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NYE 2020 Bipolar Style

ABOUT THIS EPISODE

John talks about the ups and downs of 2019, and refreshes the mood of the 2010's with music by LMFAO, Pharrell, CeeLo Green, twenty one pilots, Leo, and Jimmy Martin. John thanks Twitter followers, podcast listeners and lays out plans for Season 4 with your help.

It's only head and now it's online bottle, this stylecom yes, Johnny motions with bottle that style. All right, all right, what's up? Happy New Year. It's last hours here of two thousand and nineteen. Was Getting Ready to do a podcast on one of my other podcasts, kind of waiting around pushing the KNOBS and flicking the buttons, and realize, Hey, I could do a bipolar style podcast to while I'm sitting here, so I'm going to do that. This will be kind of unconventional bipolar style episode, if you will, but that's cool because it's new year and things are going to change anyhow. So this episode will be the first part. We'll talk about two thousand and nineteen, you know, the ups and the downs and how we ended up here. Then I'm going to think a bunch of people from twitter. I'm going to call them out by name and I really appreciate the people that help promote the show. So that'll be fun. And then in the third part we'll talk about changes that we're going to do to this podcast moving forward and how can how you can participate in all of that. Cool, cool, so, you know, kind of in the sake of New Year's, for example. But we're leaving a whole decade. A lot happened in the past decade. So I just wanted to kind of honor the decade with a little music to remind us, like, where we've been. And I started to pull up some music from the early part of the two thousand and ten and, Oh my God, there's some wild stuff. We used to listen to you back in the day with this. So two thousand and ten, it's fun right, just listen to it for a minute. Yeah, let's go sake that. Yeah, that's the party like right there. Oh Yeah, are you dancing? Good, get up shot. That's good...

...stuff. I like music that makes weird noises. It reminds me of like a audio cartoon or something. People like, oh, that's that's stupid music, or this whatever, whatever music. I mean whatever term they label music they don't like, lame. Some people stay gay, but that could be a compliment some music. Anyway. I like some weird dance music and tecto music. It just because it sounds like a cartoon and it's interesting. So Yeah, party rockers, first part of two thousand and ten. Now leaving two thousand and ten. Man, there's a lot happening in the whole decade, just kind of up and downs, like happy and sad. Like there was this song happy. It might seem crazy, that's a great so how can you not like us? And then there was also the opposite of happy, the breakup songs. Remember this Celo? That's some shit and we you know I'd love singing background lyrics to songs, the background parts, except for that one, because I'm super liberal, so will not sing the background lyrics to that out loud. One of my favorite bands from the two thousand and ten really was twenty one pilots and Oh my God, like they had such a huge hit with stressed out, and if you haven't heard it, you should. Oh wait, let me, let me preface this. If you hear explosions, it's okay. where I live, gunpowder is about as prevalent as Cajun Spice or salt pepper, so it's legal. Fireworks are legal all year round. There's a permanent fireworkshops in town. Lots of people have guns. So if you hear any pop, pop, pop up, it's like it's kind of out of my control. Sorry, but hey, it's new year's Eve. Two Thousand and nineteen. So that's said. I love these guys. Twenty one pilots doing stressed out. Remember the song from two thousand...

...and ten. I wish I found some better sounds no one's ever heard. I wish I had to better voices saying some better words. I wish I found some cords in an order that is new. I wish I didn't have to rhyme every time I saying. I was told when I get older, all my feels of drink. But now woman secure and I care what people think names. Care what you think my name's face, and care what you think. WHO's rinking back time to the good no days when the Mama was saying. But love those guys like seventy five percent of that album is awesome. I bought two CDs just road trips and man, think wre that thing out. Definitely lost one and needed to get it again. So some truck stop we picked up another blurry face. So dig it, dig it, dig it. All right. So what happened in two thousand and nineteen with me? We Geez. So it was San Francisco, California. I was managing and Directing Hotel, the column hotels out there. It's a SRO hotel for formerly homeless folks. So we had a hundred and sixty rooms. Is Big, massive building and you know, it stressful and you know and needed a change. So I said, I need to go somewhere else. I'm like, you know, when like people, what was the metaphor I thought of the other day? It's like you could watch somebody go on a roller coast. You could stand at the edge of a roller coaster and watch people go on it all day long, all day long, but it's never going to be the same as if you were to actually get on the roller coaster. That's kind of a crude example, but you know what I mean. So you have to go experience things to have an opinion about them that resonates with the truth. And given like the two thousand and ten S, I inadvertently and unintentionally helped get donald trump elected. Kind of set me off on a whole different adventure path. After that, man, after all that happened, I went back to San Francisco Start to do the nonprofit thing again and I still didn't feel like, yeah, it wasn't working. There's just so much to do and so few resources to get the things done. That we needed to do so cause too much stress and when you have bipolar disorder, Adhd, PTSD or whatever. I mean, that environment gave me ped at, PTSD, fresh each day, dead bodies, violence, the whole thing...

...not got on a daily basis. So I had to get the fuck out, and I did so. Anyway, I'm thinking, well, where to go? Like I had this issue with the trump thing, because I'm like, fucking he'll billies, who elected this idiot? And but then I'm like, Oh, I don't actually know anybody like that. I've never been to a place like that. I've only lived in California. I've traveled other places, but never stayed there longer than a few days, maybe a week most. That's not enough. From living in San Francisco and living in downsound Los Angeles, living in Hollywood and places like that. Okay, I get it. I know the liberal ideal. I know. HMM, yeah, just I'm really progressive and carrying kind bleeding art kind of person, but I don't think like people are stupid. So I'm like, let's go see somewhere else. I didn't really have an idea of where, and then, when the opportunity came up, a friend of mine was in Louisiana. So at the end, like basically a year ago from now, I took a train from San Francisco down to Los Angeles and across over to Louisiana. So I've been in the deep south now for the full year and it's been fascinating. So it's kind of allowed me to develop a couple more theories, if you will, on top of the research I do on brand science and things like that. So coming up in the it kind of the next season I'm going to cover things like neophilia and things like a tunaments and a whole bunch of different stuff like that, see how we can make us feel better. You know, he'll help us think differently about ourselves and how we fit in and which tools are more useful than others and that sort of thing. But I wouldn't have been able to do that had I not kind of gotten on the roller coaster and went to see how other people live. Well, now that I see how people in the deep South are not just visiting and you know they're just like everybody else. They just been programmed differently, and so we're all kind of victims of are programming really so that's part of the start. How do we program each other in a kind kind of prosperous way moving forward? Those are going to be some big themes. We talked about in two thousand and twenty on this particular podcast, which kind of cool. I think you'll enjoy that part. So I was stressed out and man, I got like kind of a HYPOCHONDRIAC. Anyway in my butt was hurting. My but kept hurt and I'm like, Oh shit, I got butt cancer. I had anal cancer something. What, what the fuck is this? And I'm like, Oh, maybe it's just Hamrohid or something whatever. But it didn't go wet and didn't go away and long short of it, I ended up having them call an Oscar he last year or this year, two thousand and nineteen, and it was Hamorroid and they just had it removed and Yay. Those exciting but like a lot of stress when you think like, Oh my God, I could have a deadly disease. That's weird and it's it's bad enough we have brain issues and disorders in her head that won't go away, but...

...to have a physical aiment that could grow and kill you like much quicker. That was scary. Anyway, work that out. It wouldn't have otherwise. But now that I have I can tell everybody, hey, middle aged men, go get a Colin Oscarpy, to which most of my friends be like fuck that, but you know what, if you don't, you really could die. So take care of your business if you can. And, like I said, I did. It was stressful, stressed out, took care of it. DRS did come back in ten years and like fuck yeah, that's awesome. So that was stress was alleviated. Then we had kittens. When we moved to a different place here in Louisiana, twenty six off the side of the highway, we had a box of kittens when we first got here. They weren't ours, little seven little kitties and they were super cute, but we could not keep them all. So we raise them from kitties to big enough to be foster out to full time homes. That's true, the right way to say that, but anyway, find them permanent owners, I guess. So that was cool. In the interim we had another big fluffy cat that we were fostering and she was cool, but she was kind of cranky. But it didn't matter because we kept all the tiny kitties in the one of the bathroom anyway, so they're separate. We didn't realize that, once we got rid of the KITTIES, that the the big fluffy foster cat, was still angry at every all the other normal cats we kept. So those kind of interesting. And then one day after we'd gotten rid of the KITTIES, not gotten rid of them, you know, found them homes, took them to the cat rescue place we kept here in this me me me like a crazy cat without it was a pregnant Mama cat stuck under the house. So we eliminated all possibility of that. And Man when the one day we just fucking ran out to the farm and got the raccoon trap, brought it back over here, set that little fucking within about not even five minutes, we caught the little fucker. It was a tiny little kitty again, not one of the original seven, because they're much bigger now and they're moved on to homes. This is a new kitty and one like how the fuck did this get here? Because it had been like record breaking cold, like below zero freezing temperatures the past few nights and here this little fuckers just mew and me, you, me and me. Yeah, crazy. So we got that that Kitty Out, took it to the vet and it turned out had kitty HIV, or five feline immunovirus, which sucks but it's not horrible. So some some kind of I guess, soul searching, if you will, and prioritizing and big fluffy foster cat who's angry we felt was the biggest risk at starting crazy brawls, like fight fights, because a cat with...

Fiv won't give it to humans. It's not A it's not human virus. You can't catch it. You can give it to other cats, but it requires like a deep bite and a kitty can't really bite a cat like that that deep. So anyway, long and short of it, we found a big fluff feed cat we'd been fostering a new home. We kept the tiny little black cats and now we're back down to three and I've got a little black Kittie probably you might actually hear because she is playtime right now and she's been jumping through the Christmas decorations and things. So if you hear a little bell ringing or that kind of thing, that's not your imagination. She's sleeping in the chair right by my feet. That's maxine waters. That's her name. Lady at the vet said, what's the CAT's name? Said maxine waters, because that's her name. Yes, it's her name. Just yeah, I think it's funny because she's a she's, you know, strong, independent black woman, were black female, in this case a cat. So I think maxie waters is a cool name. And no, it's not Max it's not maxine, it's maximum waters, or representative, whichever you want to call her. So that's the cat story and yeah, I'm sticking to it. What the fuck is this? This? I have an actual console, like a radio console, so I have sounds. So if I ever feel like poking fun of myself, you know something might come out of the blue. What the heck you talking about? And those are my favorites right there. These from Goddamn, that was from Fargo. What the heck you talking about, Bill Macy? Look that. And this was from a fairly brothers movie. I'm not sure which one. What the fuck is this? Maybe Jeff Bridges? I don't know, just playing around. It was wild. Remember in the beginning of two thousand and nineteen when I tried to have a cohost. Oh, that's right, you don't, because I deleted those episodes. But that was a shit show. If you're running a podcasts, don't try to help everybody and then off of them a cohosting spot. Just word to the wise, like vet these people first, because this person was like a, I don't know, kind of like a crystals and candles kind of person after all. And then pull the fast one. And you know, like how Donald Trump, when he's accused of doing the wrong thing, instead of just coppying to it, he'll double down and do double wrong. He'll like actually go do more of that, and I'm like that's what that person did. Like fuck. So that was kind of a low point. That was all happening around the same time as the Goddamn hamroid thing, so life was fucking miserable. I in March. It's obviously much better now because I've gotten rid of the HAMROID and the Co host Nice Huh. Anyway. So part of what I think about nineteen, two thousand and nineteen represents the whole decade where you just kind of got it. Let it go, so let's put...

...another music song. Storm inside. Don't control. I love that version. You guys listen to that much. That's that. Dude's name is Leo, like the Lion. He's got a youtube channel and all he does is metal covers of pop songs. That particular one is kind of awesome, though. I like it. It doesn't. It doesn't sound so sticky. It sounds like a serious song. Pretty Badass, though, because it's familiar. People know what it sounds like and they know the words. A man so many sequels. Frozen, frozen two is out. You go see those. I go see like the Pixar ones, but not the whatever whoever makes frozen dream works or something. I don't don't a boycott that Shit. Pigs are or nothing, because I'm an adult. So I look weird in kids movies by...

...myself. It's articulous. But Pixar daytime, when the Kids Week Day? Let's cool boy. Okay, I'm going to switch over here and see if you guys can help me with this. So I'd like to do the podcast a way, less structured, as if, as if it has structure now, but much shorter, like fifteen to twenty minutes, like Monday, Wednesday, Friday, like almost every day. I kind of wish there was a mental health radio show, like on serious exam or something, where the whole channel's mental health stuff and you could just tune into Dja's or talkers or presenters, whatever the fuck you want to call them. Not influencers, just you know, people talking rate Dj kind of people all day long. So I think you would be neat to have like you in a big city. They got like the morning zoo crew or Chopo traphouse. I think it would be fucking cool to have a mental health version of that where all of the hosts kind of have that that vibe and also, you know, are suffering from some kind of disorder and but they're also performers, like behind the mic and can kind of control a show and make it entertaining. So at some point I'd like to do that with more people, but in the meantime I'm me and I have the energy most of the time to put a show together. It's not really the energy that I lack, it's the SELFCOMP FIDENCE to turn on the MIC and just start talking because you feel like a Weirdo. It's almost like sitting in a confessional booth and talking to a priest on the other side of the wall. But there's no brain, there's no priest, there's just a dude in a bood box. It's just you in a box. It's kind of what it feels like. That said, it's pretty easy just to get an idea to talk about, tons of ideas to talk about. That's just a matter of overcoming my lack of confidence and like, does anybody can give a fuck? Do I even give a fuck? I do, or I wouldn't think about them. And I guess it really doesn't matter if you care because you're listening and I appreciate that. So let's move on. There are some guests I'd like to have on the show and if you're on twitter like I am and you know any of these people, maybe you can hit them up for me, because I'm kind of, I don't know, socially awkward in these situations. I don't want to contact people like I'm full of myself, but I don't want to not contact them either. So if we can get like a warm handoff, here we go. Show list thirty members. If you're on twitter, you can follow this list to go to bipolar style. It's my twitter handle and there's a list called show guests. Wish List Two thousand and twenty, and here are the people just going to read off their twitter handles. Are Need my glasses, all right, black mental matt one, Johnny underscored, Gfm Aubrey. Let's a MG. Well,...

I won't even finish that one. Basically, the Gal who runs the bipolar, International Bipolar Foundation, Account Aubrey. I want to interview you. Yes, Dark Rise Project, ie strangers, which is these fucking awesome documentary. Three identical strangers. amnxiety. I like to interview Marie. So, if anybody knows anxiety directly, well, I'm connected with her. I guess I should just like get over my lack of confidence and just ask her. Moonbeam life, neuro rebel. Those are autistic folks. I like to interview somebody that represents the autistic community. Yeah, unpacked sparkle, the sparkle king. Love that guy. I've been wanting to have him on the show for a while. Dr Jessica Seventeen. Blk Mental Health is black mental health? Don A K Linky, official Mac of fee. Yeah, that's it. I'm want to interview John McAfee. Dudes, fascinating. David M Weissman. That dude is a converted used to be into trump and then he's now he's into liberals or something like that, but he's getting tons of shit forward on twitter. So I just want to talk to me about tribalism. Isaiah Woods, underscore, sixteen, Dr Aaron Kate, s Aaron Kate, s Seth and one two, the Muslim Hippie Sakana. I would love to talk to her and get her position on mental health as it pertains to the Muslim community and what it's like to be, quote unquote, x Muslim, if I'm framling that right. If I'm not, apologize. I think that's right. PUSS. So many cool people on this list. Well, was thirty. Yeah, Roger Blazek. Love to have him on the show. He's a good supporter. I'm glad I found him on twitter. WHAT'S UP, Roger? The soul anarchist, underscore, soul anarchist, Daniel Harper, Dr Lea Lagos, Gabe Howard, twenty nine. Oh Hey, that's one too. So Gabe Howard runs psych central and he sent me a nice email said he heard good things about my podcast from health central. Of course I have a touch of borderline, so I don't accept compliments well, and I think he's probably just blowing hot air up my ass. But that said, gave has a bunch of cool podcasts on Psych Centralcom so co check out gay powered stuff, but also want to track him down and interview him on this show. NISSA SUNA are, I think we've spoken, so I believe, Nissa, we're going to talk about peer support groups and how people that have specific disorders can help others with the same disorders. That's important, especially given the lack...

...of trained therapist and professionals in the field. We can help each other. I think Nissa's going to be a great asset for that, so we're going to talk to her soon. Ryan Lewie, he's a doctor out in San Francisco, the amazing Jonathan, if you haven't seen that documentary, man really got to talk to that guy, the amazing Jonathan, true acceptance and boots, Riley, rusty rockets, and the lady named Harriet a Washington, who wrote a great book about how mental illnesses are contagious. It's kind of metaphorical, but I think the book is actually called contagious and I'd like to talk to her. So that's kind of a big old list of thirty people if you know or have contact with, then hit me up, DM me on twitter or go to bipolar stylecom and just drop me a quick email and we'll connect. Also, you, you right now listening. If you want to be on a podcast, it's not magic, it's not special. Just hit me up and you can come on and we can talk, you can share your story if you're working on a project you want to promote. All that all right, and you call I inadvertently and unintentionally helped get trump elected. Well, that was through software technology. I also happen to use that technology. So I know who some of the biggest supporters, like the people liking and sharing and tweeting and whatnot, are on twitter. So quickly, let me thank Sophie Becca at that B word. She's always been a big supporter Roger Vincent's antichrist, Coulter Sa Sam. Who Knew Borderline Counselor Christopher Clark Karita. CAn'tus Aubrey Nora, George Carlin's ghost, Jordan Simon, hell's Bell's bipolar disorder? Yeah, there's actually an account at bipolar disorder. Todd Hancock, Kendra, Jim Steele, brain world magazine, Katie and of course aims. She's not on this list right here, but I know Ames is always listening and she's always she shows up out of the blue. Whenever I feel down, she's like says higher, how you doing or whatever. So I think that's awesome. Like how can you fail when you have fans that are like cool like that? I want you to say fans. I'll just say listener night the fans. Sounds presumptuous and a bit ob noxious. So anyway, thanks ames, and thanks to the rest of you for not just listening to the podcast but sharing on twitter. So when you have a podcast, it's kind of weird because you're you right. I mean I assume. I assume the way I assume it put it. What I didn't think to understand was that twitter users are not necessarily podcast listeners and podcast listeners are not necessarily twitter...

...users. So we're those two big circles of communities overlap right there in the middle. There's probably only, I don't know, a few dozen people that do both listen to the show and use twitter. So I see them pretty frequently and I think that contributes to the algorithms and then twitter just kind of reinforces that. So it's got. Sometimes it's hard to change. Anyway, I found this new thing called, well, it's not new, it's new to me because I finally was ready for it. I guess it's called tweet delete. So I'm going to just start deleting all my tweets. They will be ephemeral the last a few days and then they'll just go away, I think in I was talking to somebody about what twitter is like for me and I think it's like a parking lot where I put the flyers for my band's Gig. In this case I mean the metaphor, obviously, is this podcast is my band and you gotta have to promote it, so you got to go put flyers on people's windshields. Right. Well, in that sense I'm in a parking lot and putting flyers on people's windshields. I'm also talking to people and Drinking Beers and doing that whole thing while I'm on twitter whatever. But I don't want to leave the flyers laying around all the time after I'm done, so I'm going to just start deleting all the tweets. If you go to my twitter account, that's probably only to be maybe ten tweets. At any given time unless I'm getting angry at a politician and railing against authority, and there might be a bunch, but probably every week. I'm just going to flush all the old tweets out. Kind of. By that same token, I may also delete or hide all the older podcast episodes, just to keep things focused on the moment. Back to the whole. You know, radio show idea. You can't go back to listen to old radio shows. You either listen to the one that's Today's or or not. I don't know, plan with some different ideas moving forward, but I definitely want to do more frequently. Each thing will be pretty structured. So check this out. I've been collecting stories and I call them high Jinks, for lack of a better word. Honestly, I was just making a logo and I'm like what word described these things? A lot of things the trouble and just stuff, stories from growing up. kind of like yeah, hi jinks is good. So so I think I'm going to insert one of these. Oh, and then I got into high cou a little bit. So my idea is, I think I got to lay out here somewhere we're going to do Dudo Doo Doo Doo, Doo Dooo. Start off with the intro and then I'll do maybe a song that kind of represents that episode. I'll read from a high jinks to a high coup and then to do a song out and based on that and my traditional digressions in the other things, I think we'll have a nice twenty minute podcast. Yes, see some of these hijinks. If any of these ring a bell with you or kind of resonate with you and you want me to do those first, let me know. So we got other stuff here like Hyjenk s number two, war zone, the nuclear bomb...

...and helicopter incident. That's a good one. Number seven car rolls into a ditch on the way to the mine shaft. That was exciting. Crash the getly entourage and San Francisco. That was fun. Plane crashers into a shopping mall. That was interesting. So he soon, I mean, and these are the things that I think of when I'm like, I hope I don't start repeating these stories over and over to my kids like it drives me crazy when my parents, especially my dad, repeats the same story about people I don't know and the same story I've heard over so I just don't want to be that guy. So I've figured if I just pull all these stories out of my head record them on to a podcasts, there you go. You'll be entertained, I'll get the stories out of my head, I won't have to repeat them over and over again, and then will there'll be some kind of record that I existed on the planet. But then I started thinking about the future and what happens if I get like Alzheimer's, a dementia. I could go back and listen to myself tell my own old stories. So I think that could be kind of fun, kind of amazing too. Maybe you want to do same thing, who knows, but there's some good ones in there, boy, I tell you Jeez. So I got to get ready and head over to my other podcasts shortly. It's about eight o'clock here in the central time. That means it's nine o'clock on the east coast. That means it's three hours till midnight in America. It's already the next year. It's already two thousand and twenty and the rest of the world, a lot of the world. So hang on, folks. I think it's going to be a exciting, but let's try not to get too crazy, Turk, get trying to get too angry at things, and reach out to each other, you know, kind of form a tighter community in two thousand and twenty so that when Shit does go crazy, let's inevitably things do, then at least we'll have each other to rely on. Right. So, with that said, you know, I said a move back down to southwest Louisiana and I kind of I've always liked country music, but this is a good song that kind of speaks to my mind right now. Honey, you don't know my mind. I'm on time. Barneluzia, drifter, that's me. You can drove up far from long and hard. A baby, you don't know my I've heard the music convert snapping every dirty jail live to short for you...

...do wory me when I'm fin and I gave way. I'm a kicking out of it. Baby, you don't know my mind. All right, that's about all I've got. I hope you have a great night. Be Safe. You know, don't drink and drive. Obviously you don't get high and drive. Sit there, I mean, whatever's go meditate or something. The you know, nobody cares if you don't go to the party. It's fine, it's just fine, and I'll catch you on the next bipolar style on behalf of me and the cats, maxine waters. Over there, I'm johnny emotions and I will talk to you soon. Subscribe Cheese following on twitter. He's so stupid. And now back to the wall.

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