John | Podcasting
John | Podcasting

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Happy New Year 2019

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Recorded December 31, 2018; John Emotions reflects on some of his major challenges and accomplishments of 2018 and previews 2019 with a surprise announcement about the future of Bipolar Style. We also talk about being a good guest and what to do if things get tough. #allinyourhead

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It's only your head, and now it's online Bible this stylecom yes, motions with Bible style. Hey, what's up? How you been? And happy fucking New Year. We made it one more year. I know a lot of my friends don't like to celebrate New Year's quote unquote, the to hit for it, too old for it, too lazy for it, whatever time is just to construct all that whole shit. But you know what, it's kind of cool when everybody around the world is kind of doing the same thing at the same time. In a way it's kind of cool, you got to admit and like when you go to a movie in a theater versus watching it on Netflix. That's why people go to movies and theaters. There's a Camaraderia community sitting together and doing the same thing at the same time. Why do you think people still call radio stations and request that stupid song that they can get anywhere? It's because they want to make sure everybody else is hearing the same song they're hearing at the same time they're hearing it. So I think that's the NEAT thing about New Year in general is we're all experiencing it and more than that, acknowledging it at the same time. Together, whether you like to acknowledge it or don't, you're still acknowledging it. Happy fucking New Year. Join the party. Add Bipolar Partycom that said, it has been a really trying year for me. Twenty eight team was tough. I took on roll as a Hotel Director for a nonprofit that manages housing for the homeless, you know, freshly homeless and war vets and things like that. Really tough. Not For me, not with that organization. A lot of the tenants thought that the owner of the building was a slum Lord, as they say, and I haven't found anything personally to discount that notion. So whatever. One of my favorite quotes is from churchhill. If you're going through hell, keep going. So I kept going. I'm not going to stay there if I'm not welcome. You know, fuck that. Kick around somebody else. I'm not going to be the face of their failures. It's not my deal. and which is weird because when you have bipolar disorder you tend to apply for interesting jobs, jobs where you think you could actually help people, and then, when they don't work out, because it's a high risk venture to begin with, people think, oh, he's bipolar, he got fired because he's bipolar. Well, maybe I did, but I also stood up for what was right and I can live with myself. So that's important. So if the past year I was in the suburbs of the San Francisco...

Bay area and then I was in the heart of downtown San Francisco, really high crime, Grimy, poor neighborhood called the tenderloin, and now I'm in Louisiana. I'm from California, but I think Louisiana's a pretty neat place. So fresh air, cheap rent, friendly people, Wide Open Space, Oh and no feces on the sidewalk. I love my favorite part. So goodbye tenderloin, Hello Shreveport. That's that's my big news for today. Personally took a train ride from San Francisco down to Los Angeles, and Los Angeles across Arizona, New Mexico Texas, all the way up to Longview Texas, opt little bus to streveport. Had some good friends of mine, Anica and Patty, picked me up and let me stay there their place. They have awesome place for my studio and giving me some breathing room to get on my feet when to start a podcasting company in streeport. How about that? Because while I like to say I'm not a mental health activist or advocate, fucking a am a podcasting advocate. So if you want to make your own podcasts, especially in this realm where you like not sure you want to tell anybody you have a mental disorder, then get ahold of me. I'll keep your confidence and show you how to make podcasts. Because, you know, throughout the history of the bipolar style show, the whole yearlong ish history of the show, I've had some cool guests, but getting guests is hard. When you run a show by yourself, it's just fucking hard. You have to do everything. And I'm into like the other stuff too. I'm into graphic design and audio production, so I like that part, but gathering guests, that was hard and that kind of kept me focused on like, well, Shit, and now I just have to talk by myself or fucking ten or fifteen minute. That's lame. I don't I don't like listening to podcast where people just talk, talk, talk, whatever. So I'm thinking, well, I wouldn't listen to it. Who the fuck else is going to listen to it? I'm so turns out you listen to it, and so I love it. I appreciate you and thank you. So for two thousand and nineteen. I'm going to do way better for the bipolar style show. For one, I'm going to eliminate all of the other side projects, my personal podcast, and going to put them on ice and focus on bipolar style proper. Don't worry, I won't get bored because I'm starting a podcasting company, remember, so I'll have actual other kind of clients that I'll help produce podcast of all sorts. I have two industries already talking to making podcast for them and that'll be that. But if you have a podcast about mental health, mental...

...illness, whatever, get ahold of me through the show, through twitter, email, whatever, and I'll fucking help you do it all. My theory is that if I keep doing this I'll get really good at it and eventually I'll make money at it. So I'm not trying to make money with this bipolar style podcast. That's why we don't have ads, and I'm not trying to really make money off of your podcast, because how do you do that? I'm not like a record executive at a record label trying to sign up to late at Sta no, but I can help you. If you're a mental health person, for sure will get past the stigma and do your fucking thing, tell your story, make your project. If you've always wanted to make a podcast, I can break it down for you. So it's super easy and we'll get that taken care of. Okay, cool. So maybe that's a thing for two thousand and nineteen for you, I mean not for me. I've already committed it. That's my thing for two thousand and nineteen, helping you make your podcast and helping small businesses and different industries make podcasts where they pay me for that help. So I can just be a full time podcaster. That sounds lovely, especially if I can do it from where I am now, in the middle of a nice forest up on a hill, a river off into the distance, plenty of room to move around. It feels like I'm kind of like in a mental hospital out in the sticks, but everybody's leaving me alone and they get the podcast. It's it's fucking cool. So my dad was staying at my place for a while waiting for his room to open up for his apartment or whatever. My Dad's like elderly style guy, not bipolar style, elderly style. When to make a podcast for old people called elderly style. Anyway, I got him situated. He's fine. He's up back at Lake Tahoe, you know, regular kind of looks pretty new actually, like built in the two thousands, modern architecture, contemporary fixings like Internet and cable and stuff like that. Lives with the bunch of old people like himself and they can all share their stories with each other as if they were new stories, which is cool. It's good thing, though, he was driving me fucking crazy. taught me a lot about guests and how to be a guest. So it tripped me out that he had no ambition. He lives the life of a house plant. He just sits there and saps up the sun coming in the window and watches MSNBC all day. They might go out and get some food once in a while, but it comes right back to that spot and just blew my mind, like you fucking move. Ever, then I realized, man, maybe it being a kind of a Dick, but I kind of was, but I kind of wasn't, because that was not the plan. He didn't come down to like sit in my place and wait for his own apartment to open up. We had a whole different plan. So, anyway, I have issues with unmet expectations to begin with, and then to just see a dude sitting in your apartment like a house plant with no ambition, like off, what the fuck?...

And then I start think, well, that's my dad. I am I going to turn out like that? Oh boy, oh well, so I'm not going to turn out like that. I have this insatiable drive to thrive and overcome. So two thousand and eighteen was neat because I learned about Dr Adler, Dr Alfred Adler, who, if you didn't know, was the third doctor in the Vienna School of Psychology. Everybody knows about Freud. You probably know about young, with the J Jung Young. You know. You know about Freud, you know about young, but did you know about addler? I think of it like the dude from guns n' roses, the original drummer, Steven Adler. Anyway, there's no relation, but think of it that way. Outfred Adler and his personal psychology has studied all about that. In two thousand and eighteen, in my mind is blown. I feel like, Oh my God, I can almost fix myself with this newfound knowledge. So, if you want to check out a good book from the library or find it cheap on the Internet something, check out this book called the courage to be disliked. It's a conversation between a mentor and a mentee about individual psychology, as based on Alfred Adler, told in a kind of a storytelle story, kind of fashion, easy read, mind blowing concepts. But yeah, if you're going to read something that that changed my life in two thousand and eighteen really that and an acid trip. Yeah, I took some acid. Not saying much more, but I found someone I took some and during this trip I realized the recurring theme was you already have everything you need. You already have everything you need, and I'm like, Whoa? Like anything, it's all on this planet, right here where I was put. You need more money, there's right over there. Go get some more money. You can need more oxygen or more shelter or more human these all there. The whole world has everything we need in it. So it was a lot more relaxing to me and I chilled out a bit started gaining more focus, considering I already have everything I need. What do I want to do with what I have, and it came down to, honestly, podcasting. I fucking love podcasting. Why? I don't like to hear myself talk, but I like the idea of storytelling and getting others to share their stories. So that's that's, in a nutshell, the past kind of year. The addler at Larry and psychology, finding my dad a place to be and trying to work out make a nonprofit SRO hotel much better than it can be, to no avail. That was kind of a fail on my part, but lessons learned. You know, you do what you can do. Oh and here's one thing that's kind of sucked. Earlier in the year at Bipolar Partycom...

...a couple of the guests got on my ass for something I said or did, whatever was. They are off base with the details, but the fact that one person said it and another person backed them out. Like you know, I'm not going to kick people out of the group because they criticize me, their name calling and some kind of crass things, but whatever, point being, I take criticism to heart. It takes a while to suck it up and try to figure out what they really mean, because oftentimes when you critique somebody or throw out name calling, obviously that's that's not helpful because I can't discern what that what's in that. But when people say you're an egotistical or whatever, after check my ego, if they say you're an Asshole, after figure out what what have I done to make them think I'm an asshole? So the long and short of it, I just stopped going to the group for a while. Becky from that B word podcast does a great job at cohosting the group anyway, and she's a good middle ground and I just figured in two thousand and eighteen I would grow up and not engage every criticism against me and just step back and let it breathe. I heard a quote from Walt Disney, something to the effect of sometimes when you get kicked in the teeth, it takes a while for you understand that that was the best thing that happened to you. So the idea that you know sometimes criticism were things that seem like they heard at the moment are good for you, causes you to think. So, yeah, I started thinking anyway, it's just part of my campaign of being a less of an asshole. I don't know exactly the specifics. Sometimes people get wound up because, hey, we all have bipolar disorder and many others. So I just chocked it up. Is that too? I mean it's a group for bipolar it's called Bipolar Party. There's going to be fucking people acting out of line, and not out of a line, how do you say it? They'll miss a line with each other, like nobody's really out of line, just sometimes we miss a line with each other and it causes a rift. So anyway, I stepped out of that group for a while. I'll be back at bipolar party in two thousand and nineteen. Don't you worry. You got not the fuck out. Man, give me my gut him what payback? Some mother gaming, because you know that's a hangout for other bipolar podcast for example Becky at that B word, Brian Ats bipolar belief and Jim at the bipolar pod. So there's some cool podcasters hanging out there. If you want to be a podcaster and you want to hang out with mental health kind of folks, go to bipolar Partycom and I'll see you there in a few weeks. Okay, so that whole thing kind of rounds out to this moment now. So I'm glad you stayed around this far, because I've got exciting news, aside from getting my shit together more with the podcast for two thousand and nineteen, make it it more regular, getting up on the facebook, putting all the pieces together that I've been hesitant to, you know, address just because of one guy. You know, not too much time on my hands. I'm going to work on that stuff, but I'm going to have some help. That's right,...

...there's going to be a cohost. I'm totally stoked. How did this come about? Well, I'm not telling you much about the person. That's the surprise. You're going to fucking love it. But it's a big enough change where I'm altering the logo. Emo Joe will change. Look for that and this person, because you remember, if you listen to this show last the last episode, I basically said, Hey, I'm not going to really do these unless anybody signs up to be on the show. Well, like I said, people don't like this volunteer to be on the show, especially with somebody like me who'll talk over you and is hyper and whatever. So that's I'm like, well, fuck it. It's a good way to kind of passive aggressively kill the show. Just do that. Well, somebody reached out. Like I always say, if you want to do your own reach out, I'll help. Well, somebody reached out in that context and this person had some ideas for podcast and they were bouncing them off a third person and like many projects, the third person who I don't know and whatever, but it's similar to many project have been part of. There's always one person that wants to do a thing, or claims to want to do a thing, but there's always an excuse why the thing doesn't get done. Like a lot of people, I think just like planning, they like to be in the planning stage so that it never actually gets accomplished. If you never ship your idea, you can never ship your product. Then nobody can ever criticize you, and I think people find comfort in the idea that they'll never be criticized if they're constantly working on the thing. No, fuck that, it's not my personality. Let's make a thing, see if people like it, and if they do, cool, ask him what they like about it and fix it, make it even better. If they don't like it, stop making the thing and move on. We're creative people. We can come up with new ideas. It's not a big deal. Just fucking think of something new to do. So this listener had apparently found one of those people right and I'm instantly like empathize right away. I'm like, Oh boy, I don't know how to help you with that situation. So I listen more to what this person was indicating they wanted to do and the ideas, but more importantly, I was checking out the energy, which turned about to be like mine. This person is bipolar in the same way that I'm bipolar. We're hardly ever depressed. We don't like to focus on the depression at all. There's plenty of people with unipolar like just depression. Fine, do that, because we are manning that. They don't have talk shows for just mania. So we like the bipolar podcast that feature people like us that are upbeat, their fast and like. You get it if you have bipolar disorder, you fucking get what I'm saying right now. So I found another one of us, or this person found me, let's say. We ran over list of ideas and before long, I mean I'm thinking, man, I just kind of passive aggressively iced the bipolar style show. This person would be the perfect catalyst to relaunch it and make it a whole new fucking thing, like way different,...

...like not just incrementally, we're talking exponentially better show. HMM, but like is that appropriate to say no, I'm not going to help you with your project, but it's you want to help me with my project? I can't tell you exactly how that conversation went, but the long and the short of it that person is going to be the cohost for bipolar style starting the next episode. So next episode, we'll call it episode zero for season two thousand and nineteen, and it will feature this person's origin story, you know, like I like to think of all of us as superheroes in a way, and we'll want to know this person's origin story and how they got to where they are on the mic next to me at the fantastic bipolar style studios. So that's exciting. I'm totally stoked about that. Give me a new focus, a new lease on life. Sometimes you just cross paths with people that run at the same speed and things work out. So you never know. Nothing's forever. We don't know my I said, you know what, then, I want to build like the coolest podcast for bipolar people ever. I wanted to be like the Metallica of bipolar podcast and then I started thinking, well, there aren't really that money bipolar podcast and none of them are trying to be the metallica of bipolar podcast. They're trying to be like the Dave Matthews Band of bipolar podcast, the Endya of bipolar podcast, and like no, I want to be like the metallica of bipolar podcasts. I can dream, all right. So, Hey, I found this. In Louisiana they've got drive through daiquiri shops. You can drive your car through the back of the liquor store and there's a window like at a bank and Change. There you go. You can put some money in the thing and the lady will hand you out a freshly made Daiquiri. The one I got tonight has what he call it stuff ever clear. It's like a hundred ninety proof. Sounds like a mess. I've had a couple sips of it and thank God the brain freeze load me down because it's kind of buzzy. It's lots of liquor in there. Don't worry, I'll be fine. I don't drink a much, ever, and I'm not planning on getting super wasted tonight. I just wanted to taste my first official Louisiana Daqiri, so that's exciting. Ever, clear in a Daquerie. Come on, man, stoke though to go, relax, do the little countdown. Wake up tomorrow. Hit the ground running. Like I said, man, if you want to do a podcast, hit me up bipolar stylecom. I'm building a new website to go with this whole change for two thousand and nineteen. Yeah, I'm pretty stoked. I think you will be too once you hear what's happening. That's it's all I've got, man, I've talked long enough. You have a wonderful night. I'm glad you're still here with us. If you were feeling depressed and just happen to find this show, fucking high fives, go over to bipolar...

...partycom right now and sign up, just, you know, stay with us. If you were depressed, I know we used to do Bridge Watch angels and San Francisco, where we would walk the bridge at Christmas and New Year's. Because lots of people want to end it all. Man, don't do that. You're here with us. Stay focused. Two Thousand and nineteen is going to kick ass. We're already weird as the rest of the world to tior rates and turns, the chaos. We already know what that's like. So we've got a headstart and I think if we stick together, things going to be pretty Badass for us. So head tight, listen to the next episode. We're going to do episode zero for two thousand, two thousand and nineteen season, and that will be the origin story of my new cohost, who I'm not telling you anything else about, COOL CHAP.

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