John | Podcasting
John | Podcasting

Episode · 1 year ago

Persistence is key; Don't let the bastards get you down.

ABOUT THIS EPISODE

I talk about why I change the podcast name/artwork so much lately, and how hard it really is for me to make a cool show.

I'm John Emotions and this is daily emotions. Yeah, here's a weird thing. So I started uploading the show to a new podcast platform called sounder, Sounder Dot FM, and a why I started to do that? Just because sounder will transcribe your podcast. So that's a whole fine and dandy. But then I go into the last episode I recorded and started reading what it had transcribed, and now I'm super selfconscious about articulating every word so the robot can transcribe my voice better. Just playing anyway. Welcome back. I'm John Emotions and this is daily emotions. See, I told you I was going to do a podcast every day. Get the clock started so I don't go too long. One way I thought to make a short podcast is to turn the...

...oven on like I'm going to bake something, and from where I sit right here, when the oven's hot enough, you get start to smell it like just you smell a heat or residual of past things cooked or I'm not sure. The ovens clean but still smells like an oven to me. Well, if it turn it on, take about twelve minutes for me to smell it and then I'll be done. Anyway, I'm just said a timer. So the emotions about out the election, those are going to continue, especially as you saw today, the fucking clown doesn't want to concede and just trying to dig in and fucking mess. I'm sorry, I don't want to get into politics today. So about this podcasts and you've listening to it. Thank you, like thanks for sticking around. You're probably wondering, like, what the fuck is he doing? Why does he keep changing? Well, why not? Honestly, it's a hobby of mine and I kind of like if he.

I like playing with Lego, for example, and once you create the initial model, I tend to, well, yeah, I tend to. I tend to break all the legos, all the lego bricks, down into one big bucket then and then reconstruct them in two different things over and over again. I never go back and build the same model twice the original model. It's kind of like that with podcast, I guess. But more importantly, I was going to tell you what I was trying to do with this one and what had happened over covid so much wild stuff. But with regards to podcast, not long ago I was feeling really depressed and yeah, just depression depression. Like if you have depression, you know what I'm talking about. One of those times where I was like hide now in the closet, avoiding the world. Covid was everywhere and just barely, you know, just getting by, barely surviving. Around the same time, I just randomly saw...

...something like on Instagram for these things called pod decks, which are decks of cards without, you know, interesting questions on them for podcast guests and like that's pretty natice to get some more podcast guests. And then I so I ordered up those cards and I like it a lot because I am a tactile person. Having something on a laptop or like a touch screen or something my phone. It's not tacked all enough for me. Like sliding my phone my finger on glass does nothing really for me. Holding a deck of cards, it's really cool. Anyway, have these pod decks here and around the same time I also won this like free account at a place that connects podcast hosts with podcast guests, and that site is called Pottit dotnet. So all these...

...things happen at the same time and the kind of lift me out of the phone and they inspired me to like get going, and so I watched the pod decks guy, Travis is tutorials. He's got some workshops on podcasting and reinforced a lot of things I knew and kind of lit a fire under my ass a basically like well, you already know these things. Why don't you do it? Just didn't do it. Now in that case, they try to have monetized podcast and that sort of thing, which is not my thing. I just want to create interesting podcasts just to be heard, you know, like when you're lonely and you don't feel heard in your life, at least there is some hope of that when you put your voice into a microphone and send it out to the rest of the world. Right. So, freshly inspired from bodecks and pot it, I thought, okay, cool, and now what should I do? I don't want to like keep doing bipolar style because I don't I don't know if I have bipolar. I mean I definitely have those symptoms, but to what are they attributed to? Because they're...

...also connected with other conditions that I have. So we whatever. When you start layering so many different mental conditions or disorders or whatnot on top of each other, it's really hard to tell which one you have. I do know this much. I know that I've taken all of the bipolar medications. There's about a dozen of them, and they don't work. I've given them all their, you know, fair chance and that sort of thing, sometimes more than once over easily ten years, and it just not working. And if you've listened to my podcast in the past or the other episodes, you'll know that I strongly believe in what you focus on grows and if I'm focusing on bipolar, then that's that dominates my whole existence after a while. So like well, fuck it. You know, I created the that brand, John Emotions. Just to catch you up to speed on that. It is a...

...kind of a conglomeration of all the things I grew up with, like dougie fresh, the rapper, bunny, Carlos, the drummer for cheap trick and Wily Coyote, the cartoon character. They all had he as a middle initial, and I'm like yeah, I'M gonna I'll be John e what, HMM, emotions. Of like it had to have like that second word after he had to be a standalone word. So I'm like, Oh yeah, John Emotions. Cool. Anyway. That's a just like a thing like a stage name come up with, not a nickname. I'm not like trying to nickname myself because that would be a bad nickname, like I would not want somebody else to give that one to me. Anyway. Put The brand together, I'm like, well, Fuck Itt, let's let's spread this emotions brand out. And Travis had mentioned I think in a group or a comment or something. When I was asking a question, he said John Emotions, just to be John, you should call yourself John Emo and like well, HMM,...

...there's a good ring to it, but I would have too much invested in emotions. And but I'm like emo has a cool ring to it. What could I do with that? And I was in the middle of something. Oh the in, you know, martial art stuff, Dojo came up and I'm like, Oh yeah, why not call it Emo do Joe? So that was going to be the name of the actual podcast. But it's still put too much pressure on the podcast being about out something and it's not really about something. My podcasts just about me talking. So I had to kind of accept that the podcast is about me and whatever I feel like talking about. So I'm going to use the name EMO Dojo, since I've got thecom and the DOT Org and just call that the studio. So I'm put together studio. Of loosely have a studio anyhow. We're myself at a bunch of other creators put together podcasts, and so hey, let's call that Emo Dojo. I'll build that. It's kind of a side project to put on the...

...back burner but overall a banner unto which I can create shows like this one. So I'm going to call this one daily emotions, which kind of implies that I should be doing it every day. And in all honesty, that's why I called it that. I called it that so I had to fucking get up and do something every day. So daily emotions will be this podcast. Yeah, easy enough. Keep trying to get guests and I have a couple, but it's really hit and miss, even with pottit. Of the maybe dozen people have had communication with easily, I think five or six have flaked, just outright flaked for one reason or another. I guess if the reason is valid, it's not flaking, but whatever. It's hard enough to get guessed without people just straight up not showing up and frankly it hurts my feeling. Things and I take it Hella personally. So like well, fuck,...

...okay, let's how about a cohost. Jesus tried that like a year ago and that was a nightmare. So I think it. I'll try it with people I know well cool enough, like like my brother Gary Shock. We've been doing podcast for a long time. So we have a separate show called shock and emotions. Cool. We just he's still back in California. Kind of report back and forth as I travel across America and he says some Pretty Wild Shit sometimes that I've just have to distance myself from. So yeah, shock and emotions a good name for that show. But even then we'll working on a podcast. The other day keeps getting echo blah, blah, blah blah. So it turns out the fucking guy still hasn't got a Goddamn Ethernet cable and the adapter for his computer, and so all of the problems we've been having are because he's been trying to use Wi fi when we already discuss the problem is the Wi Fi. So just note to self, or not note to others. If you're trying to run a podcast, you have...

...to plug in the fucking wires into your computer. Trying to do it over Wi fi will give you shitty sound and like. Like. Here's the thing. Why are you going to buy a four hundred dollar Joe Rogan Mike if you're just going to broadcast through the air and diminish your sound right off the bat, before it even gets into the recording software? It doesn't even make any sense. So, anyway, back to shock. So we'll do shock and emotion shows frequently and we just will have guests and that audio quality just won't be up to par because you know, nobody else is as serious about it as me, which is fine, but this show I have full control over pretty much everything. Listen, the doorbell rings or something. So daily emotions will be this. Getting back to the guests, that flake. Yeah, I don't know what's say about that really, because it's not like we've always known each other's from communications, like email, communications back and forth,...

...and I've worked in in business, like as a professional for a long time. So my emails are normal. They're short sentences, concise, polite, effective. They list deadlines, dates and times and phone numbers and all that stuff. The another words kind dry. There's nothing there for people to say this guy's Weirdo or anything like that. It's not like super dry so where they say, well, it's kind of dry. It's not like. It's not like that. My point being is that when people don't take problem projects as seriously as I do, it fucks with my head. And even like work, work right now, I think I take the company more seriously than the people at work, for because I'm like a salesperson, but they don't buy business cards, or you know they don't. They have no marketing. Nobody even knows the product that they make exists, and so I'm out there...

...like making hoodies and t shirts and cool business cards and stuff, and I don't think they appreciate it. So that's a weird conundrum, isn't it? I can't find people that are as interested in my projects as I am and I'm more interested in other people's projects than they are. I don't know, some fucking conundrum. Anyway, thanks for letting me get that off my chest and I guess if you're going through similar things and feel similar frustrations, just, you know, don't let the bastards get you down, don't let the buses get you down, don't drop a cover when your head don't want to know. And now back to the wall.

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