out of line justsometimes we miss a line with each other and it causes a rift. So anyway,I stepped out of that group for a while I'll be back at by polar party in twothousand and nineteen. Don't you worry? You got not the fuckout man, giveme hatcutt a because you know that's a hangout forother bipolar podcast, for example, Becky at that B, word, Brian Ats,bipolar belief and Jim at the bipolar pod. So there's some cool podcastershanging out there. If you want to be a podcaster and you want to hang out withmental health kind of folks go to bipolar, Partycom and I'll, see youthere in a few weeks okayso that whole thing kind of rounds out to this momentnow. So I'm glad you stayed around this far, because I've got excited newsaside from getting my shit together more with the podcast for two thousandand nineteen making it more regular getting up on the facebook, putting allthe pieces together that I've been hesitant to you know address justbecause of one guy. You know not too much time on my hands, I'm going towork on that stuff, but I'm going to...

...have some help. That's right! There'sgoing to be a cohost, I'm totally stoked. How did this come about? Well,I'm not telling you much about the person, that's the surprise, you'regoing to fucking love it, but it's a big enough change where I'm alteringthe logo EMO JOE will change. Look for that and this person, because you'llremember if you listen to this show last the last episode. I basically said:Hey, I'm not going to really do these unless anybody signs up to be on theshow. Well, like I said, people don't like to s volunteer to be on the show,especially with somebody like me: Who'll talk over you and is hyper andwhatever. So that's I'm like well fuck it it's a good way to kind of passiveaggressively kill. The show just do that. Well, somebody reached out, like I always sayif you want to do your own reach out I'll help. Well, somebody reached outin that context, and this person had some ideas for apodcast and they were bouncing them off a third person and like many projects, the thirdperson who I don't know and whatever, but it's similar to many projects, havebeen part of there's, always one person that wants to do a thing or claims towant to do a thing, but there's always the excuse why the thing doesn't getdone like a lot of people. I think just like planning they like to be in theplanning stage so that it never actually gets accomplished. If younever ship your idea, you an never ship your product, then nobody can evercriticize you and I think people find comfort in the idea. F. That they'llnever be criticized if they're constantly working on the thing, nofuck, that it's not my personality, let's make a thing see if people likeit and if they do cool, ask him what they like about it and fix it, make iteven better if they don't like it, stop making the thing and move on we'recreative people. We can come up with new ideas. It's not a big deal, justfucking, think of something new to do so. This listener had apparently foundone of those people right and I'm instantly like empathize right away. I'm like Oh boy.I don't know how to help you with that situation, so I listen more to whatthis person was idicating. They wanted to do and theideas, but, more importantly, I was checking out the energy which turnedabout to be like mine. This person is bipolar in the same way that I'm, bypolar we're, hardly ever depressed. We don't like to focus on the depressingat all. There's plenty of people with uniq polar like just depression. Fine! Do that because we are manic an tthey don't have talk shows for just mania. So we like the bipolar podcastthat feature people like us that are upbeat that are fast and like yeah, youget it. If you have bipolar disorder, you fucking get what I'm saying rightnow. So I found another one of us where thisperson found me. Let's say we ran over a list of ideas, and before long I meanI'm thinking, man, I just kind of passive aggressively iced the bipolarstyle show this person would be the perfect catalyst to relaunch it andmake it a whole new fucking thing like...

...way different like not just incrementally we're talkingexponentially better show, but, like is that appropriate to say no, I'm not going to help you with yourproject, but it's you want to help me with my project. I can't tell youexactly how that conversation went, but the long and the short of it thatperson is going to be the CO host for bipolar style, starting the nextepisode. So next episode, we'll call it episode zero for season two thousandand nineteen, and it will feature this person's origin story. You know like Ilike to think of all of us as superheroes in a way and well want toknow this person's origin story and how they got to where they are on the Mikenext to me at the fantastic bipolar style studios. So that's exciting. I'm totally stokedabout that. Give me a new focus. A new lease on life- sometimes you justcrosspats with people that run at the same speed and things work out. So younever know nothing's forever. We don't Know My. I said you know what, then Iwant to build like the coolest podcast for bipolar peopleever, I wantit to belike the metallica of bipolar podcast, and then I started thinking well. Therearen't really that many by polar podcast and none of them are trying tobe the metallica of VIPOLAR podcast they're, trying to be like the DaveMatthews Band of vipolar podcast, the INA of bipolar podcast and like no. Iwant to be like the metallic of bipolar podcast. I can dream all right, so hey I found this in Louisiana. They'vegot drive through dackery shops. You can drive your car through the back ofthe liquor store and there's a window like at a bank and t'Chin there. You Go.You put some money in the thing and the lady you'll hand you out a freshly madedackery. The one I got tonight has: What do you call it stuff ever clear? It's like a hundred. Ninety proofsounds like a mess. I've had a couple sips of it and thank God, the brainfree, slowed me down because it's kind of buzzy it's lots of liquor in there.Don't worry I'll, be fine. I don't drink I much ever and I'm not planningon getting super wasted tonight. I just wanted to taste my first officialLouisiana dackery. So that's exciting. Ever clearing a dackery come on man stoke, though an go, relax, do thelittle countdown wake up tomorrow, hit the ground running like I said man, ifyou want to do a podcast hit me up by polar stylecom, I'm building a newwebsite to go with this whole change for two thousad and nineteen yeah, I'mpretty stoked. I think you will be too once you hear what's happening. At's all I've got man. I've talked longenough. You have a wonderful night, I'm glad you're still here with us. If youwere feeling depressed and just happened to find this show fucking highfives go over to bypolar PARTYCOM right...

...now and sign up just you know, staywith us. If you were depressed, I know we used to do Bridge Watch angels inSan Francisco, where we would walk the bridge at Christmas and new years,because lots of people want to end it all man don't do that. You'rehere with US stay focus. Two Thousand and nineteen is going to kick ass,we're already weird as the rest of the world deteriorates and turns the chaoswe already know what that's like. So we've got a headstart and I think if westick together, things going to be pretty bad ass for so heg tiht. Listento the next episode, we're going to do episode, Zero for Tweanty, two thousandand nineteen season, and that will be the origin story. My New Co host Il nottold you anything else about a.

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