Emo Dojo™ Presents: John Emotions
Emo Dojo™ Presents: John Emotions

Episode · 1 year ago

NYE 2020 Bipolar Style

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John talks about the ups and downs of 2019, and refreshes the mood of the 2010's with music by LMFAO, Pharrell, CeeLo Green, twenty one pilots, Leo, and Jimmy Martin. John thanks Twitter followers, podcast listeners and lays out plans for Season 4 with your help.

Its onlyand now it's online seh with I tye all right, a right what's up happy newyear, it's last hours here of two thousand andnineteen was getting ready to do a podcast onone of my other podcasts kind of waiting around pushing the NOBS andflicking the buttons and realize hey. I could do a bipolar style, podcast too,while I'm sitting here so I'm going to do that. This will be kind ofunconventional by Boler style episode if you will, but that's cool, because it's new yearand things are going to change anyhow. So this episode will be the first partwe'll talk about two thousand and nineteen. You know the ups and thedowns and how we ended up here. Then I'm going to thank a bunch of peoplefrom twitter, I'm going to call them out by name, and I really appreciatethe people that help promote the show so that'll be fun and then, in thethird part, we'll talk about changes that we're going to do to this podcastmoving forward and how can how you can participate in all of that cool cool?So you know kind of in the sake of new years, for example, but we'releaving a whole decade. A lot happened in the past decade, so I just wanted tokind of honor the decade with a little music to remind us like where we'vebeen, and I startd to pull up some music from the early part of the thusanty tens and,Oh, my God, there's some wild stuff. We used to listen to back in the day Er with this, so twenty ten wha's fun right, Jus, listen to it for a minute and we gon Makeyeah. That's the part. Ilike right there, oh yeah good, get up w. We get PTHT's good stuff.

I like music. That makes weird noises.It reminds me of like a audio cartoon or something people thik. Oh, that'sthat's stupid music or this whatever, whatever music I mean, whatever termthey label music, they don't like lame. Some people say gay, but thatcould be a compliment. Some music anyway. I like some Weird Dance Musicin techno music, just because it sounds like a cartoon and it's interesting. SoYeah Party rockers, first part of T tweandy. Ten now leaving twenty ten manthere's a lot happening in the whole decade. Just kind of up and down was like happyand sad like there was the song happy anit my sen, crazy. What I'm aboutSayng, that's a Greato. How can you not hsing and then there was also the opposite of happy. The breakupsongs. Remember this silo Hyou Know I love singing backgroundlyrics to songs the background parts except for that one, because I'm superliberal, so we'll not sing the background. Lyarics to that out loudone of my favorite bands from the thusandy. Tens really wastwenty one pilots and Oh, my God, like they had such a huge hit with stressedout, and if you haven't heard it you should.Oh wait. Let me let preface this. If you hear explosions, it's okay, where Ilive, gunpowder is about as prevalent asCajan, spice or salter pepper, so its legal fireworks ere legal all yearround, there's a permanent firework shops in town. Lots of people have guns.So if you hear an y pop poppop up, it's like it's kind of out of my control.Sorry, but hey! It's New Year's Eve, two thousand and nineteen. So that said, I love these guys. Twenty one pilotsdoing stressed out ROM Wir, the song...

...from thousand Ad Ten. I wish I found some better sounds noone' ever heard. I wish I had to better voice o Tink, some better words. I wishI found some courts in and order that is new. I wish I didn't have to rhyme.Every time I san I was sold when I get older, all my feser drink, but nowwomen secure and a care what people ti s Yfamy as swecan Om back time e, the good nodaywhen the mom wassaying I sti seebutnow Wa Ow love those guys like seventy fivepercent of that album is awesome, bought two CDs, just road trips and man. I think Wie that thing outdefinitely lost one and needed to get it again. So some truck stop. We pickedup another blurry face, so dig it ticket, dig it all right. Sowhat happened in two thousand and nineteen with me, we Jeez, so it was San Francisco, California. I wasmanaging and directing hotel. They call them hotels out thereto Sro Hotel for formerly homeless folks. So we had a hundred and sixtyrooms is big. Massive building and you know, was stressful and yeah. I neededa change, so I said I need to go somewhere else. I'm, like you know when like got people, what wasthe Metaphori thought of the other day so, like you could watch somebody go ona roller coaster. You could stand at the age of a roller coaster. An watchpeople go on it all day, long all day long, but it's never going to be thesame as if you were to actually get on the roller coaster. That's kind of acrude example, but you know what I mean, so you have to go experience things tohave an opinion about them that resonates with the truth and given like the twenty tens. Iinadvertently and unintentionally helped get donald trump elected kind of set me off on a whole differentadventure path after that man. After all that happened, I wentback to San Francisco Start T. do the nonprofit thing again and I stilldidn't feel like yeah. It wasn't working us just so much to do and sofew resources to get the things done, that we needed to D, so it cause toomuch stress and when you have by polar disorder, adhd PTSC or whatever I M Ean,that environment gave me pedit ptst fresh each day, dead, bodies, violence, the whole thing,lik go in a daily basis, so I had to...

...get the fuck out. I did so anyway, I'm sining well where to golike I had this issue with the trump thing,because I'm like fucking hillbillies, who elected thisidiot and but then I'm like. Oh, I don't actually know anybody like that.I've never been to a place like that. I'm only lived in California havetravelled other places, but never stayed there longer than a few days,maybe a week most that's not enough from living in San Francisco and livingin downtown Los Angeles Living Ar Hollywood and places like that. Okay, Iget it. I know the liberal ideal. I know HMM yeah, just I'm reallyprogressive and caring kind, bleeding art kind of person, but I don't thinklike people are stupid. So I'm like, let's go see somewhere else. I didn't reallyhave an idea of where and then, when the opportunity came up, a friend ofmine was in Louisiana, so at the end like basically a year ago from now, Itook a train from San Francisco down to Los Angeles across over to Louisiana,so I've been in the deep south now for the full year and hats been fascinating.So it's kind of allowed me to develop a couple more theories. If you will, ontop of the research I do on brain science, and things like that so comingup in the kind of the next season, I'm going tocover things like Neophelia and things like a tunement and a whole bunch ofdifferent stuff. Like that see how we can make us feel better. Younow elp help us think differently about ourselves and how we fit in and whichtools are more useful than others and that sort of thing, but I wouldn't havebeen able to do that, had I not kind of gotten on the roller coaster and wentto see how other people live. Well, now that I see how people in the deep Southare not just visiting- and you know they're just like everybody else- they just been programmed differentlyand so we're all kind of victims of our programming really. So that's part of the start. How do weprogram each other in a kind kind of prosperous way, moving forward? Thoseare going to be some big themes. We talk about in two thousand and twentyon this particular podcast, which is kind of cool. I think you'll enjoy thatpart. So I was stressed out and man I got like kind of a hypochondriac anyway, and my butt was hurting my butt kepthurting hi'm. Like Oh shit, I got but cancer handle cancer R, something woald.What the fuck is this and I'm like? Oh, maybe it's just hamroid or somethingwhatever, but it didn't go way and did no way and longsort of it. I ended uphaving T CALLIN OS could be last year or this year, O thousand and nineteen,and it was Amroid they had it removed and yeah. That was exciting, but, likea lot of stress when you think like Oh, my God, I I could have a deadly disease,that's weird! It's IT's bad enough! We have...

...brain issues and disorders in her headthat won't go away, but to have a physical amwent that could grow andkill you like much quicker. That was scary anyway. Work that out wouldn't have otherwise. But now that Ihave, I can tell everybody: Hey middle aged men go get a colonoscope to whichmost of my friends would be like fuck that, but you know what, if you don't?You really could die so take care of your business. If you can- and like Isaid I did, it was stressful, stressed out, took care of it. DOCR shoud comeback in ten years and like fuck yeah, that's awesome, so that stress was alleviated. Then wehad kittens when we moved to a different place here in Louisiana, twenty six off the side ofthe highway. We had a box of kittens when we first got here. They weren'tours o seven little kitties and they were super cute, but we could not keepthem all. So we raised them from Kit Kitti's to big enough to be foster out to full time homes at shutright way to say that, but anyway find them permanent owners. I guess so that was cool in the INTEROM. We had another bigfluffy cat that wewere fostering and she was cool, but she was kind ofcranky, but it didn't matter because we kept all the tiny kidhe's in the one ofthe bathroom anyway. So there's Severat, we didn't realize that once we got ridof the kitties that the the big fluffy foster cat wasstill angry at everyall, the other normal cats we kept. So it was kind of interesting and thenone day after we'd gotten rid of the kitties that Gotin rid of e, you knowfound them. Homes took them to the the cat rescue place we kept hearing. This me me me like acrazy cat. We thought it was a pregnant mamma cat stuck under the house, so weeliminated all possibility of that and Yah. When the one day Wewejust fuckingran out to the farm and got the raccoon trap brought. I back over here set thatlittle fucking within about not even five minutes. We caught the littlefucker. It was a tiny little kitty again, not one of the original sevenbecause they're much bigger now and they're moving on to homes. This is anew kitty and Wen like how the fuck did this get here, because it had been likerecord breaking cold like below zero freezing temperatures, the past fewnights, and here this little fucker's, just mewing. You MOU me and Meu yeahcrazy. So we got that that kitty out took it to the vet and I turned out hadkaty HIV or Fivfflie MMUNOVIRUS, which sucks, but it's not horrible. So some somekind of I guess, Sol, searching if you will and prioritizing and the bigfluffy foster cat who, as angry, we felt was the biggest risk at starting,crazy brawls, like fight fights,...

...because a cat with Fiv won't give it tohumans. It's not a nof human virus. You can't catch it o can give it to othercats, but it requires like a deep bite and a kitty can't really bite a catlike that that deep, so anyway, long as short of it, wefound the big fluffev cat weh'd been fostering a new home. We kept the tinylittle black cats and now we're back down to three and ie got a little blackkatty. Probably you might actually hear because Sheiss played to him right nowand she's been jumping through the Christmas decorations and things. So ifyou hear little bell ringing or that kind of thing, it's not yourimagination, she's sleeping in the chair right by myfeet- that's maxine waters. That's her name! Lady at the vet said. What's the CAT'sname said Maxim: Waters Sheas, that's fom name. Yes, it's her name just yeah. I think it's funny becauseshe's a she's, you know strong, independent black woman or black female,in this case the cat. So I think maxam waters is a cool name and no it's notMax. It's not maccine its maxine waters or representative. Whichever d you wantto call her. So that's the cat story and yeah, I'm sticking to it. What the fuck isthis this I have actual console like a radioconsole, so I've sound. So if I ever feel like poking fun of myself, you know something might come out ofthe blue. What the heck are you talking about? Those are my favorites right.There, hes from God, Damn Thotas from Fargo. What theheck are you talking about bill? Macy, love that, and this was from a fairly brother'smovie, I'm not sure which one. What the fuck is this, maybe Jeff Bridges. Idon't know just playing around it- was wild. Remember in the beginning of twThousandy Nineteen, when I tried to have a cohost. Oh that's right! Youdon't because I deleted those episodes, but that was a shit show if you'rerunning a podcast, don't try to help everybody and then offer them a cohosting spot. Just wordto the wise, like vet, these people first, becausethis person was like a, I, don't know, kind of like a crystals and candleskind of person after all, and then pull the fast one, and you know like howDonald Drump Wen he's accused of doing the wrong thing instead of justcoppying to it, he'll double down and do double wrong he'll like actually go.Do it more of that and I'm like that's what that person did like fuck, so thatwas kind of a low point that was all happening around the same time as aGoddamn hameroid thing. So life was fucking miserable, like in March. It'sobviously much better now, because I've gotten rid of the Hamroid and thecohost Nice Huh anyway. So part of what I think about nineteen two thousad andnineteen represents the whole decade where he just kind of got Ta. Let it goso, let's put another music song...

...ide on the anyway Keveryanyailove. That version you guyslisten to that much! That's that Dude's name is Leo like the Lion, he's got ayoutube channel and all he does is metal covers of pop songs. Thatparticular one is kind of awesome, though I like it it doesn't, it doesn'tsound so sticky. It sounds like a serious song, pretty bad ass, though,because it's familiar people know what it sounds like and they know the words man, so many sequels frozen frozen tosout. Do you go see those I go see like the Pixar ones, but not the whatever?Whoever makes frozen dream works or something I don't. Don't got boy cotthat shit pigs are or nothing because I'm anadult. I look weird in kids movies by...

...myself, ridiculous, but pixare daytimewith no kids week day, wit's, cool boy, okay, I going to switch over hereand see, if you guys can help me with this. So I'd like to do the podcast way,less structured as if as if it has structure now, but much shorter, likefifteen to twenty minutes like Monday, Wenesday Friday, like almost every dayI kind of wish there was a mental health, O radio show like on serious Xmor something where the whole channel was mental health, a stuff and youcould just tune into djs or talkers or presenters whatever the fuck you wantto Gome, not influencers. Just you know people talking right, Dj kind of peopleall day long, so I think it would be neat to have like you in a big city.They got like the morning zoo crew or Chapo traphouse. I think it would befucking cool to have a mental health version of that, where all of the hostskind of have that that vibe and also you know, are suffering from some kindof disorder and but they're allso performers like behind a Mike and cankind of control the show and make it entertaining so at some point, I'd liketo do that with more people, but in the meantime, I' Mee and I have the energymost of the time to put a show together. It's not reallythe energy that I lack. It's the self confidence that Yurne on the Mike andjust start talking, because you feel like a Weirdo. It's almost like sittingin a confessional booth and talking to a priest on the other side of the wall,but there's no Brait, there's no priest there, just a dude inta boodbox, it'sjust you and a box, it's kind of what it feels like. That's it it's pretty easy just to get an idea to talk about btons of ideas totalk about it's just a matter of overcoming my lack of confidence andlike do Mien give a fuck. Do I even give afuck, I do, or I wouldn't think about them, and I guess it really doesn'tmatter if you care because you're listening- and I appreciate that so,let's move on there are some guests I like to have on the show and if you'reon twitter like I am- and you know any of these people, maybe you can hit themup for me because I'm kind of I don't know socially awkward in thesesituations. I don't want to contact people like I'm full of myself, but I don't want to not contact themeither. So if we can get like a warm handoff here, we go show this thirtymembers. If you're on twitter, you can followthis list too go to by polar style. It's my twitterd handle and there's a list called show guestswish list. Two Thousand and twenty, and here are the people just going toread off there. Twitter in handles ow need my glasses all right: black mentil Matt, one Johnny Underscoregefm Haubrey, that's AMG! Well, I won't evenfinish that one. Basically, the Gal,...

...who runs the bypolar international byPoler Foundation, account obbry. I want to interview you, yes, Dark Rise Project III strangers which a these fuckingawesome documentary three identical, strangers anxiety. I like to interviewMarie. So if anybody knows anxiety directly Wel, I'm connected with her, Iguess I should just like get over my lack of confidence and just ask her moonbeam life neuro rebel. Those are autistic folks.I like to interview somebody that represents the artistic community, Yeah Unpacke, sparkle, the sparkle King Lovethat Guy I've been wanting to have him on the show for a while, Dr Jessica,seventeen blk mental health is black mentalhealth, Donaka Linki official macafe yeah. That's it. I'mwont to interview John Mackafe Dudes, fascinating David M Weisman. That dude is aconverted. He used to be into trump and then he's now he's into liberals orsomething like that, but he's getting tons of shit for on twitters. I justwant to talk to Hem about tribalism. I say it wooss underscore sixteen. Dr Aaron Kat S, Haron Kate S, seth anone two, a the Muslim Hippi Sackina ID love to talk to her and get herposition on mental health as it pertains to the Muslim community andwhat it's like to be quote: Unquote X, Muslim. If I'mframing that right, if I'm not apologized, I think that's right, but I so many cool people on this list-whats thirty yeah, Roger Blazik e Love- to have him on the show, he's a goodsupporter glad. I found him on twitter. What's up Roger The soul, anarchistunderscore so anarchist Daniel Harper, Doctor Leolagos, Gab Howard, twenty nine, oh, hey,that's one too! So Gabe Howard runs psych central and he sent me a niceemail said he heard good things about my podcast from health. Central. Ofcourse I have a touch of borderline, so I don't accept o compliments. Well, Ithink he's probably just blowing hot air AP my ass, but that said game has a bunch of cool podcasts onpsychcentralcom, so go check out gay powerd stuff, but also want to trackhim down and interview him on this show Nica Sunar. I think we've spoken so Ibelieve Nisa we're going to talk about peer support groups and how people thathave specific disorders can help others with the same disorders. That'simportant, especially given the lack of...

...train, therapist and professionals inthe field. We can help each other. I think nisas going to be a great assetfor that, so we're going to talk to her soon Ryan Louis He's a doctor out in SanFrancisco, the amazing Jonathan. If you haven'tseen that documentary man really got to talk to that guy, the amazing Jonathan, true acceptance and boots Riley Rusty rockets and the lady namedHarriet a Washington who wrote a great book about how mental illnesses arecantagious it's kind ofmetaphorical, but I think the book is actually called contagious and I liketo talk to her. So that's kind of a big old list of thirty people. If you knowor have contact with then hit me up, DMME on twitter or go to by polarstylecom and just trop me a quick email and we'll connect. Also you you rightnow listening. If you want to be on a podcast, it's not magic. It's notspecial just hit me up and you can come on and we can talk. You can share yourstory if you're working on a project, you want to promote all that all right- and you recall inadvertentlyand unintentionally- helped get trump elected well. That was through softwaretechnology. I also happen to use that technology, so I know who some of thebiggest supporters like the people liking and sharing and twiting andwhatnot are on twitter so quickly. Let me think Sophie Becca at that Bee word.She's, always been a big supporter, Roger Vincent's, antichrist, CulterSucesus, a Sam who knew borderline counsellor,Christoper, glark, Kareta, Cantis, Hawbry, Nora George Carlin's, ghostJordan, Simon Hales bells bipolar disorder, yeah, there's actually anaccount at by polar disorder, Todd Hancock, Kendra, Jim Steele, brainworld magazine, Kati and, of course, Ames he's not on this listright here, but I know Ames is always listening and she's. Always she showsup out of the blue whenever I feel down she's like says ior how you doing orwhatever. So I think that's awesome like how get you Fai, when youhave fans thatare like cool, like that, I wouldn't e, say fans I'll, just saylistener right. The fan sounds presumptuous and a bit obnoxious, soanyway, thanks Ames and thanks to the rest of you for not just listening to the podcast butsharing on twitter. So when you have a podcast, it's kind of weird because you're you right, I mee. I assume Iassume the way I assume is put it. What I didn't think to understand was that twitter users are not necessarilypodcaspodcast listeners and podcast...

...listeners are not necessarily twitterusers, so were those two big circles of communities overlap right there in themiddle there's, probably only I don't know a few dozen people that do bothlisten to the show and use twitter, so see them pretty frequently, and I thinkthat contributes to the algorithms and t en twitter just kind of reinforcesthat so it's good, sometimes it's hard to change. Anyway, I found this newthing called WL. It's not new, it's new to me because I finally was ready forit. I guess it's called tweet delete, so I'm goingto just start deleting all my tweets. They will be efemeral they'll last afew days and then they'll just go away. I think in I was talking to somebodyabout what twitter is like for me and I think it's like a parking lot,where I put the flyers for my bands Gig in this case I mean the metaphor.Obviously is this: podcast is my band and you got Tahave to promote it, so you got to go put flyers on people's winshields right.Well, in that sense, I'm in a parking lot and put'n flyers on people'swinshields. I'm also talking to people and Drinking Beers and doing that wholething, while I'm on towitter whatever, but I don't want to leave the flyerslaying around all the time after I'm done so I'm going to just startdeleaving all the twits. If you go to my twitter account tits, probably onlyGingto, be maybe ten tweets at any. Give Him t e time unless I'm gettingangry at a politician and railing against authority than there might be abunch, but probably every week, I'm just going to flush all the old tweetsout kind of. By that same token, I may alsodelete or hide all the older podcast episodes just to keep things focused onthe moment. Back to the whole, you know, radio show idea, you can't go back,listen to old radio shows you they'r listening to the one, that's todayis oror not. I don't know playing with somedifferent ideas moving forward, but I definitely want to do more frequently.Each thing will be pretty structured, so check this out. I've been collectingstories and I call them high jinks for lack of a better word.Honestly, I was just making a Lowgo and I'm like what we're described to thesethings. A lot of things, the trouble and just stuff stories from growing upand like yeah hi jeans is good. So so I think I'm going to insert one ofthese, Oh and then I got into Hicou a little bit. So my idea is a thing I gotto lay out here somewhere we're going to do Du to do do do di, do start off with the intro and then I'lldo maybe a song that kind of represents that episode I'll read from a highjinks to a high coew and then to do a song out and based on that in mytraditional digressions and the other things I think we'll have a nice twentyminute podcast. You G see some of these hijinks if any ofthings ring a bellwith you or kind of resinate with you- and you want me to do those first, letme know so.

We got other stuff here, like Hijing,stumber, two war zone, the nuclear bomb and helicopter incident. That's a goodone! Number seven car rolls into a ditch onthe way to the mine shaft that was exciting crash. The jetly on Torage Ind SanFrancisco, that was fun plane crashes into a shopping mall.That was interesting, so you sn, I mean, and these are the things that I thinkof when I'm like. I hope I don't start repeating these stories over and overto my kids like it drives me crazy, when my parents, especially my dad,repeats the same story about people, I don't know and the same story I'veheard over. So I just don't want to be that guy. So I've figured if id justpull all these stories. Out of my head record them onto a podcast there, yougo you'll, be entertained. I'll get the stories out of my head. I won't have torepeat them over and over again and ther. There will be some kind of recordthat I existed on the planet, but then I started thinking about the future andwhat happens if I get like ALD seimers, a Dimensia, I could go back and listento myself tell my own old stories, so I think that could be kind of fun kind ofamazing too. Maybe you want to do the same thing who knows, but there's somegood ones in there boy. I have to tell you Jeez, so I got to get ready and headover to mythe podcast her shortly it's about eight o'clock here in thecentral time. That means it's nine o'clock on the east coast. That meansuts three hours till midnight in America, it's already the next year, it'salready two thusand and twenty and the rest of the world, a lot of the world.So hang on folks. I think it's going to be exciting, but let's try not to gettoo crazy. Tru Get tried to get too angry at things and reach out to eachother. You kind of form a tighter community in two thousand and twenty,so that when Shit does go crazy, that's inevitably things do then at least wilhave each other to rely on right. So what that said, you know, I said tomove back down to southwest Louisiana and I kind of I'vealways liked country music, but this is a good song. That kind of speaks to mymind right now, a you don't know my on lose a drifter. That's me Ababy you on O my mind. Yoday...

I've heard the music oea eping everydirty Ti. I have to Shor E, do Wy, Wena fine and I can win ie kicking outofgai. Maybe you don't know my mind all right. That's about all I've got. Ihope you have a great night be safe. You know don't drink and drive. Obviously youdon't get high and drive sit there I mean whatever it's go, meditate orsomething the yeah. Nobody cares. If you don't go tothe party, it's fine, it's just fine and I'll catch you on the next bypolarstyle behalf of me and the cats maxine waters over there. I'm JohnnyMotions- and I will talk to you soon- ons ahe's, so stupid and now back tothe wall.

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