John | Podcasting
John | Podcasting

Episode · 3 years ago

I'm still alive! Time to give thanks and move on ...

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John Emotions talks about killing off his ego, wrecking his own party and how things are evolving for him and the show. Be a guest on the show! http://bit.ly/BipolarGuests Buy a tshirt for Christmas http://bit.ly/Bipolar_Shirts

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It's only and now it's online and Bible this stylecom motions with Bible style. Hey, what's up? It's Johnny Motions Ere. Great to be back with you. Thanks for letting me in your head, in your ears and your little ear pods, your are pods and your headphones and whatnot. Man, it's been a while. I've been busy. I've been making other podcasts and have been helping other people make their own podcasts, so I've been productive. I'm sorry if I've let you go for so long without new podcast, but you know, we all go through our things and you know, what, do you want for nothing? It's been well. Here I'll get you up to speed. And this is kind of like the Monday before Thanksgiving here in America. Thursday, the fourth Thursday of November, is the day we've give thanks, the day the pilgrims came to Plymouth Rock and had dinner with the Indians and they got all kinds of weird myths that go with the Thanksgiving holiday, but generally speaking it's a time to think of things we should be grateful for, and practicing gratitude is one way to kind of alleviate depression. Clinical depression is a serious matter. Take your medicine, don't drink alcohol, avoid depressing things. But yeah, at the end of the day, mindset. Mindset is really important. It's important to have a positive attitude. kind of goes back to the whole evolution of the bipolar style podcasts and or my other podcast. So here's what's going on with that. I got tired of talking about myself and my own bipolar disorder, so I just want to hear other people's stories. If you go to bipolar stylecom now there's a link somewhere there on the patreon page that says like schedule yourself to be a guest, something like that. So I'm only going to produce bipolar style podcasts when somebody else wants to share. So if you want to share schedule and appointment, we'll talk. I'm going to let you do most of the talking. I'll prompt you because I don't like boring podcasts. And there are some technical requirements, like you should have a USB microphone to plug into your computer, not your cell phone, not your tablet, not Wifi or sell signal, any of that bullshit. One thing I want to do with podcasts is make them sound much better. One of the reasons I don't listen to podcast is because most people that produce them don't seem to care about the quality of the audio. I do so for bipolar style. If you'd like to be on the show, you need a USP mic. It's not that much that ass. It's like one thousand and ninety nine to target. You can probably get one for five dollars on black Friday, the Friday after Thanksgiving. So Uh Huh. One of the, you know, sacrifices you make living in a city as you need to let the people claim the poop off the sidewalks. And San Francisco I don't know what happened with the city planners, but they severely forgot to plan enough shit holes for the number of humans. So there's human feces all over the sidewalks of certain parts of San Francisco. It's disgusting. You think it's dog poop. It's that's not dog. I mean some of it is dog poop, but no, there's human poop. Talk about weird things and animals just randomly. No more poop. This is one of those cities that when you are walking around and you accidentally say to yourself, Whoa that...

...is the fucking weirdest thing I'm going to see all day. If you accidentally say that to yourself immediately, you will see something ten times weirder and you'll be shocked and you'll just like Oh who, and remind myself, and never to say that it's always weird things to see around here. Poop on the sidewalk is not weird. That's a common occurrence. I saw something strange yesterday and was really cute and the most weird thing I've seen a long time. I was over at the supermarket picking up some grocery and the lady behind me at the other register, I can see her pain for her grocery and there's a you know, she pulls open the litter of her little baby carriage asked the clerk, Oh, do you want to want to say how Tom My Kitty? Not that unusual to have a cat in a Stroller, not in San Francisco. I mean, how else do you get a cat around? The cool thing was, though, this was a regular stroller. It was not enclosed, it didn't have any net around it. It was like a regular seat, like a baby seat, that you would just sit in and this giant fat orange and white cat was just chilling right there. No Net, not zipped in, not caged, and he was just chilling. It's kind of sitting on his fat but leaning back a little bit. Pretty Weird right, thinking of myself, that's the one of the weirder things I'll see all day. And then the lady pulls out of her pocket. Oh, here's his friend, and the lady pulls out a fucking little mouse, a living, actual mouse, and sits it onto the little cat's belly. I mean it's a big cat, it's big fat at right, and puts his little mouse on this orange cat's belly and the orange cat just sits there kind of hmm and the mouse just chills kicking it on the giant fat belly of the Kitty cat. So in the supermarket behind me there's a lady with the fat Orange Cat in a stroller and the cat has his own pet mouse, which is a real mouse. It was pretty weird all right. So back to the bipolar style. Whole thing about not wanting to focus on bipolar too much, because you know who focuses only on your sickness, especially like I don't get any benefit from that except for getting it off my shoulders. I can do that at the DBSA meetings. Right, I could just go talk and can get it off my shoulders. But I do like to practice podcast production skills and they need to talk about something now and then. So bipolar was it. But, like I'm saying, you don't want to do a podcast just about your wart or just about your whatever. I mean, pick a random thing. If you got a thing that's quote unquote, a disorder, do you want to sit around and talk about just that? Seven feel ready to feel, ready to feel to see you anyway. You if you've listened to the show before, you've heard me rant about this. So what I do was I started like a fan club. I guess I come from the music industry, so we used to. I've been in bands and I've managed bands and things like that. One of the keys to a successful band is creating a fan club of some sort. You can have a facebook group at that's not quite what I'm talking about. It has to be more separate from facebook. You should have that completely on your own, with your own mailing lists and, you know, a place where people can gather where there aren't other people's ads or other people's fan clubs trying to get their attention. Sounds like a lawnmower engine. Huh. It's a little scooter built this place called Bipolar Partycom, as you probably here on the bumper joint, is exclusively a boy pulled that partycom and that is basically just a link to slack channel.

Are you guys familiar with the APP slack? If you're on bipolar party, you are. So slacks a really popular, you know, chat APP, basically in America. It's probably growing other places. It's not the biggest in the world, but it's one of the bigger ones. So anyway, bipolar party had a little fan club area where people can talk about bipolar. So that worked out cool. And then I just said the wrong thing to piss somebody off and I don't want to like stir up trouble and fight back, so I'm like, Oh, I fuck it, you guys can, you guys can play there and I'll just go find something else to do. You know, it's like, how do I liken it if I had a party and my house and somebody else was coming over and acting like an asshole and I told him to leave, but they came back anyway and everybody else at the party was like no, let him stay, let him stay up. I'm just going to sell a house and move them just because go somewhere else. I like, no, because I'm me. I just I want to be like me and I want to live in a peaceful environment and not talking about off topic, crazy shit whatever. So I just left that be. So if you go to bipolar PARTYCOM now, it's an awesome place. I'm sure I'm just because I'm not there. That's probably why it's more awesome now than ever. So of course that left me with a lot of extra time. Well, unfortunately, during this time my dad started needing a place to be. So he's hampering my life. I can't produce the podcast. Feelings stifled completely. The dude doesn't contribute shit around and it's just sucking the life out of me, on top of me being depressed anyway, my friend Dine, my dad doesn't give a shit about any of that kind of stuff either's all about himself. So I've got all these pressures and then people on the bipolar party group or taking my words out of contact. It's obviously on purpose, just because they got a different acts to grind or whatever. So anyway, the whole thing just spun out of Control. I to back off, but I still like podcasting. One of the dudes in bipolar party Christian fellow Brian and, which is strange because if you've heard me talk, I rant and rail about Christianity and religion sometimes. I was raised as a Baptist in America, but this kind of grew out of it. Anyway. Met A guy named Brian over in North Carolina and Brian has a podcast about Christianity and mental health. That's pretty cool. So at least one good thing came out of that, right. So it also got me thinking that will Jeez, let's just do this with more people. So, frankly, if you're out there and you want to try to make a podcast, totally hit me up by will be happy to help you host it for free for you, show you how to put it on Itunes, help you, you know, put up your twitter account and your website and all of that. Totally happy to help. We need more podcasters willing to speak up about mental health. There's a bunch of youtubers. There's a good twitcher on her name's amnxiety and it's like anxiety but instead of the An. It's the letter M, like mouse. I guess I don't know. Anxiety. M Xie TUI anxiety on twitch. She's good and look tons of youtube accounts anyway. But point being, I just don't think there's enough great sounding podcasts for other mental illnesses and there's not as many voices as I would like to hear from other countries really different cultures, different heritage and different view points on mental health and mental illnesses. I'd like to hear that and if you have an idea for podcast, let me know. I help you work it up. You can be your own star. I don't have to talk on it. The whole thing can be yours and it can be free. I'll help you do it. So...

...that's what you know. Long and short of it, through all that turmoil, that's what I came up with. So we'll do bipolar style. Go to bipolar stylecom and you can, you know, schedule a guest appearance and be on this show and anytime you see that there's a new episode of bipolar style, it's only because somebody new decided to come on the show. That was one of the harder things I found about running a podcast with guests is booking the damn guests, especially if the guests also have mental health issues. It just the shit show. It's hard to book anybody, and I'm really organized, so I have like a calendar, reminders, scheduling, all that, text Yit, and people still couldn't get it together. So anyway, I'm not going to not going to fight for guests and I'm certainly not going to sit here and keep blabbing on my own story again and again, again again. It's lame. So now, bipolar style, is your turn to talk, but if you want to hear me, keep talking. This is the other thing I found out. You can check out chaos updates. So chaos update. I've always had this fascination with chaos. I don't see chaos as a negative I don't see chaos in the sense of mayhem and turmoil. To me, chaos is a void of nothing from which everything begins. So in my mind I'm always, I've always been, like a positive thinker. So I see a lot of beauty and potential and possibilities in chaos. It's it's not stable though, that's for sure, but even though it's not stable, I still see beauty in it and I think it's worth celebrating in my own life and also worth documenting to the outside world. So my new podcast is called chaos update. Of course you can go to chaos UPDATECOM, follow the twitter at chaos update, that whole stick. But that's only like to the people that have been listening to me for a while. And you probably know that because that other show, the Johnny Motion Show, and I changed it to upbeat for a minute because at one point I was so low I was going through that will. Fuck it, I'm not going to die. I'm not going to die. Just fake it until you make it like everything was coming down on me. I'm sorry. Okay, just pretend you're upbeat. Go the whole colorful, upbeat, happy music, everything. Just force it. Just go be happy and I don't I don't know if it helped or not, but it helped because I'm alive. I'm not dead. I didn't die by suicide and lived to see another day. That said me. If you just if you're for some reason you're turning tuning into this podcast because you like to hear me ramble. You probably dig chaos update a lot, because I'm going to do it frequently. They're going to be short. They will revolve around mental health topics, or at least from top the at least be topics from a mental health perspective and always be trying to bring that kind of back into the to the message, regardless if we're talking about entertain man or politics or any of the rest of the things we have to live with in the real world anyway. And so I think it's important to get that out there, that people with mental illnesses have a perspective on those things and that our perspectives matter. But there's no both sides anymore. They're just trying to wreck our goddamn country. Still trying to get out of this city. Have I said that on this podcast before? Like it's crazy down here. My job is crazy. I'm overwhelmed. Them stacked ten deep with like literally mentally ill people and some physically disabled old there's elderly people, homeless people, old war Vetts, you name it. I'm the thick of it right now and I have this paranoia or this thing where I fear of becoming the average of the five people I'm around the most. That's not good, not in...

...this building. I gotta get can keep on moving. I got to keep on moving. So there's some people on twitter. Recently I was listening to a podcast the I know it's Becca Labarto and Joe but I was forget. Fuck, sorry, you suck yet, Jackass. Anyway, I think it's God damn, I won't have to edit this out. I'm fucking it up so bad. Check out the big brain on bread. So on twitter, Becca Lombardo and Joe Lombardo our to twitter mental health advocates and they have a podcasts. I just can't think of the name of it. I know their Hashtag is keep talking mh, but the name of the podcast is like left of the dial or straight radio. fucking see, I'm super fucking it up. Anyway, I'll get it right and I will put it correctly in in the notes and when I tweet this out. So they have a podcast to talk about mental health issues and they had one of the spokespeople, Aubrey good from the International Bipole Bowler Foundation, on this past week and I thought that was pretty entertaining, for it's just fun to hear people with bipolar disorder kind of Hash things out. And what I always find entertaining is when I listened to fucking mental health podcast with the start talking about politics and earnest. Meanwhile they're all saying, well, no, we don't want to talk about politics, but meanwhile let's talk about politics. It's funny. I know the other guy who is a comic, but he's also a rocker and his podcast is all about rock and roll. Is All man, this podcast isn't just about rock and roll. Hey, coming up next week, Dave, girls gonna be on if you say it's not all about rock and roll, but it's all about rock and roll. So if you know, there's no shame in talking about politics, just make a show more about politics. That's all I'm doing with the chaos update, by the way, is like I'll talk about politics that. We have to work our way through this, right, the guy who's president now won't be president in a few years, no matter what happens. So we've got US stick together. I think the ultimate battle will be the last of the organic humans versus the robot Trans Humans. We'll see when that day comes. Maybe all of the races of organics will finally unite to beat the robots. Actually, give me one set and I want to be look up to. The fucking name of that podcasts. So well, okay, here's how that should have sounded originally. So Hey, this past weekend I was listening to a podcast called voices for change. To nailed it. They're available at voices for Change dotnet. The host, Rebecca Lombardo, her husband Joe Lombardo. Welcome the guest, Aubrey good from the International Bipolar Foundation. Yeah, something like that right anyway. So the PODCAST is called voices for change. To point out, that's a good one. Listen to that one. Also, listen to that be word. Just coorse Becky, which she's produced a couple of podcasts with me together on both bipolar disorder and borderline personality disorder. We both have both of those. So that be word. She's way more mellow than me. She's like a normal person talking, very hypnotic, I think, is a good word. When I listened to Becky show that B word. So I'm thankful for meeting her and for what she's doing putting together the podcasts pretty frequently. I think she's slowed down a little bit too, but you know, we all do what we can do. That's nice that there are several us to fill in the voids when others are not producing shows. You know, that's one of the things I'm going to appreciate more about doing chaos update three, four five times a week is that I can just ramble and keep you updated on things I find on the...

...fly. I also do you use flipboard? Do you use flipboard? flipboard is a cool APP. I use it on like a tablet and a phone where you can just save curated news articles from types of feeds that you're into. I've got a magazine over there, bipolar style. Can See a lot of the articles I read and get my ideas from for this podcast. So I'm you know, I'm no genius. I just read a lot. Super Curious. I want to know about your stories and your perspectives on the same stories I'm reading. Are we getting the same information? Are we hearing things the same way we processing? Are we heading for a solution for people with bipolar disorder? That's what I want to know. Can we separate mania from depression? Finally, when can we do that? As a person with bipolar disorder, I've never gotten the benefit of antidepressants. They simply will not give them to me because I'm a lean manic. I lean lean hypomanic or manic. I'm a fast person. I think I'm. That's my disease. I'm fast people. I got your spas spaz is in a diagnosis and honestly, mania tends to I mean, it feels fast, Hypomania, but I'm not ADHD. I'm not. I mean I'm I'm paying too much attention, not not enough attention. So if there were a disease called fast and I think I just have fast. I think fast and I speak fast and it's not that bad. I just it feels like you guys are slow, not you guys, but that you know, the regular people feel like they're slow and kind of boring and predictable. It's weird. Whatever. You know what I mean if you have bipolar dis or you totally know what I mean. All right. So, yeah, have you caught up to speed yet? So we're gonna tie a bow around the way I used to do bipolar style. I flipped the switch on the the order in which the podcasts play. So a lot of New People, hopefully have been listening from the beginning or caught up to the story. And now, when they get to the final episode of the bipolar style most recent ones they'll get this episode. You're you'll get this one. You're listening to the episode you got. Hey, how about that? Anyway, now you're caught up to speed. Moving forward, basically, starting two thousand and nineteen January, all of the new bipolar style episodes will just be me hosting somebody from around the world sharing their story. I've got a great platform to record your voice. Level it out, make us sound awesome on both sides. Record some place a little quieter so you don't hear the city behind me, and we'll make a really cool sound in podcasts and kind of try to do our part to reduce stigma by showing the rest of the world how, quote unquote, normal by polar people are. Right, I don't know that that sound effect, that revving motor, meant something. Right. I believe in synchronicity, so I don't know what that exactly meant right there. That said, do that. have an awesome Thanksgiving and if you want to hear me talk more, go over to itunes and just look for chaos update. That'll be me. I'm not going to use my name that much. I'm not going to say hey, it's johnny emotions or any of that I'm just I'm trying to kill my ego. Literally, I'm like, it's not about me, it's not about me, it's about well, get me getting my story, not my even my story, me getting my emotions out, my feelings out, my thoughts out of my head. That that's what it's about. To me. It's just me getting the shit out of my head. Instead of being the crazy guy talking at the bus stop or the Manic Street preacher on the corner, I'm just talking into a mic. But you don't know who I am and that's the way like it. I like it that way. You don't need to know who I am. So I'm not going to like promote johnny emotions or anything like that.

In fact, I change that twitter account and the websites nearly defunct. I might just point that till main named back over to bipolar style kind of a race. Those tracks make that disappear. So I'm being I'm glad you're here and our witness to all of this, so at least we know what happened. So moving forward. People don't think I'm super nuts. Some of you will to actually just know. It's just evolution of a project. Right, yeah, what do you say? All Right, I'll let you go and go over and check out chaos update. I'll start recording those, probably Wednesday, thanksgiving morning, maybe even Friday, Saturday, whatever. I'll start recording those and also go to bipolar stylecom hit the book a guest spot button and come on, be on the show beyond an episode all to yourself. You can share as yourself, you can share as your twitter handle, or you can share as a meme. It doesn't matter. You can share anonymously or not. It doesn't really matter. People just want to hear like from others who've been diagnosed with bipolar disorder to know that they are not alone. All right, so you're not alone. You got me, which you know it's not saying a lot, but I'm happy I have you and you take care. Talk to you soon. Style on cheese and five following on. Excuse, mecom.

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