Live from Emo Dojo
Live from Emo Dojo

Episode · 3 years ago

Wild Stallions and The Art of Emotions; Borderline and Bipolar Disorders Combined

ABOUT THIS EPISODE

Becky from That B-Word podcast stops by to help John Emotions test some new podcasting software and give some shout-outs to their current favorite social media followers. They also discuss entertainers with Bipolar-related shows and movies. During John's overdubbed Intro segment you'll hear sirens. He explains the sirens after the closing credits. This episode also announces the launch of John's second podcast The Art of Emotions on Apple Podcasts.

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Hey what's up, thank you for letting me back in yourhead again. I appreciate it. If you are subscribing, that's awesome, see lotsof downloads, and that means somebody's listening and you ar one of thosepeople so killer. This is kind of a bonus episode, so what I was doing,I've always kind of been torn between the bipolar style, just focusing onbipolar alone and me having an outlet all these noises sirens, I'm indowntown San Francisco by the way, so I've got my slack binging over thereand there's a fire truck, apparently stopping closeby anyway, so I've been torn with producing the bipolar style show andfocusing only on bipolar, because one of the reasons I wanted to have a podcast was so I could getthings off of my chests, regardless of what they were about, and sometimes Ifind the bipolar style context a little too limiting. So what I'm going to dois start. Another show just called the art of emotions. you know like Johnnymotions and the arts of emotions. That's going to be a lot shorter,podcasts, probably a lot more frequent. So if you tune into this podcast forbipolar information, excuse me if you tune into this podcastfor bipolar information, awesome, keep doing that and I will start to focuseven more on things very specifically to bipolar. If you listen to this show,because you like to hear me Yammer about then maybe go to JohnnyMotionscom and listen there to my Dailya podcast, that's also on itunesand spotify, and all that other stuff. So you can either listen to bipolarstyle for bipolar stuff or, if you just want to hear me Yack and talk andchatter and rant and rave go over to itunes and look for the art of emotions,cool all right. So to get to that point, I needed to test out some software.That would let me you know, talk on my phone and actually broadcast the podcast. That makes senseyeah. It lets me broadcast the podcast from my telephone and when I'm at homeI can also do live podcast like stream straight out, so people can commentsand we can chat while I'm actually pushing the audio out through theInternet anyway. Long Story Short, I needed some help- testing thisparticular software and who better to help me than myinternet, twitter friend, Becky from that Beword podcast. So she does apodcast about borderline personality disorder by polar and the variousthings that are attached to those disorders. We started our podcast around the sametime, so we're all kind of part of a same little click on twitter. I guess,if you will yeah it's pretty neat, so she helped me test the software and we did these likethree fifteen minute increments and they actually turned out pretty cool.So I'm just going to drop them here and let you listen to this as a kind of abackground podcast. Let me stop for a second. LET THE SIREN PASS! Oh, wait! It didn't pass it stopped.It's right downstairs! That's exciting! Anyway! Maybe I should go downstairsand take a look so I'll. Let you listen to these podcast Sonlineststylethis is becky from thatBword podcast, and this is johnny motions from Bipolar Style and Wer all right thanks for joining us fromaround the world, and we were trying to think of like well. Let's, let's doyour podcast and then mycast podcast and then we'll say and we're here tolike pump you up and but we needed to do something better than that and shegoes yeah like like wild stallians and like it. So we didn't come up withanything better than wild stallions. If you have something better, you know,let us know what that should be. If we do these podcasts again or will just bebetter than wildstallion, I don't think anything well, just perfect that as wedo it, I was just it itr with underohoh wait.They just heard the guitar rift because I'm definitely dropping that shit inunder our audio. Just now, for sure, Oh wait, do your listeners hear youcurse, because I don't think you curse on your show. Do they? Well, I don't not. I don't not curse onpurpose, but it's Ani it' got the explicit tag,so thank Yo, Somfi, stupid all right, not often yeah yeah. I didn't want tohave to put you through more work than you have to do:...

Noa, that's just which is kind of thenature of this particular podcast. This might even be like a bonus episode inmy list. I don't know how you're going to list it on yours into trash. Canmaybe it's like? No. This is not going on that B. Word at all, absolutely putit out as an episode. So, but we were beck and I were talking aboutthe different ways we make podcasts and I'm just currently testing some newsoftware. That will, let me do really short podcast, like thirty secondpodcasts from my telephone. This is not one of those, but this is the samesoftware. So anyway, we just want to test out the SCIPE function and Becky'salways been a gracious host and guess right I try to be yeah. We haven't startedour podcast at the same time, yeah we did and it's pretty it's pretty cool seyingeverybody kind of develop at the same time and get new listeners and feed off each other shows it's fun:Itisn't Emal community. It's like the new school there's an old school andnow we're the new school yeah, because the old school doesn't let us in. Inoticed it's like the seniors, don't let the freshman out of the littlefreshman fucking campus area, you know you're stuck on the freshman quad andthe sceniors like yeah, likea, Frenchman and like what are you likeanat high school yeah? Many many big high schools anyway, so yeah, but it is fun. Sorr go head. Yeah Know How many people,Eighty people in your class, eighty people in my class yeah, Oh ding, thatis little and that was Ohio as well Yep. That's like the Ohio that John CougerMellon camp kind of sings about Oh yeah. This is like deep red state. How do youlike down in the Cornfield Ohio you like it? You sound so developed I'. Idon't saying that to be like facetious or anything, but I mean you sound veryworldly, like a person that would live in San Francisco here, like I guess, the Internet makes things soyou can be as cultured as you want to or not and you've chosen to be cultured.Well, I listen to a lot of podcasts out of California. So do Yu what one too oh yeah! That wasthe other thing about this show is we're going to like talk about thevalue of social media and networking and other podcasts definitely come intothat? Are there some good? Well, I don't even want to say mental healthpodcast, because a lot about what our show is- and maybe your show as well-is like how do you live with the mental disorder? It's not just the bouteddisorder but like as a as a person with the mental disorder. I may do certainthings and I always find it cool when other people are into the same stuff.So what kind of podcast are you listening to right now? Well, we're talking about like kind ofthe West Coast type PODCASTS, there was one I was listeningto for a while called Interrobang, I'm not actually sure if they're puttingout new episodes. I haven't listened in a while, but they're kind of they talk a lot about the same sort oflike mental health issues, gender equality as ues things like that. Howdo you s whow? Do you say that name Intero? What's the last part: Bang Bangand Terro Bang Yeah, like okay, like funking on the head, Bang like a gun orsomething like an Terro Bang. It's the word for a kind of Oh. I can't think of the word likepunctuation mark that it's the cross between explation exclamation point anda questionmark wait, there's a there's, a part, there's a character thatrepresents those two or something in between them. Yeah Whoa, that's calledthe Matera, Terobang and you'll S, it yeah to shit. Okay, I'm just share thissociety before we digress too far. When I was a kid in high school, I played ina band called panic and I didn't know how to express it anywhere. I wantedpeople to think of it in a certain way, so it had the exclamation point and thequestion Wark, but I didn't know there was a character that met both of thosethat's totally cool: Oh yeah, yeah, that's pretty cool, alright, an TerroBang, podcast Yep and I think that's type discin and Travis mackael Roy. I think de that one and let's see what else do I listen outof California? I think think Ono Rossan carrys based out ofCalifornia they're pretty amazing. What do theytalk about Love Them? They are their tag. Aglint is a investigate, spirituality, Frenchscience and claims Thaf the paranormal, so they basically go through and likewell, for example, one of the investigationsthey did recently was they went to scientology. I mean I'm not going NA,get you killed for saying, and why no fuck? No, I win every time againstthose fucking idiots. Okay, good...

...yeah they did like like, went toscientology and started all the classes, and things andkind of was like we're reporting on what they were doing. There that's funand it was a lot of fun. Yeah, YEA, really cool they're, so silly. Yet,just to what w what Becky was saying, I think I probably talked about it on apodcast a while back, but anyway I used to work for a a traditional company outin the world. You know manufacturing company that had turned out was runcompletely by Scientologists, and I didn't know that until I like needed toget paid the commissions as a salesperson and they didn't want to payso anyway, I ended up having to sue them, and that was part of the issuewas that they had this kind of glass ceiling. I don't know what the rightelement to use for their ceiling would be not glass but some kind of weird assmaterial space, age, material ceiling, but you can't functur Anum, yeah yeahright exactly so all of the management everybody, and they had this huge roomfull of these books with the I think it was called the wise business managementtheory or something was like an encyclopedia Britannica of what RonElron Hubbard things jusre supposed to do in business. Basically, I superWEIRDM anyway, so but and I'm not throwing scientalogist under the busper se any more than any other religion. I think you're all Wacky, I just thinkthey're on NHUTS. I appreciate if, but just the same, the things I use formyself to heal myself and to feel wanted and need it on the Earth arthey're very unique to me. So I don't really want knock religion too much. Ijust it's so out out er space to me. It doesn't matter if it's like scientologyor Christianity, it's it just doesn't matter to me yeah. Now I never really found much usefor religion. I wish I did actually. I wish that I found some solice in it, but I justdon't well now any sense O me. It's not the faith. I like faith. I like theidea of hope. I love all of that. What bothers me are fake religious people,because if I like, I ould go to a Buddhist temple here in town or I can usit in the Pews at St Patrick's Cathedral alone and that's verymeditative. I, like the feeling, it's really interesting, but when you startmeeting people that are in these various religions, they become sojudgemental of everything and then the whole bit about mental health being amore of a spiritual problem than a Scien problem that is so dangerous andthat's really driven me away from Church in general. I guess right yeah, unfortunately, there's still people outthere who would rather say that you're, you knowsomehow spiritually a Cenner orrightsest or something oh you're,ventally ill. Oh, how many ses partners have you had like? That's they go rightthere. How many sex partners have I had wat the sex cause it like you know,irrational have ferel sex has yeah yeah the apparently. That was the thing. I'mreally still reading that book. infextious madness, it's amazing and itjust it kind of goes back to the history of the church versus thescientific community who gets control of the mental illness people and it'salways been. It's been a wrestle. You know the science and the pharmaceuticalpeople are like Nope, it's medicine. We want them at all costs. Yeah. Thechurch is like wait. Slow down, we can prey away the crazy and you know so. Ieither way I like wait. I'm stuck in the Middle Caw gone. Take me away, yeah yeah, so well, okay, I'm watchingthe software we're using says we have five minutes. So that's perfect becausemy podcast listens. Love Short bursts because I'm a spas and you're like theopposite, ind, smooth and mellow, and you had a good point when you weretalking to joe the other day in that you are one of few voices that havethat tone, because there are a lot of dudes, apparently that are like yeah. Icould do a podcast and typically like most, the podcast is white males, so itis. It is cool having your voice out there, and here you hear that ID Siron. Okay, I live in the shady part of town. IT'S PRETTY SHADY WAIT! UNTILL! you seesome of the videos I've taken yere, Oh my goodness, ieve im up on YouTube. I will want tocan contectualize them a little bit S, because I'm not trying to mock thepeople on video, taping or recording. I mean yeah and I don't want to. I don't want anyracest comments or anything like that or you K O those people should do this,or that I mean it's just it's just it is what it is. I live literally aroundthe corner from a police station and there's high crime right in front of mydoorstep. You know what I mean: It's just you want to see the wild west takea look at this. WHENDON trump makes fun of quote unquote. Inner cities he'smaking fun of this, but I like it. I don't know why he'smaking fun of it. He should check it out, sometime...

...yeah thati. Do you want to e someoneshout out some twitter shoutouts? I do okay, because here's the thing like alot of people on twitter are really helpful and I think they're always there. I don't know I just like torecognize people right yeah. So there's a lot of really cool people on twitter.Like a you, have some corner that we are in right right. Do you have somefavorites I'm going to go and let me pull up mine who just people that e youknow what I do itis quick. I Love Sarah fader she's awesome. I love her twitter,Oh yeah yeah. I like her things, stand out to me visually andshe has. She uses weird letters. Sarah Fader does yeah yeah and he's alwaysretreating efen birds, which is away Sh. Wait. Where do you go to find this sa?I feel like an old person, her I'm like who am I following? Well here's thething I did in like a twitter check and I had like ninety nine percent real. Ihad like one fake follower, which I was happy with because I prune thesefollowers back pretty hardcore like I don't really follow any brands backbecause I don't want to ads in my stream anymore and there are, and I tryto make sure that their twitter name matches their handle. So it's like.Okay, that's probably human whichits- funny, because there's a lot of peoplethat are not mentivly ill. That seem like real humans that follow sometimeslike that's really interesting, yeah yeah. Well, I guess Lukli like us:Maybe there maybe they are but they're not out, so to speak, right, they're,not tweeting about it or anything like that yeah exactly. I have to looke that to us theprofessionals now just gn the professional, loud mouth, here'swhat I've been so I go and follow people that have bipolar in their name.So speaking by polar, is a new one. That's a good one! Moh! You know who'sreally. Actually, if you have bipolar disorder and you're, not followingMaria Bamford, you got to follow her because she is like not only personthat has suffered with the disorder, but she's told her story in a way thatlay people can understand and also what was I going to say. Ohshe's, like one of us, I mean she's really in from what I can tell fromwhat she retweats is really progressive and, like not afraid, even as acelebrity to retweet hard things and I'm like Whoa. That's that's allright! So not it's not just I'm onorn nuts, because monern nuts or anythingI'm staing. Did you know what you hear this term stand it's. I didn't I didn't know it wasfrom the MNM Song, but I didn't know in the mnm Song He'se the term stand for astocker fan yeah. I didn't know that until likethree weeks ago, I'm like or Dirk I'm late, dumb wait. I don't this is going to gotoo short. Can we do two? Two fifteen minutors? Yes, okay, thisis! This is going to runout of time, ind like thirty seconds, because I'm just on this little smallplan here but again, like I said it's a test.SPRI are you gonna Upload them separately? Yeah ther'll be twodifferent MP threes, this one's counting down to like twenty seconds. What do you? What do you yeah the? Sothis is like the commercial break of the PODCAST, all right, folks, rat thefifteen minute mark the weather is forty, eight degrees and rainy. What'sit like, where you are right now as cold as fuck, it's Coldas fuck overthere, where Becke is in Ohio and we're going to go downtown to the samepatrick stay pread, we'll catch you right back here in about two seconds on Sexcllentoh, we're back: Hey we're wild stallions, yourn earaner.What's up it's John For bypolar style and Bucky from that bword Al Right!That B, word podcast, as I like to say, be cubed borderline by polar andbeautiful. There you go. I saw your little taglinethere. I was listening to your podcast with Mr Bipolar Joe. I want I'd like todo a podcast with him. He brought up some interesting points both aboutmarijuana and about family court. I guess would be the bestway to say that, so, if anybody's interested in those things check outthat B, word podcast with Mr Bipolar Joe and he's real fascinating to talkto you, I like his accent, yeah, and I think he should connect with. If he'snot already, somebody I', I follow, called Nerorebel. I think that's her name she's big time into she's like what we are,but for the autistic community, okay or for the community of peoplewith autism. I've read an interesting thing. The other day that some scientist for a minute thereabout last year, as recently as last...

...year, had come to the conclusion likewait. A second outism isn't really a disorder, it's a distinct, just kind ofperson. It's just a personality type T people act that way, and it was supercontroversial, but mostly because a lot of the data kindof indicated that it's just it's just the way of living. But then the otherfolks came back and showed new science and said Nope nope it. It's still adisorder anyway. Yeah when bipolar Joe was talking about autism. In his day,life I' instantly recalled the crossover on twitter from some of thedifferent mental health alliances, mental health activists. Some of USshare empathy- I guess with others and Autisautism, is one of those things Ishare. Empathy with and it's pretty cool, so yeah, Mr Bipolor Joe, is oneof the guys. I think you guys should follow on twit iy yeah, O Kan he'sawesome that your your my new fiber guy yeah, his name's, your staff. You want to tryto Spel your Stufh, okay, I'm going to go with e Ou r, St.Ah, it's CRIG pretty good. It's it's Jay Zeo, zero ste! Oh your stuff, yeah,that's Noklass at' and I don't even think zero. Zero is the rightcharacters. They just don't have those characters in this world aanyway, Isaid: Give it your best. Shout man make it sound more international boy put astoil. It worked yeah right, it's kind of funlike that. Oh remind me, eames Ames is great person to follow. Oh yeah, it was s twitter to follow. I like I like her,and so just just briefly, if you're listening and you and you are listening,we're in your head right now just go to bipolar. I mean go to eitherby polar style or that be word spot twitter stream and you can follow alongthere because I honestly, like I, don't know if Mr Bipolor Joe, I don't knowwhat his actual handle is and aims, and that Shur the candal is, I think itmight be, Mr by Poy, Joe or Mr Hole Spill, the JOBP. NO THAT'S ISE! Wellyeah, but I mean t you Gov it, Mr Bibo Yeah. If you guys know how to amstwitter, just go to twitter and poke around at either of our streams andlook for the and, if Yoto, and why not? Now why not? My twitter has picked up a lot once Iquit facebook at the end of the year, yeah t like it's a lot easier, just tofocus in one place and now basically, I focus on either twitter or the slackchannel by Polar Party that we're in which is pretty fun. I think that Wullbe bee. I O theway, that's pretty awesome yeah, it was cool. I tried itown, a couple other platforms over the past. You know, eighteen months or so,and I just I know and likes slack, so I figured if I'm going to be thereanywhere anyway, why? Why start nother platform anyway, so yeah reality andpositivity? That's an our mental health she's really nice. She always forwardspeople's Nice messages, she's very positive and uplifting because, likeI'm kind of a Dick on twitter, so, but I mean you hear my tone, I'm like I'm,not a actual Dick, I just kind of prickly. I guess right, but you hearthe tone of my voice and, generally speaking, I'm kind and I'm just I just like to be provocativeand kind of be an ass whatever. So that's my tone, but some of thesepeople are genuinely really kind: Yeah Unpacke sparkl. You know an back sparkl,great yeah, so he's great because he's proudly gay and by polar he's, awidower and he just flaunts it. So I love that and that's what people loveabout him too. So unpack sparkle, big shout out to you! I do you follow Amelia, no, I'm sazythe strange hold on. Let me see I want to go there now: Daisy, yeah, she's,really she's great. She loves yeah YEA, follow each other yeah with a littleanchoros a lot of positive stuff. I really am into her twitter. All the positivity yeah see I got I getcaught up because I accidentally a lot of people in my stream retweetthings that are political and then I end up accidentally following thefucking political account and then every week or two I have to go trim outall the political things, because then my my bipolar style stream becomes toanti gun this week or raging against trump. That week, I'm like oh now. Theydon't want to hear all that Shit Yeah Anyway, just I'm on it I'm trying to. But we got a shout out to Diane Harwoodwith the Li Yeah Diane Dy aanny. She has been kind of. What do you call it? Whenyou're up in bed strung up hung up in bad, whatever lad up? That's it. LateLay Atstong up, I'm jsn bed, l of fferent kind ofayeah. She had abroken jaw, so we'll miss her and for a...

...little while longer, but hopefully shegets back on her blog she's, a great person to follow yeah, that of ErisEris Shacq, Oh yeah yeah. I don't think he likes me, but I like him so whatever I don't, I don't think he likes the way.I talk about by polar I'm too cavalier and flippint with the terms I use yeah, maybe, and also I'm very into you-know the meaning of words totally, and I'm very. I appreciate that too. Wejust see different words o different way, but yeah Cherez spell that sopeople can find t at it's. Er, Ez, Shek, cool cool and he's also got a a youtubechannel, so he's very active and he reminds he like unpacked sparkle t, that's kind ofhis market. Yeah dig it see. I know you canire, can'tplease everybody yeah by polar on fire, that's a good one! I follow to it'sfunny. I have a lot of borderline people that are in my community to doyou. Well, you do because Yourselfav oclaime borderliner yeah yeah that borderline guy I'm trying tofind his handle. I can't find it, but the folof his twitter, it a border likeone cool mm. I like when it's easy to find like that, once you that's that'sthe other thing that kind of trips me out right is. I think we are talkingabout t at the beginning of the earlier podcast, just now kind of the anonymity bit like yourself, Mr Mr, by Polor Joe and me we're allkind of anonymous right. We hide behind our icons. So what's your opinion ofpeople that are full on like this is what I do here's my face. I think it'sI mean it's great. I think that it's great people feel that they can do that and it's still survival the real world,especially in capitalism, where they judge that the stigma is so strong thatyeah. I always wonder how people that are not famous for things like like Adamans or Russell brand or MariaBanford, or somebody like that. It's like, Oh, what they're famous forsomething else, and they also bold enough to say hey by the way I'mfucking I have by polar disorder, yeah, so o rusfe brand he's so great. Do youfollow his Youtube? I haven't seen it for a while. I don't follow a lot. Ijust I don't know like made a conscious effort to live out in the real worldand people. Think like Oh you're, better than use you don't use you tuberTV, but an I fucking hell of use, Youtube and Tov. I just it's. Just likea likea matic person. I just watch a random video of. I have a pen. I havean apple, I mean I just watch some weird shit right and that's it and thenI'll go away outside and so but I'll watch Russell Brandon when some of hisvideos reached kind of the fevered Pitch Tho get shared around youtubeanyway, but yeah he's reall great. I like the fact that all those people Ijust mentioned are very articulate. They can kind of convey a principle ora point really clearly to a person, that's healthy and make the personthat's Healthyo. Think oh by polar people aren't so crazy. After all,right, yeah yeah, it's good to have people that can do that yeah. We need afew of them. I trugle with that. So I'm glad some that's the thing I wasreading about label theory, there's a thing called label theory. where I meanbasically, you become what people call you. So I always worry the most aboutpeople newly diagnosed with something like borderline or bipolar disorder,because I think it fucks with their head a little bit and all of a suddenthey think. Oh, I'm dying, I'm dead, Yep I've got stage for bipolar it'sover yeah and I'm just like no man Youre the same person. You wereyesterday with more clarity. That's all so take that for what you will, butbasically you know different than you were yesterday. You just have moreknowledge, so you're, not yeah you're, not any more sick, because you gotlabelled you' just more knowledgeable yeah. So I mean you have to know whatsomething is before you can fight it or treat it or howver. You want to look atit, Yep Yep. Yes, you can't fight a an enemy that youdon't know. So exactly so, yeah go if you, if you ever feelcrazy, like if you're listening to this and you haven't been diagnosed, not notyou becky. Obviously we already know what's wrong with you, no just playing, and but I mean to NewPeople that find this show randomly and like are just wondering if you havesome kind of disorder, there's no well take it back. There is some shame, butit shouldn't be internal. It shouldn't be on you, I'm saying there is a stigmaand some of the fears you have about being labelled might be true right.Would you would you concur on that? I mean because I tint's definitely stigma.I does exist, yeah yeah, but that's no excuse to deny yourself that knowledgeabout yourself like if you think you might be feeling crazy, just go findout. Maybe you have something maybe there'something wrong with your brain.It's not you! You didn't have sex too...

...many times, it's not a moral dilemma.It's a brain disease yeah and I mean there's so much support, at least in the online area that Ifollow it. You can always find somebody to talk to Ou if you're feelingoverwhelmed or so like of speaking of the people thatare outspoken under their own names, electroboy, USA, Andy Burman, he's goodh, yeah by polar activists he's just at electro boy, US e over. Do you ever go to twitter? I'M D:Do you ever go over to Instagram, not much? I don't do much on it.There's some funny ones. Over there, there's like halfway to Hanna she's, abipolar activist, there's the bipolar, Barbi she's, a bipolar activist, andyou know they're pretty bold. They might not. I mean I don't actually knoweither one of their real names, but who cares? You know they're using theirreal faces and speaking their truth, telling Thi story, it's kind of cool.It's even to me more bold, on Instagram, where you actually have to show yourface because I'm a big old coward. They had behind my smily faced guy, but youknow to each his own yeah, there's ames, oh so eames hi, hieames her an her twitter is eames can do a M es. Can Du with the K Kan do and yeah she's always around likewhenever I'm like? You can just tell like on twitter when people follow youby what they like and the way they reply. If they're genuinely nice peoplege like yeah, how fast they reply if you're in need some people are like, Ohand they'll, say the right thing. So Ames is one of those people dig it andy good friend Onica. That's who I stay within New Orleans and Louisianas reeport andwhatnot, AH YEAH SO IA. That was great, overrun by dogs, but I think overrun, Ithink, he's a political guy. So sorry buddy, I like th speaking to animals, Iam Bo show. Do you follow him? Oh, Oh, my God! It's IT'S JUST CATS! It's Alenhis cats, I'm going over here! He SPCA. Today, literally I plann my bite my busroute. I have to get around the fucking St Patrick's parade somehow, but I'mhopping on a bus to go to the SPCA to look at Kitty's today. I think I wantto get one. I thought about dogs right, but with dogs in the city you got towalk them and when you walk them around this neighborhood you're walking themon yeah germs and then you're walking themback into your house, and then they jump on your bed. You O see what you awith this, especially edid, the infectious madness book about germs andhow they can cause some mental illnesses. Yeah. I couldn't read that Imean we o see how you're doing it. We got like five seconds literally youwant to do it again sure I don't Careyeah Enhi. This is pecky from that Bwordpodcast and this is johnny motions from Bipolar Style and ware Ar Wilestallions. Now that was that was not our best thats, not ar not ar worse,but they haven't heard the practice ones and that's true, okay, so toexplain now why thore's three fucking podcast here is we're testing somesoftware, we're testing some software called spreaker, which I dig, whichwill ultimately allow me to podcast from my phone from anywhere for tenseconds at a time. There's a fifteen minute Livin on this thing andapparently Becky, and I can't limit ourselves to fifteen minutes at a timewe just talk Tou much yeah. This is the third third one around, which is isgreat, so typically we're like hining Yang to each other and yeah, but you're IIN ATS kin of myyou're, an introvert yeah. Yes, I'm an extravert see that's it, but actually that makesme yen right. That's I had to look it up the last time I tried to make themetaphor online because I didn't want to look like an idiot and but in thiscontext I don't want to assume that one of us is the light and one is the darkeither. So, let's just leave M with that. It's cool, I'm I'm colbeing thedare well, I'm yeah, I'm cool with being theasshole just that like loud fucking wish that guy would shout up. Guy Yeah Man, people subscribe to yourpodcast a here. You Talk. What else do you think they do it? For? I don't. Ihave no fucking idea. I think Theyr pofuse push the wrong button. They likethe logo or something like all right. L, cool, loo, thanks people, but Yeah BiPol, so we're basically just going through if you haven't listened to thelast two episodes beck and I are going through some justof our favorite twitter people and that favorite of all time, just kind ofcurrently favorite, because you know what have you done for me. Lately istop of the mind and really were just scrolling through a twitter and seeingwho've been talking to u lately, but there's alot lot of cool stuff outthere, Brian Hinkel, his a new guy. I...

...think he just droined our SLAT group toif you go to Bi Tanny. I think so he asked about it. I think, but he's notusing that name. Maybe in slack I'd have to check he's my he's. One of my listeners, HeyBrian, how you doing Wai is in slack over dude, do do to do. Maybe he changed hisname to norm. L Tisino, I'm just playing I'm not so I thought normal somebodyelse, maybe not probably. I haven't actually asked I'm just assuming whopeople are right now. Man So also like. Have you like,generally speaking, for New People for new bipolar orborderline, but particularly by porter B Breberpeter by polar in this case? Have you noticed any good roles inentertainment, projects, movies, film, shorts documentaries, TV series orwhatever that that represent bi polar and not like an accurate light? Let'ssay I don't care if it's Positiveo a negative, but have you seen any of thatthat represent by polar accurately to you? Well, I really you got me intoMera Bamfords, Oh gosh. I can't remember the name of it now. Maybe youknow at YEP, yeah, lady Diedait, Yeah Doer me on to that, and I really Ho itit's so deep and so rich and detailed. So, Oh yeah, wherever you are, if yousign up for a free netflix trial, just go straight to lady dynamite and watchMaria Banford. If you're aware of Maria Banford, then I'm sure you've alreadyseen it hic she's also got another one called I get it wrong all the time astandup called grown baby. I think it's called yeah. I was just looking at her twitterpage and it's on there, she's, really unique, and in that she portrays peoplewith bipolar disorder and actually has it, which is great. It's like hiring agay guy to play a gay guy in a movie or a black person to play a black personin a movie. It's neat when you can actually hire the person with thedisability to play a person with the disability yeah like yeah, because the other thingthat comes to mind is like Claire Danes, remember: Clair, Danes, Oh yeah and now she's on homeland homeland yeah.But what was he on in the s? What was that my so called life? Does that clan?I think so I just remember: There's a cool band called size, fourteen thathad an excellent song called Clair Danes poster and probably slide it in right. There Iyou,don't no we're GONGNA fix it. I housev some fear stay at home and stare at byClar Dam's poster, so appently cl dame as a marginal jobof representing somebody with bipolar disorder. I don't really watch thatshow. I don't have show time yeah, I'm not Reatin, I'm not rich. I don't haverich people, showtime, cable, premium, cable money so who else gotthers Onlo? Oh wait:STVERLINING, playbook yeah! I haven't actually seen thateither. Okay, that was reasonable. That was a reasonable depiction of somebodywith bipole or disorder. I thought Oh wait except the wrong person I thinkwas depicted with it. So in the movie the LE'n, the dude has it. Oh, Ithought it was. The girlit did yeah the Goup. In my perspective, the girl actslike somebody with bipolar disorder. That's pretty close the dud. Just Idon't know. I guess he does, but yeah just check that out. Silver linings.Playbook is worthy of anybody. That's interested in bipolar disorder just towatch how those people act, how they amp up the situation, how things getlike turned up really fast, without good reason, that kind of thing yeah,yeah it just everyday, live situations, kind of a you know a year in the life of kind ofthing, and it's also a love story. So it's Nice! It's got Chris Tocker, yeah Y, a haveyou heard. The of this new movie coming out called UNSANE can yo Sayngcommarcials, for that I saw and of all over Youtube and stuff yeah. I saw thetrailer not the like the short trailer and I've seen the video card. Like theyou know, the advertisement card for it yeah. What do you think about that? I'mkind of not. I don't think, that's reallysomething that I want to see. Let me refresh my memory. It's got. Oh, it's a stupid, SODER Brogfilm! Now, I'm not into his stuff a lot he's a little young woman is involuntarily committedto a mental institution where Sheis confronted by a greatest fear, but isit real or a probem of her delusion Al Ri s was this guy? Who was stalking herand yeah? I would like that that movie...

...would probably make me feel trapped. Iwould probably have to get out of the theater just because I can't handle myown emotions, but it sounds like a paranoid delusion that I would havelike Oh ea do like. I want to go to the fucking Bergency Room, because tthey'll keep me there forever and you know yeah. I always like a as a kid Iused to like Whoa what, if they accused you of something and you weren't,because I think I used to go to like little weird classes as a kid like asecond grade, we would go learn about Greek mythology. One Time we learnedabout the Salem wics trials and they had talked about like well. If youwereaccused, they would tie you up and throw you off the plank of a ship andif you drowned you weren't to witch, but if you swam, you were a witch andthen theyd burned you at the steak, so that was always in my hand. I'm likewell you're, just fucked. If someone accuses you of being mentally illbecause they're either going to you know, force you to do it that way orthat way, but either way their label sticks yeah. It's too much. No boy yeah, I I don't think I'll beable to se either is just gong to this is going to be terrible. I'm moreworried, though I mean I don't have to see it. If I don't want to right, butI'm more worried that it's going Na, oh yeah, there was a movie lastery.That was like that. I forot what it was called, but it was the same type ofthing: a Split Personality: One was it called Split? Yes, slit yeah. Did youever see that I did not see that one either? For the same reasons yeah, Ican'. I guess I kind of avoid a lot of those kind of movies you haven't seenany of ther ones. Wo've talked about the last one I saw that I did like thathad to do with that kind of mental illness was way back like in the ninetystick. STIGMATA was that the one were just kept, forgetting Shit, O Stikmato was the one with Oh yeah that was thed lag er wat stickat okay, that was Satanic Possession Movie Stickmota da yeah. What was itcalled with the guy kept? He had no short term memory. He had a tattooeverything on his body, Momento Momento, yeah yeah, so I like that that wasclever and that had to do with some kind of mental illness. I guess butyeah. What about musicians like? Did you ever get into the like? Somemusicians are pretty outspoken. Some ore, less Adamat was like known for that. You seen the Amy Wine House movie. Ihaven't now that's O great movies, because it's all home video, it's notthere's nothing shot on a pro camer. It's all her and her friends shootingher life and Edilan really really well, but what I got from that was I shemight have a touch of that too. Not I'm Li. I can't I mean it's easy for me tosay I'm just guy talking with the Mike I'm not a doctor, obviously, but sheappeared as a person who was trying to treat her by polar disorder with drugs.That's what it appears like to me just as a person. WHO's done. The same thingI'm like that looks like looks like a girl version to me m glad. I'm not dadyeah yeah, that or kind of reminds me a lotof nirvana crt codaine to Oh yeah. There'sa that way, really darkya documentaries about that too. Some of them includesome great scribbles from his own Journal, use the the graphics from hisown life that he had drawn to excellent effect. That was great, Oh and trip onthis okay. What happened? Miss Samon, I think, isthe name of this- about Nina Semon, okay, iamtatya Thad's, inspiring, ifyou don't know, Nina Samons work folks out there outside of America. She waslike a black activists back in the S, but also this really influential soul,singer or I guess jazz, so she had really Sultra lottle timber voice andshe was amazing, but what I didn't know about it, because I just learned herher music through that what was it was like a bridget Fonda movie, no way out orsomething like that where she played like an assassin back in the day shewas obsessed with MENA semone. Her character was obsessed so back in theNES. I found out about Nena Samon anyway, forward to today. Well she's,definitely bi polar or has bipolor disorder. Have you want to say that mana SOMOT? What happened? Miss Samone definitely check that out, because it'sinteresting to watch from a different perspective ofsomebody who has bipoleor disorder but is also black who's, also, a womanwho's hardcore civil rights activist and then she ends up marrying like thisex white New York, Sirpico cop dude, and that's that's her guy and theremakes like this team and they tackle the record industry together and thewhole thing. It's an amazing story and watching the whole thing: it's likeyeah power to the bipolar people. It's a fun watch. That's a good totm, yeah,Adam ant, remember adamant from back in the day by polar yeah yeah, the two that that don't acknowledge it,and this might be something to think about whether or not you acknowledge bypolar in public is Elon Musk and somebody like sting yeah.I just heard about Elon Musk right, but...

...but he doesn't come out right and sayit. He says it in a way that George Cludy doesn't say, he's Gay. You knowit's like it's like e. it's that important T, clune's gay! No, whenpeople ask George Cludy, if he's gay his answers almost universally, it'snone of your business, but not because he's gay. It's just like. He veryfirmly believes that it's none of anybody's business, about eitherdirection but ye, and so I think that people like staying and Elon Musk.Although they've alluded to it, we don't know their medical recordsthey're not outright saying I have bypolar disorder. So it makes youwonder like it was that theire acknowledge bids. Are they misusingwords? What the way I thought that Yelon Musk was saying it was that itwas sort of like a self diagnosis for him that he thought that you know thathe hadn't actually gotten diagnosis on it. Yeah t like in how much study didhe do on the topic? The SOLK TAT? Yes, which, but I mean it's valid, he's yeahblack of slut and but drive super low, wotevity, yeah, yeah fight flights of Faci and the greatdelusions of Grandir. Let's fly to mcars, but look someting that shitactually works. You know takes kind of quote, unquote a crazy person to pushsociety's envelope and if he is a bipolar disordered person, thenblessing man wean going like this forever, soyeah prob anyway. Well, we got like I' ve got a minute, thirty left, so thisis about to cut off we've, given both both shows. The the B word show that B,word show and my polar style stoil like for forty five minutes of content ofcompletely aseless content, but I appreciate es why not people like tohear? I guess talking, and I think it if this sounds as good as it sounds inmy ears. People will appreciate the the different tones in a podcast, the manwomantone Myeah. I think yeah sounds as layers offlavor, it's pretty cool so anyway. I appreciate ot time, thanks for takingtime off on Saint Patty's Day, enjoy your new car. Thank you thanks fortalking to me till the wife and kids, and you got animals thanks. If you gotanimals tell them all thanks for your time. Oh yeah, I'm going Ta go look forMadamall and I look for a Kitti like for the same reasons. I just said: Areyou going to get a little little baby, one I'll get whatever speaks to me?Really, I'm just going to the rescue cages and we'll look around, because Ihave a certain look in mind and it doesn't pertain to age or anything justlike how they respond to me, how the how strong their neck is when they pushup against my hand, when I go to scratch Hem and there's a lot of littlethings involved, I've been a cat person. Most of my life, but I like dogs, a lotto I just don't want a dog in the city for the germ reason. We talked about yeah yeah, culd easee that Whit'sdefinitely an Itsu. You got ta Url for your podcast. I do it's. That B word at stone, fruit,Media Dat, net cool and I am at by Pola stylecom N Ahey. You stuck around good thinking all right, so that was pretty fun right.I thought so ITWAS NEAT I like to have a second voice. Kind of bouncing offmine gives the show a little more context, a little more contour and yo kn. I thought it was fun I paid for the software by the way, sowe don't have those fifteen minute stops at every point. That's great I'll,be using that on Monday, when I talkd to Becca Lombardo about keep talking,MH and okay. So here's the thing beforewhen I added he the little intro bit before the podcast. You heard thesirens, so those sirens did stop at my building and okay, so little backgrounds, I manage a big building where theybasically hows all the the lowest rung of society. People are broken and sickand they don't have any healthcare workers or they're just totallyforgotten people right. So people die pretty frequently and I'm used toseeing dead people Rigar Mortis and that sort of thing, hopefully theircaregiver or adult protective services, had checked on them frequently enough,so they don't start to sting that's kind of gross, but we've also implemented someprograms, since I've got here to wear neighbors check on each other. Soanyway, from a property management standpoint you do the best you can withwith the broken old people that are near death, but today was different.

When those sirens were down there, there was a gal social worker had cometo do a welfare check on whatever clients. So what she had found was that he hadpassed away, which okay, that's one thing, and so she was by the time youknow went downstairs. She had grabbed the dog and she was waiting in thelobby. There's the dog, and I'm like: Oh Damn that stinks like if you've eversmelled a dead body who you never forget the smell and it gets instantlyup into your sinuses and make your eyes water and gets in your throat. It feelslike you taste it Eis norly anyway, so I just kind of shut the door grabbed aa fan Wasi last time. Apparently this happened. Somebody didn't put a fan inthe room and it just got stinkier and stinkier, because we weren't allowed tobreak the seal after the police had taken away the body, not we, but whoever was working herethen, like I said, I'm the new guy hereanyway, so we got the fan in the room and waited for the police, so the policewere doing their work and then the corner examiner office guy. He came up,he was doing his work and we had had some his ID an some keysthat the social worker had in her hand, had given to us. So he said. Okay, Ineed because she had taken off the social worker, lady and we had the dogdownstairs in my assisted manager's office waiting for the SPCA, so thepolice said. Okay, can you come upstairs and you know what the GuyLooks like right? I'm OK, Yeah Yeah! So let me just can you identify if I goToke a picture of his of his face? Ano sure, of course, I'm getting choked up just thinking ofthe smell he goes in the room. Comes Back Down The hall about Twenty Feet,down the hall and says Nope, it's not identifiable like whatthe fuck. What does that mean? He brought the other guy. They had somekind of quiet discussion, ind were back and forth and they wanted to go. Youknow they walked back in the room and I'm like dude. Can I look and he's lake?Well, you might not want to, but he doesn't know me. I'm curious is fuckinglike yeah. I totally want to look at like what I want to see like what isthat what's going on over there and my man not sure I wanted to see that, butI'm glad I did because it so impactful. So here's what happened- and I don'tknow how the re I know what I saw. I don't know what the fucking report'sgoing to show or whatever, but the guy has no next of kin. They signed themoff as John Doe because had no face at the face. So what it looks like to me, ithappened, and this is what's said because I knowa bit of the history of the guy h been here like six weeks or so, and I knowthis particular guy was taken away a couple of weeks ago because of mentalhealth problem and he was kind of paranoid and roaming around the halls.With a big old knife. Excuse me, freaking people out, I'm used to people roaming around withknives, so it didn't really freak me out, but it definitely you knowsomething we had to address his social worker came back. Then he was resistantto any kind of help or going to the hospital voluntarily, so he resistedand the police took him away and anyway, since then he's been back, but I putthat into context because of what I saw in the Room Holy Shit. Okay, I saw twolike helium tanks. Look like the kind youo'd get at the you know: Craft Storefor your heling balloons at a kids party, two of those tanks, some rubbertube into a you- know, hefty bag wrappedaround his head. It's pretty clear. He died by suicide to me, I'm justthinking myself professional death merchant. I don't know what those guysright in their reports or what's even relevant after the guys passed on, butI'm like wow. That's that's just sad because, as you know, we have a bipolarshow. Here we talk about mental health. All the time on twitter and it's just suicide is a whole differentthing. When people die of old age, they just fade away that, like I said thathappens a lot and used to seein dead bodies in this particular case, thoughthis guy just wasn't a dead body. This guy had taken his own life, I believeearly. Just by the the way the room was set up. Here's the shocking part might want toskip forward through this or just go to the next episode or something becauseit's Narley not only on the dudes head, where the like white,hefty bag kind of thing was wrapped around his neck. So there the bag wastorn open. Like the dog who lived in there waslike a corgy size, dog hmm, maybe was a corgy or Jack Russell, Terry orsomething. You know something around that that range, I'm just going to say w at what I thinkhappened. I think the dog fucking tore open, ripped open the the hefty bag andate the dudes face. I've heard of this...

...happening. I've never seen it in personfive feet away, but when the cop, let me in there to go, take a look and I'mlike Whoa that is fucking Narley the dudes fucking head was like eating awaydown to his skull. His nose was gone. His eye was out of the socket you couldsee, is his whole teeth and Jawline, and that didn't just happen from thehelium inside of a paper bag. The paper bag was definitely ripped and that dogwas not hungry. So we had the dog downstairs in the in the office like the assistantmanager's office and the assistant managers like just real happy. Oh, wetake care of the dog Bate Ata and I come downstairs. I'm like H, fuck keepthat keep that dog's deaf mouth germs, the fuck away. Fror me he's been eatingface and she last like a funny. Oh has that's Funny Fire Department guy madethat same joke. Am I ask no joke. I just came from fucking upstairs. I sawthe guys skull missing his face and that dog ate it. She goes what I'm like. Don't give thedog any kisses, not that dog not today, so man anyway. So is you glad you stuckaround for that? Oh, which kind of brings me to the whole point of thispast episode, putting together this other software, I'm going to do muchmore frequent, shorter podcasts over at Johnny Motionscom. So if you just wantto hear my day today, misadventures that's the place to be, and that way Ican keep bypolar style, which you can listen to it by polar stylecom, justmore focused on bipolar issues, sound cool all right, but either way, if youwant to buy polar style stuff subscribe on Itunes, same thing, johnny motions,the show there on itunes is called the art of emotions, and you can find itdirectly through the Internet. If you don't want to subscribe through Itunes,just go. Do Johnny, Motionscom, Cool Cool, all right! There's my kid textingme he's heading back from college spring break. I'm excited Al Rightcheck it out glad you listened and I hope to see you on the internets fisitme on twitter, bypolar style or johnny motions. Tok Care See you.

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